Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I knew It's not a good start, especially when the time I step up from house and met a lot of strange people with hopeless look gazing at me. OMG, really freaking out my day. I'm so nervous. I decided to call one of my friend and It's really relieve me a little, at the end he concludes my symptoms as a stress symptoms. Cheers!
My life is changing, I don't know why, and It always happen. as what my subject said previously, identity changes every time, and that's where I am now. I following my daily activity, at the same time it changes the way I interact with people. but seriously, I'm still the same person. I met one of my good friend last semester, he ask what I've been doing these days, and as what I told everyone, "I always at home and I don't hang out with everybody". and he said " That's really not you!",
and I starts to questioning my self "Is that what am I really doing?"
Okay let's take a look what I am really doing these days: I have afternoon class in Magill at Monday, and I always catch bus before 3, and finish around 6, reach city around 7, that is enough for ended the day with going home and watching TV at Tuesday, I have class 5-8 pm, and have a group meeting before or after, probably come to city west early for preparing choir songs, always come back late, usually around 10pm . Wednesday, don't ask me, that's the busiest day ever. I have continuing classes for tutorial-lecture-tutorial from 3-7 and I need to run for a choir meeting until 11 pm. Thursday and Friday might be my off day, I have no uni, and I use this day for my self, or most probably assignment, because we have a group assignment which we need to discus certain reading- since I'm not master in this, I need more preparation and usually I'm doing it in Thursday. at Friday afternoon, I go to church from 5 to 7 and most probably will chill out with Joko, and build each other spirituality. Saturday and Sunday: Every Saturday I have basketball with BIC friends that will take until 2pm.and there is always an events going on, like last week I went to retreat with SFC the whole weekend, this week will be a recollection for KKIA and next week there is Sheila on7 concert following by IndoFest on Sunday. am I really not doing anything?
Maybe I don't hang out so often because now I have community to serve,and I really need to manages time for my self as well. and I have a settle schedule that I need to follow, and commitment to be consider as well. I'm not just playing, but I also serving. Maybe that's the reason why I have this syndrome. I might have not hang out with my "last semester friend" as often as before, and never have time to attend any pub crawl or international student party that happened in weekend because there is always activity waiting every weekend. But the routine that I have right now, plus assignment which I don't really get how to do it,really make sense of my stress syndrome. I have a routinises now, not only hang out for fun.
So please Nadia, understand yourself that you are actually doing a lot of things than last semester. you do a good job okay, please be STRONG!
Monday, March 28, 2011
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I just came back from the SFC's retreat for the whole weekend.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
aku nyempetin buat menjenguk dunia musik Indonesia tercinta.
yang lagi ngetren : BOYBAND INDONESIA
beberapa boyband bermunculan setelah SMASH, yang awalnya emang banyak kontroversi
but honestly, dari awal aku emang duku SMASH banget, kalo nggak ngapain juga follow twitter and subscribe official channel mereka di youtube.
but sekarang ada 2 boyband yang muncul : max5 and NSG
for me, I prefer NSG dari segi suara ama penampilan mereka udah jauh lebih siap dari SMASH
MaX5 masih mentah banget, cuman konsep MV nya colorfull banget lah kayak BIG BANG - tapi secara aku nggak suka BIG BANG yah sudahlah nggak usah mbahas mereka XD
NSG lebih kayak 2AM yah..
check this out, my fav song from NSG
aku orangnya nggak racis, dan sangat menghargai music2 indonesia. jadi model2 kayak gini aku sangat tolerir dan mendukung. aku lebih memilih jadi supporter daripada jadi haters yang cuman mau cari sensasi aja, menghargai karay2 Indonesia yang emang kalo dibandingin ama korea ato barat masih jauh, namanya juga udaha. yang pasti, kalo kayak gini aku mending follow mereka aja daripada band2 korea yang makin gak jelas LOL # alay.com
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Friday, March 18, 2011
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Identity change,that is the topic of my iccs this week but it also something that i am facing right now
Sometimes when I try to remember what I was doing last semster, it's kind of hard work for me. push my limit, being the best charachter for everyone. How I am getting so many friends, trying to get to know everyone, become one of the influencial person,attending all the events and ask everybody to join, exploring australian culture with all the pub n club thingy, end up with hangover and mini dramas . huff, now I've kind of tired to repeat again.
when i flash back all that happenned,although I learned a lot of stuff, I think I get enough.
I've kind of tired to look for a new friend, asking the same question again and again, trying so hard go get to know them meanwhile the next day they are gone. tired for maintaining everybody to get in touch whereby they don't do anything to catch up, I had enough of listening to backstabbing dramas and those complicated problem that break us up into smaller group, untill we hardly seeing each other. I am totally had enough ofthis.
now it's time for me to maintain what I have.
more into deeper relationship, arrange my life, and do what I want to do
treasure those people who eligable and eliminate those who don't
coming into deeper meaning of friendship and maintaining all the true friend.
no more club,no more drinks. and don't negotiate with something that not good, say no straight.
that is how I changes my identity this semster,
I might not becoming the influencial person and,
I might lose what I gain last semesterbut there is no regret on it
because this the life that I wanted to be.
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Now I cannot see properly, all i see is double line. so i need to wear spect.
Still praise Lord for this gift. must explain something why I need to wear spect more often now.