do I know you?

Am I know everything about you?

or I just pretending to know everything?

I just know that there is something behind your laugh,

something that you can't hide

and that is something that I try to heal from you.

*I know its pain, you just need time to make it cure and someone to replace the emptiness, although it's just temporary.

reunion

thx friend, you make me laugh in my hard time,

and you still be a good friend in my difficulty

although we just meet up after 7 years

and I'm happy to see every single changes in you, but never changes your self for our friendship!

kehilangan lagi

God, everything that happen to me will make me strong

I never lost my faith in You, although I lost everything

but now, I'm shaking God...

3 times in a row..I lost my things

and It makes me loose my confidence,

I can't believe my memory, I can't believe my self.

why so careless... why so reckless!!!!

God, give me strength

and please, keep me away from something bad that I'm not aware

enough for now, let me feel comfort and built my confidence,

I don't want to loose again.

*lost my wallet second times!

miracle!

God, thanks..

You are the best,

I know that when we obey and believe, nothing is impossible!

thanks for today's meeting, I know You will make me surprise,

and untill now, I dunno how to express my happiness..

Thanks Lord... thanks...

you give me more that I expect!

T.T (crying happinesss)

in memory.

theFLAME with krispatih

just you

I'm seriously,

just looking for some of guys..with no intention

just waiting for some of you.. with no reason

and just fall in for you.. with no doubts

I just want to enjoy every single part in my single life...with no regret,

just do what I wanted to do.. as long as it's still in my limitation

me, you and him.

... another guy started to ask about my daily food,

and one guy ask me to go out..

anyone else?

I love my life!... still happening

lossing important things

God told me, He gave me a sign.

"God's will is to make us mature and complete, not to keep us free from pain"

-kong hee

I told Him, phone doesn't matter, as long as my wallet still save..

and that night he was give sign to me and my mom, to put the bag in the save place.

my uncle's house is save place.. but sometimes it's didn't go well

someone took it, maybe the right word is stole it.

my new bags, my wallet, and all document inside.

oh God.. It's just another test.

"but can you still be kind when other people threat you unfairly?"

I will prove to you God, all the things in the world means nothing for me.

It wouldn't broke my faith in you.

all that I have only my identity in your heart.

I just want to ask you one thing

just don't ever leave me alone...

single life

guy come and go in my single life.

what an interesting scene...

when you really prepare your self to be a real girl, you will know how interesting you are

you will know it by counting how many guy is has been trapped for you.

although their just pass by, but they ever stay still for you.

the one who willing to trapped forever with you, is the person that you need to count as you consideration.

good luck.

Luv u Jesus!

fiuh~

since last time I want to write blog about this,

but seems like shame my self only..

but seriously, I can't stand my mom.

her voice, her behaviour, her way to do a good things just make it worst.

I don't like her to do my house work, without my permission.

and some more did it with reckless.

yes she is good in finding money, but not in house work..not at all!

I hate that I need to angry with her.

I don't like when I waken up by her phone! her voice so loud untill the whole world can hear!

she just talking to the person in the phone tho! and It's Malaysia.. not Indonesia!

please please please....

I feel like I can't feel my peace in my own room. supposely garcefull.. but now..

even wake up with peace is difficult

God.. help :(

move out

time move out, close to the separation

when I need to leave anything that make me comfortable in this 2,5 years in Malaysia

actually not anything,but most of it.

my house that make comfort, my lophly housemate, my room, and most of the furnish inside that I collect one by one.(I just release two of my big cupboard and wardrobe, it's dominate my room)

at least it's lighten my burden in the next 6 months,

at least, I'm not loosing anything, as in if I move to Perth I might l0ose more than this

but I wouldn't.

I just don't dare to leave anything that set for me here, especially my friend.

I'm moving for a new beginning.

I will move to the place that all of us will gather, all my gang will be there, and I wouldn't be alone.

sometimes changes is hard,

but when you stay in the track and just go ahead, just make sure you are pretty sure about your decision

it will be alright.

yeah nadia.. you will be fine!

X.O.X.O

Love you jesus!

newmoon

Finally! after been a years I'm waiting.. and keep up with every update that this movie made, I watch the movie today!

It's kind of late, I know. I'm not expecting for a premier viewing, but any time that can make me comfortable while I'm watch it.

and yea.. with a right people, right time and in the right place!

I was watching with my small gang, with alice and vinny beside me, and in my favourite position, and in sunway pyramid.

Okay, basically.. I can rate 3 upon 5 for this movie.. why? I can say that they lost their aesthetic! It just a bit rush, with no fully emotional emphasis. but still, new moon will be my fav movie.

I still can feel the cold of forks, and the smell of wet leaves. and La push is almost the same with what i imagine while I'm reading the book. just the voluntary was not as scary and sacred as i imagine, and the werewolf are so fake! things are always like this, what we imagine is better that the movie.

And beside that, after the break between twilight and new moon, we will discovery a lot of things about the cast, maybe we find out about their biography, and you know who is the real Edward Cullen and he is really NOT cool. It happens in the beginning of the movie, when edward Cullen coming, and we supposedly blind oh his charm and said "wow", now become laugh because we really see the uncoolness side of him. LOL

I was surprise with the effect that they make for Taylor (jacob) . He can be very handsome and manly! yeah he is, but when they make his that tall he is so gorgeous! some of the dialog was really cool. I can't remember that one by one, maybe i need to watch it again :)

And finally, It's just a new moon, and will be continue with eclipse. i hope they get a lot of critics so that they can make a goo improvement for the next movie.

I ♥ newmoon

nadia

new korean group....
called nadia. oh gosh...
they use my name!!!
i will love it

jo kwon lageee

another crazy jo kwon XD

this is brian vs jokwon.. hilarious

family trip done

just go back from family trip...

after Genting and Singapore that make me exhausted, finally my brother need to go back tomorrow

left me, my mother, first bro and sist in law.

when I keep browsing and open my FB, since I was off in 2 days I found this quotation:

"The Love that Could Never Happen"

-Max Choong

It's really close to someone that I've been thinking lately..

My love that I've been waiting but never get answer.

He was fill my mind these days, but yeah...just wanna pray fro him again and again

hope he could get away from his problem.

God...

I really really like that phone...

You know that I wanted it so much, until I looking for it by my self, in the whole surabaya

I wish I can use it longer....

T.T

confession:

actually... I have lost my phone twice..and this is the third time.

this is first time I dare to buy a pricy phone, after I lost some phone before and made a bit trauma in my life. this is first time I dare to have a lilbit hi tech phone

I really want to enjoy, I really want to proud

that is why I take care of it, I really appreciate it.

but yeah, really.. It's hurt, and shocked!

I hate loosing something that I try to hold on.-everyone don't like it-

I try my best.. but It was too late.

I miss the phone... I miss the phone chain the most!

I LOST MY PHONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMIGOSHHHHHHH

menangis darah T.T

passport

this is what I really amaze!!

only in 5 years... a lot of changes from my passport picture!

my friend said it look likes from china imigran become ibu pejabat XD

another one said from drugs addict become healthy :)

hahahaha...what a joke! my face become joke now ..

but finally..YEAY!!!! new passport!

will collect new stamp from different country :)

note for you my lovely friend

don't be so disappointed friend

I know that you are so -thing too much- kind of person

and make it too deep until you can't breath

If you think this is a fight - yes it is

and If you don't agree with whatever I said - yes you can

but If you DISAPPOINTED with what I said in PM or BLOG it's your fault

because you don't know who am I

I always doing it and don't care whatever people said. - coz This is what I feel!

and feeling is very OBJECTIVE. you need to remember: feeling is keep changing!

anyway, I don't really know that you care about my PM -coz people use to ignore it (thank's that you care)

and I don't really bother that my Pm is going to your news feed..

this is life.. bitter and pain -sometimes

but you must know.. It's nothing called Friendship if there is no fight inside.

when you can handle the problem, there is when your friendship growing

that is why I'm still staying here and not avoiding conflict.

hope you read this blog and understand.

*I don't care whether you like me or not, no one can shape my image in your heart except your self, but I like you so much with whatever that you feel about me, with everything that you done to me, no matter who you are. maybe you prefer friend that always keep something inside, but I'm not that kind of person, that's how the way you know me actually.

Yoo seung ho others MV

still In the imagination of my dating with Yoo Seung Ho , I was hunting for some scene where by He looks goods at it. and eventually I found...

He is the one who act for Tiara (a girls group) MV - tittle Lies

Actually He quite hot, act like a fool and play around with the girls until He kissed them! - no matter what he just an actor that play his role.

but yeah.. 16 years old boy can't be as gorgeous as this is still HOT.

check this out

I'm dating with him! part 2

and then our date continue...

he holding my hands after we go out from the store

we eating some sea-food stuff in the beach side. I feeding him

hee feed me too~~~ ♡ ♡

we enjoy the sun set together

he lay down on me :)

any finally he give me flower (coz my love meter only 84%..i want get kisss!!!)

he left...

this is my virtuall blind date

but I still want to get above 95% so I can kiss him!! hahahaha

I'm dating with him! part 1

OMG it's looks stupid!

but every sweet things that he do in our "virtual date" was make my heart beat!

on my half-way..coz lagging...

this is so far my date with him.

I woke up

he wait for me outside my house

he come to my car, we will drive to beach

he gave me dools

he hold my hand and enjoy beach together

another killer smile

he ask me "gwecanayo?"

he getting wet after raved down by water

I accompany him buy a shirt

I peek him, when he changes clothes

woooowwww

date

since yesterday when I was hang out with vinny, I was wondering that if I can go for a date.

I meant it..

I mean.. it's not a relationship... just a date.. just having fun... just two of us.

and I found this virtual dating with korean star name yoo seung ho

it's a game, but in korean languages :(

wow... really beautifull.. feel like play tho!

check this out

no more TVXQ

Guys, I really sad when the media said that most probably you wouldn't comeback together,

in addition, you will MIA for long time.

.......................................................

I was your big fans...

Yes I am still..

but after everything that happen to three of you (jaejoong, xiah, mickey) I really don't know how you guys gonna continue this.

I was praying that It's gonna be over soon.

I really wish that you guys will together again and sing for us.

I still miss your concert and want to wait until you come again to Malaysia

But now.. everything seems doesn't go well..

and I need to face that You guys might not be together again.

solo carrier... is that what you guys wanna be?

and no more TVXQ.....

*I will still keep everything that I have, I'm still your big fans!

you3

I think God wants to pull you out from my life.

it's gonna be tough for me..

I hope you will be okay when I'm not close you.

my mom said

today my mom told me about "pasangan hidup"

and it's like the whole bible she read to me.

I know that she is really particular in this topic.

I really try to understand, but it's lil bit hard

until I can get summary on it..

That sometimes she has her own ego, she want to be proud of her son/daughter that can get great future in law for her.

It doesn't matter where they come from, as long as the background still "acceptable" it's not an issue for her. she know that for a guy, if they are not smart enough to get excellent girl they will stuck with whatever they have now (like my brother) but for a girl (which mean "me") if you cannot get a valuable couple maybe she will offer me to get a good one (in her point of view)

but, overall it's still a waste if you cannot get a good one, since you are grow up in a great family and good background

fiuh, it's a burden...

however...

It's not as simple as she think- she aware of it

looking at my two brother that has their own couple, it's difficult to get everything as great as your think

and she really telling me that girl has totally different theory from a guy.

or in other word.. she expect me to do better than what my brother has done!

it's like WOAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~

okay, it's okay...really okay..

because I'm single now, not yet found anyone

maybe lil bit falling in love with someone.

but I'm still FREE do whatever I want..

and still, there is a chance for me to get what she want

but in my theory, I cannot get everything done for her, I have my own way

the things that my soul mate need to full fill , to complete my life

but really, I dunno...

It's seems to early talking about that, but yeah...

my turn is coming soon... I'm 20!

*everyone like happy ending!

@gloria jeans

@ gloria jeans...

honestly the coffee or tea or chocolate is not the best at all.

but only because of the free voucher we went there.

coffee bean still the best!

LOL!!!!

Jo kwonnnn!!!!! OMG!!!!!!
lebay dech loooo!!!!



this show make me laugh like hell!!!
cheap expression!! LOL

the best moment that i've always love

the best situation in my version:

1. It must be my spare time

2. the day must be cold

3. because of the rain

4. it must be afternoon

5. listening Korean music

6. thinking about someone that you "like"

BEST BEST BESTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!

postman from heaven

this is jae joong's movie that will release sometime in 2010

see how good jae joong in kissing XD

I'm totally jealous! !!!!!

dong bang new japan single

you know that Don bang shin ki recently have to faced their problem with SM entertainment

but they still can launch their new japan single

what amaze! their voice still beautifull!

although the sound is not -so- clear, but still beautifully song

toki wo tomete!

check this out!

Doa sebelum ujian.

Tuhan terima kasih...

aku LEGA...

aku BAHAGIA...

dan aku bener2 bangga punya Allah seperti Engkau

aku punya semangat untuk dibagi..

aku punya kasih untuk berbagi...

dan aku punya kerinduan untuk mendoakan tiap orang yang kukasihi..

aku sudah menyelesaikan semua bebeban di hatiku...yang harusnya aku marah,

yang aku mau kasih semangat, yang aku menggebu2 ingin menyembah

semua sudah ku keluarkan!

Lord. now I need to study,

kini saat nya aku untuk memulai perangku..perang akhir di semeterku

Bless me Lord with your Glory...

semoga aku bisa konsen belajar maksimum tingkat ferari ato subaru

sehingga besok aku bisa kasih yg terbaik buat semua orang!

Tuhan! aku bangga punya Allah seperti Engkau.

I surrender Lord.. aku percaya kekuatan terbesar itu pada saat aku sendiri dan Tuhan disampingku,

tuntun aku Tuhan! giving my best!

Love you LORD!

another not big deal~

and another -not big deal - but insult me- happened

some accident destroy the pleasure of my hot soy-vanila...

that I really really wants to fully enjoy it , now added with shock and half-gone!

fiuh~ I think It's my time to be passion and forgiveness.

buzzz

ARGhhhhh,... I will keep waiting!!!!

and never Never NEVER GIVE UP!!!

novena

mau berdoa novena?

click disini

parah2

parah2...

it's not a big deal..

but how come you don't even realize that someone's laundry is inside the washing machine??

and just throw your things inside...

OMG!

still waiting fro the result..hope nothing happen with the colour

story!

God gave you to me, as a gift to shift the pain

I care about you because of God

I pray for you because of Him

and I can leave you, If He said so...

but the only thing that Important.. you need to bear up for people that you care!

and it's REALLY hard...

^^ a lot alot alottttt

You don't know how happy I am now..

I really2 want to spread and share my happiness to the world.

When you feel that people surround you is really loves you

when they all really care about you!

especially when the person that you care a lot, come back to his life.

Thx Lord for giving my friend back to the real life.

I hope it's not just for a moment.

Pray for him always~

quote of the day

"It's really difficult when you can't see your enemy, especially when it's not a human,

but GAMES"

-Nadia Nicole

imagine

VS

this picture took only one day different.

so... which one u prefer? hahaha

CUMPLER by orange&Lemon

well done people!

finally we come to the end..

almost 2,5 months we spent together..

especially the last 4 weeks we almost spent every single day in library and being the last person in the library

get trapped with a bunch of assignment and pressure is not fun..

but trapped with you guys and work together is one of my sweet time!

especially when I'm the only feminine creature among guys..

you guys really take a good care of me.. fetch me, and accompany me.

if I'm inpatient you guys will calm me down, and tell me if i did wrong

didn't treat me like queen, although I'm the only girl in this team.

Our time is really precious to me.

Issac my billy jeans.. my lengzai..thanks for mostly fetch me and waiting for me.. I really appreciate your presence, coz your cute face is my inspiration XD

Joe my executive art director.. although you gave me so much trouble and you are so noisy, but really you helping me so much, especially the last day of project you said "I'm here with you, dun worry"

Colin.. thanks for being so gentleman and care. always helping me to pack my stuff and remains me about everything that I careless.you are Good guy with amazing brain.

Casper, thanks for offering transport for me, bring everyone in when there is a dinner, and have big group feeling.

Justin,you are the best leader! passion, brave and full of motivation. I really thank to have you as our leader. thanks to you coz you want to have self discloser with us.

Joon, thanks for being passion with Joe and helping him for our project. thanks for making fun of him and give us a good joke. your work is very neat and full of passion, I love to see you as our team!

we might not get A+ for our assignment. but we get A for our friendship!

but cross your fingers ..pray for the best

my self!

what is the best thing instead of using guffi-mickey short pants, pinky slipper, white shirt and monkey jaket...

especially when you are in playground and hiking,jumping and spinning around???

really long time didn't dress like this, do like this and pose like this..

I miss my self in this way...

if I can be both feminine and boyish style... I will so complete.

kara-mister

I watches this before, and seems this glow-in the- dark style is getting famouse
w0w0w0w0w0w

hwanhee's new album

Hwanhee...

finally you are left brian for this...

because you're in my heart

lucky girl!

I want to be her if I can...
loved by those handsome boys is like getting a BIG happiness in my life.
so cute~

HAHAHHA!!!

haha...i dun really understand what are they trying to do..but it's funny

another definition from my friend

Pada saat kau SUKA padanya, kau akan MEMAKSANYA untuk menyukaimu.

Pada saat kau SAYANG padanya, kau akan MEMBIARKANNYA MEMILIH.

Pada saat kau CINTA padanya, kau akan selalu MENANTINYA dengan setia dan tulus...

SUKA adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan berkata, "Ia sangat tampan."

SAYANG adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan melihatnya dari hatimu dan bukan matamu.

CINTA adalah saat kau melihatnya kau akan berkata, "Buatku dia adalah anugerah terindah yang pernah Tuhan berikan padaku.."

I'm ready to fall in love, no matter what the consequences is...

I'm ready to broken heart..

and I'm ready to waiting for you. no matter what your feel about me.

26 oct

happy birthday joon!

you 2

You make my curiosity about God that I know well....

You make me want to know him more,..

please don't let me in love with you

but with my Lord

- spirit of God fall down, ignite in me again..

you 1

God....

Am I meant to him?

or..

I just think too much?

I just wanna be a friends. just want to know you more....

I want to relieve it..

I really love my hometown!

I love Blitar, I love Malang, I love Indonesia!

I loves the people out there, I love the food! I love the television entertainment.

I love the smell of trees, grass and dog! I love the hit.. (although it's getting so hot)

I don't want to drag my feet to step out! i need this comfortable and safety place.

and this will complete,

if you want to be my bus stop, and waiting for me till I come back again....

will you?

wake up

If it is just a dream...

please...let me wake up,

coz I'm too happy with it.

I know that my life still bitter and pain.

and you are too sweet to be true

nothing gonna change my love for you

Khalil Fong sing the song with his own version..

this is an old song, but really nice to listen. beautiful as in it's from heart and touch my heart

always remind me of our dreamer friendship...

no one deserve it except you guys!

nothing gonna change my love for you....dedicated to all dreamers

for the first time in my life...

I feel don't want to step up for place that I stand now..

because of you guys.. completely each of my day

from friend.. and its true

24 selingan dalam hidup

Jangan tertarik kepada seseorang karena parasnya, sebab keelokan paras dapat menyesatkan. Jangan pula tertarik kepada kekayaannya, karena kekayaan dapat musnah. Tertariklah kepada seseorang yang dapat membuatmu tersenyum, karena hanya senyum yang dapat membuat hari-hari yang gelap menjadi cerah. Semoga kamu menemukan orang seperti itu.

Ada saat-saat dalam hidup ketika kamu sangat merindukan seseorang, sehingga ingin hati menjemputnya dari alam mimpi dan memeluknya dalam alam nyata. Semoga kamu memimpikan orang seperti itu

Bermimpilah tentang apa yang kamu impikan, pergilah ke tempat-tempat kamu ingin pergi, jadilah seperti yang kamu inginkan, karena kamu hanya memiliki satu kehidupan dan satu kesempatan untuk melakukan hal-hal yang ingin kamu lakukan

Semoga kamu mendapatkan kebahagiaan yang cukup untuk membuatmu baik hati, cobaan yang cukup untuk membuatmu takut, kesedihan yang cukup untuk membuatmu manusiawi, pengharapan yang cukup untuk membuatmu bahagia dan uang yang cukup untuk membeli hadiah-hadiah

Ketika satu pintu kebahagiaan tertutup, pintu yang lain dibukakan. Tetapi acapkali kita terpaku terlalu lama pada pintu yang tertutup sehingga tidak melihat pintu lain yang dibukakan bagi kita

Sahabat terbaik adalah dia yang dapat duduk berayun-ayun di beranda bersamamu, tanpa mengucapkan sepatah katapun, dan kemudian kamu meninggalkannya dengan perasaan telah bercakap-cakap lama dengannya

Sungguh benar bahwa kita tidak tahu apa yang kita miliki sampai kita kehilangannya, tetapi sungguh benar pula bahwa kita tidak tahu apa yang belum pernah kita miliki sampai kita mendapatkannya

Pandanglah segala sesuatu dari kacamata orang lain. Apabila itu menyakitkan hatimu, sangat mungkin hal itu menyakitkan hati orang itu pula.

Kata-kata yang diucapkan sembarangan dapat menyulut perselisihan. Kata-kata yang kejam dapat menghancurkan suatu kehidupan. Kata-kata yang diucapkan pada tempatnya dapat meredakan ketegangan. Kata-kata yang penuh cinta dapat menyembuhkan dan memberkahi.

Awal dari cinta adalah membiarkan orang yang kita cinta menjadidirinya sendiri, dan tidak merubahnya menjadi gambaran yang kita inginkan. Jika tidak, kita hanya mencintai pantulan diri sendiri yang kita temukan dalam dia.

Orang-orang yang paling berbahagia tidak selalu memiliki hal-hal terbaik, mereka hanya berusaha menjadikan yang terbaik dari setiap hal yang hadir dalam hidupnya

Mungkin Tuhan menginginkan kita bertemu dengan beberapa orang yang salah sebelum kita bertemu dengan orang yang tepat, kita harus mengerti bagaimana berterima kasih atas karunia itu

Hanya diperlukan waktu semenit untuk menaksir seseorang, sejam untuk menyukai seseorang dan sehari untuk mencintai seseorang, tetapi diperlukan waktu seumur hidup untuk melupakan seseorang

Kebahagiaan tersedia bagi mereka yang menangis, mereka yang disakiti hatinya, mereka yang mencari dan mereka yang mencoba. Karena hanya mereka itulah yang menghargai pentingnya orang-orang yang pernah hadir dalam hidup mereka

Cinta adalah jika kamu kehilangan rasa, gairah, romantika dan masih tetap peduli padanya

Hal yang menyedihkan dalam hidup adalah ketika kamu bertemu seseorang yang sangat berarti bagimu dan mendapatinya pada akhirnya bahwa tidak demikian adanya dan kamu harus melepaskannya

Cinta dimulai dengan sebuah senyuman, bertumbuh dengan sebuah ciuman dan berakhir dengan tetesan air mata.

Cinta datang kepada mereka yang masih berharap sekalipun pernah dikecewakan, kepada mereka yang masih percaya sekalipun pernah dikhianati, kepada mereka yang masih mencintai sekalipun pernah disakiti hatinya

Sungguh menyakitkan mencintai seseorang yang tidak mencintaimu, tetapi yang lebih menyakitkan adalah mencintai seseorang dan tidak pernah memiliki keberanian untuk mengutarakan cintamu kepadanya

Masa depan yang cerah selalu tergantung kepada masa lalu yang dilupakan, kamu tidak dapat hidup terus dengan baik jika kamu tidak melupakan kegagalan dan sakit hati di masa lalu.

Jangan pernah mengucapkan selamat tinggal jika kamu masih mau mencoba, jangan pernah menyerah jika kamu masih merasa sanggup, jangan pernah mengatakan kamu tidak mencintainya lagi jika kamu masih tidak dapat melupakannya

Memberikan seluruh cintamu kepada seseorang bukanlah jaminan dia akan membalas cintamu! Jangan mengharapkan balasan cinta, tunggulah sampai cinta berkembang di hatinya, tetapi jika tidak, berbahagialah karena cinta tumbuh di hatimu.

Ada hal-hal yang sangat ingin kamu dengar, tetapi tidak akan pernah kamu dengar dari orang yang kamu harapkan untuk mengatakannya. Namun demikian, janganlah menulikan telinga untuk mendengar dari orang yang mengatakannya dengan sepenuh hati.

Waktu kamu lahir, kamu menangis dan orang-orang di sekelilingmu tersenyum... Jalanilah hidupmu sehingga pada waktu kamu meninggal, kamu tersenyum dan orang-orang di sekelilingmu menangis