Sunday, August 28, 2011

serving the elderly

Mudika Adelaide seems a little unproductive these days, actually we have regular meeting for the choir, but not all mudikans are joining choir. so we thought of having an activity such as serving a nursing home and do a voluntarily work for them. the plan wasn't going really well because we need to go through police check which cost us money , another things is join another organisation in order to serve them. so we kind of forget about it, and looking for another opportunity to serve. we always pray to God for only His will happen to us.

and yesterday, after the long process of longing to serve, God answer our prayer through Ibu asanah. She asked me whether we want to sing in uniting church because they will have a presentation about their work in Indonesia, some of them just came back from mission in Indonesia to serve an orphanage which accommodates many children and babies as well as helping mother to give birth. they help them to built a wall from the stone that is very big,It such a wonderfull work what they have done, for me it's a pleasure to appreciate them for their humilliation, even only with singing, even though they are Christian.

we went there and we saw all the people who attended this talk was an elderly, above 65, and I was stunning right there, realise this is it, the answer of our prayer, let it be done in His name.
we singing for them, we serve them afternoon tea, talk to them, clean the table and dish, exactly what we have been planning, this is the miracle from God.

there is one point that I need to highlight, when one of the disciples ask which church we came from and I said " we are from catholic church in the city"
"oh well, do you believe in God?"
"yes I am"
"so we are the same." told the guy. and it was really struck me because it wass the same thing that Dion always told me, there is nothing difference between us, we believe in Jesus and we shared the same value, what is the matters?
I feel the peace in this church, I can feel how people serve God with unconditional love, and humble heart. that brings back my memory when I serve Tiberias church when I was 14, I gained many knowledge about God and experienced many survival at that time, I really need to credited them for what I became. Love can be spread in many ways, and with everybody

Maybe Catholic is the most authentic church from the beginning of Jesus, this is true, but don't let this be a pride that will cast us like what happen before, what we need to do is understanding more and spread the love of God available to everyone. we convinced our faith is the right one, but it doesn't mean everyone need to follow, wherever they can feel the peace and love of God alive, they always can make a changes from that point.Let God touch their heart and put wherever they want to make a changes.

Anyway, after the talk finished, the disciples told me they are happy to welcome us anytime we want to sing for them again, we were so happy can help others with our voice, and hope it's going to be one of the Choir agenda in the future.

Me and my relationship.

everytime he said "sayang" to me, my hearth stop beating for awhile.
I can't believe that he is real, I'm not alone walking in the road.
and now, he brave enough to put it in facebook..

I have no idea when we start this relationship, whether it's just happen recently or it's begin when he confessed to me,Even now, I'm not sure whether I'm ready for it.
what I know is, I walk with my faith, and let God do the rest.
I let God to heal all the pain from the past relationship, I let God to guide me to His path, I let God to throw the feeling of guilty inside my heart, worried about relationship, and make me ready for the new one, the person who He prepared for me...
from the beginning, I was unsure whether he is from Him, or just my feeling dragged from my loneliness and wanted someone to loved. but what my parents always tell me, someone who came from God will always bring you close to Him,and that is how I identify whether Dion is from Him or not.. because when the time goes by, I just feel this is the right way that I am going through, and he is exactly what my parents said, bring me close to Him. I feel complete.

and day by day, we become closer and it's just happened.
for everyone out there who have question "why she didn't tell me?" or "what a friend never update me" I'm so sorry because I don't even have the answer for that question, certainly now I'm not alone, In relationship with someone, and I just want to walk slowly but sure, don't wait something come up in facebook, because it might take an ages to show up. :)

Honestly this is what I am waiting for, and from 2 years that I promised God to commit in His presence, now he wants me end it early ,maybe because I have pass the tests and be ready for next step. Relationship is another trial for me, is not easy, it require me more energy and heart breaking,excatly will hurts more. both of us is not ready for this but God make us ready - Quote from Dion.

There were nothing called physical appearance attraction, browsing for a great partner, or criticize whether we suits to each other. we just let everything flow, and more to accept each other the way we are. sometimes, I feels not good enough for him because of my physical appearance, my fat tummy and pimples that always make me uncomfortable, but he always remain me what I am afraid of it's not important for him, what important is my heart. that is what I do to him, I love him the way he is, no bodies perfect what we can do is built each other to maximize what we have for the good.

While I'm still questioning my self how this relationship going to be since I couldn't see our path merge together, I pray everything that happen in this relationship is only His will. I believe we can learn many things together, grow in love, and learn to forgive and sacrifice. be dare to commit to each other and walk with faith , God will make the way for us.

Always put God in the first priority, and between your relationship..
and don't lose your faith in Him.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

birthday present for sang kekasih

And I have sent one package from heaven which apparently didn't come on time, even though I have sent it on Monday :(

Happy birthday sayang,
Hope you can feel all the love for you today :)

Friday, August 26, 2011

percakapan dengan kekasih

percakapan random dengan sang kekasih pagi ini

kekasih : (dengan nada tinggi karena br diomeli cecenya) makane muales lak anak wedok paling gede, mesti ngebossy
nadia: lha, aku pengen punya anak pertama cewek.
kekasih : ojokk, nanti lak punya anak pertama cewek sakno cowoke, ntar ditekan!
nadia: tp ntar lak punya anak cowok paling gede, karepe dewe
kekasih: lho jarno ae, ben dee berkembang timbang ntar diteken ambek cecene
nadia: kalo cewek paling gede itu manut, isa ngopeni adike to..
kekasih: pokoke aku pengen anak pertama cowok (dengan nada keyakinan yang tinggi)
nadia: yahh, yo wes kamu ae seng manak, aku moh.. wkwkwkwkw

wwkwkwkwkwk....nggak tau kenapa kok tiba2 ngomongin gitu,
jauh banget rasanya XD

Thursday, August 25, 2011

remarkable date

when everything is tremendously changes...
when the love of God is truly happening for everyone who faithful in Him..

I was struggling to survive in Australia with $300 in bank, looking for a job to support and survive, still dedicate my life to spread a God's love to others, even though i experience shortage, but I don't want to think about it, because I have faith God will make everything fine.
Dion fighting with his life, decision with in staying in Australia for PR or going back to Indonesia, with no job in hand, trying to look at every chance to make his day effective, some problem about the incident which makes him worried,but he has faith that God has plan in him for his presence in Australia
Joko finish his uni-life, start his job in Indonesia,which totally different with his previouse life in Adelaide or Canada.

Mom has sent me money, really enough to survive till the end of my study visa. I can plan my trip to wherever I want, I won't worry about any shortage, but I still need to find a job, life continues in Adelaide
Dion get the job! from no where, suddenly he got the job. after he got his TR planning to his PR,and his incident problem showing a green light. he will no longer jobless and has plan in his life
Joko has officially graduate from Unisa, has his first degree in his life, going back to Indonesia and leaving Adelaide, no turning back wherever he was, and keep looking forward to his future carrier

See, Hoe God works in our life.
"Blessed are those who believe without seeing" John 20:29

a sweet friendship refresh the soul

Finally, the time had come...

after 16 years searching for education, it comes to the end

and you get your first degree..

I can't imagine how it feels to be graduated, i think you pretty much relief, and ready to build your future..


*joko graduation

After 1,5 months separation with you, I can feel the difference..

there is no body to talk to directly, to share and built our faith..dull.

that was only the trial,

now the time is going to leave Adelaide for good.
somehow, deep inside my heart, I feel so distress

one and half month without you was bad enough to call it as a misery,

I feel half.. and another quarter gone with you,and now it's going to permanently gone..

I need to come back with my own life, the normal life that I used to have before, even I forgot how it was without you..

You are a great friend of mine, one of the best friend in my life,

you had been sparkled my life in Adelaide

I feel so sorry for my self being to dependent with you, so I should feel this pain of separation,

after this point, we might not going to be the same. we might forgot whatever relation that we have before,

but I believe we always can come back.. in the same path.. called.. memories.

I'll going to miss you Joko...

and always keep you in my prayer.

Tuesday, August 23, 2011


This week is a BIG week,
one f my best friend, Joko Susilo, will come back to Adelaide, after our two months separation, for his big day...graduation!!!
and after this he will leave Adelaide permanently, sad :(
I have prepared him something that i never done it before, something that I hate the most, closely tp craft and those stuff

and second, this week is my beloved birthdayy!! ohh nooo kamu tambah tua sayanggg..wkwkwk
honestly I have prepared something for him *hopefully he doesn't read this post, or if he does, please pretend like you didn't ok? :)
For him, I always do something that I never done in my life..somewthing new..something tat i need to learn.

this two person is an important friend of mine at the moment.. so I really need to gift my best for both of them, and that takes my breath away,
What I hope is, they can feel loved, and for sure, the loved of God will flow to their heart so they will more thankful for life which God has been given to him.

and Bu asanah is not feeling well,
well this will be a hetic week aye? luckily I haven't start work, so I can do what I want first.

Saturday, August 20, 2011


saya mau pacaran selama 3-5 tahun boleh nggak?
syaratnya harus dengan orang yang sama :)

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

i want t-shirt

Everything that came from God,
is the best for me,...
including him... :)

* God will give you the right person in your life
a person that you NEED.-

Saturday, August 13, 2011


I couldn't express my feeling right now, everything seems bounded up and hit me.
Maybe it's just because of me, my period came and I couldn't resist my temperament which getting worst. I hate people blame me because of their fault, and I hate people who interrupt me,and didn't understand my condition. worst, those people are my close friends. they totally ruined up my day. plus, My beloved still in camp, and I couldn't contact him at all, even there are some friends who willing to listen to me, but somehow it affects my mood.

I always want to think, maybe it's not because of me, somehow I need to fight against those small problems that wasn't suppose to be my responsibility, sometimes I should let them know what I have done to them, so that they will have more understanding,
but in the end, it doesn't work. it end up fight and it's pain.
I can feel the burn inside my heart, and my head exploded and feels like shout to them. I feel like hurt them back 100 times deeper! luckily it didn't happened.
this is my bad character. I didn't like people to take over my power, they don't have right to limit my movements, especially control for whatever I want to do. that's me, even how hard I tried to hide, it's still inside me. I just need to control it.

and Luckily, Father never leave me, every time I see His picture, my heart start to melt, and tears dropping. I feel so shame about what I have proud of, because my dignity, my pride which makes me so powerful,because it's nothing for Him. it's not what He wants from me...
oh God, even good people should feel the pain from those who their loved.

God, forgive me.. I'm just a human.. please forgive me,
and heal this pain.

Friday, August 12, 2011

apa artinya 1,5 hari?

Sang kekasih berangkat camp, semoga bisa dapet banyak ilmu yang bisa diceritain tiap malam..
Sang kekasih nggak lupa bawa selimut, bagus lah nggak kedinginan kalo malam...
Sang kekasih bilang, "handphone akan disita sampe camp berakhir", I was like " seriusss??? "
yah ternyata bukan hanya ujian buat yang disono, tapi juga cobaan buat disini :(

yah akhirnya...hidup tanpa sang kekasih selama 1,5 hari..
kayaknya ini bakal jadi period terlama kita nggak kontekan selama 8 bulan terakhir...
Give all heart to God... I will be alright sayang.

Thursday, August 11, 2011

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

matthew 6:25-34

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

gift from heaven

this is more than just a gift,

I will take care of it :) , thanks sayang <3

Thursday, August 4, 2011

love life

after longg process of discernment
Thanks God for trusting me to taking care of him,
will never disappoint you :)
and please let him know to love me with with all his heart,
and taking care of me, as You do.

I know that we can going through this,
there is nothing call distance in Love.

can't wait to hold your hands sayang~ x.o.x.o

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Singles For Christ Oceania Conference in Sydney

As I've said, last week was the first time I visit Sydney, I had no expectation for the conference, just wanna go there and hope that I can going back to Adelaide with something. even for giving extra 2 days after the conference, it's because of the cheaper flight on Wednesday. However, the price that I have paid was worthed after what I had experienced.

SFC-Singles For Christ Oceania Conference.
I never thought that this community will gave me such a bless in my life, start with intention seeking of God, and really I found Him through this community.

"But seek the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all will be given to you"
Matthew 6:33

This phrase really become a rhyme in my life, whenever you put God in the first place, everything will be full fill in your life. really it's not easy to put God in the first place above our things, and whenever our prayer didn't come true, we ended up with disappointed and questioning about Him. manage our expectation is really important for us be able to do His will, we never know what happen in the next few second, maybe the building that we in might be shouted down because of the terrorist, or someone might die,or Born of the babies, However it is we still need to walk with out faith, faith to Him that everything happens is always for our Good.

Last weekend was a trendemouse time, I learn a lot from the conference, how we find out about our weaknesses, admit that we always fell into that sins, knowing that every person is not perfect, their doing sins, their fall, but the difference is their act after their fall into sins. through many sharing from the brother and sister from SFCs, My eyes were opened, there are so many of them fell into terrible sins, more than mine, but their still standing now, repent, and go back to God's way. I learn how to accept my weaknesses, and how to overcome it. I learn how to make my self armed so that evil won't touch me anymore. with knowing our weaknesses, and aware of it, we won't let evil to attack us from that part. and to fight back against them,

"If God is for us, Who can against us?"
Romans 8:31

Friends, every time we do sins, we are not feeling comfortable, do we? it is totally against our norm, or values that exsist in our society. I understand it might be different to certain people who has different standard, but as a Christian, our standard is in the Bible. everything that out from it, is not God's intention. God created us perfect, as what he wants, but it is us who made our life complicated with our desire, everything is our choice. You choose to do sins, because it does makes you comfortable, pleasure, and feel proud, but how long it last? Hey! in the counted of years, everything will disappears, but God promise is Forever.

If you realise, whenever you do sins, you might have voices surround you which telling you to do certain things, from this conference I learn to identify the voices, which one is the voices of Holy spirit or from the evil. never, Never, NEVER follow what evil said, even though it's good, but it is against God, it will ended miserable.

I'm still a human, whenever I'm in the situation when my flesh is bigger than my spirit, I always pray. Hail Mary, Our Father, and Glory be. and when we put the armor by praying, we need to changes our mind into positive things, and from that we can stop to think about bad stuff, and will never come to the stage of doing it. I'll try to fight for Him, because He is the one who gave me all the Love that I need, who give me all I need, who know me more than anyone, who trust me to take care of His people, and I will serve Him till the end.

and after all that I gain during the weekend, I have 2 days free. time to practicing the theory that I learn, walk with faith.. and really God taking care of me,

I had a wonderful experience in Sydney, and honestly.. I'm falling in Love with it. remains me of Kuala Lumpur where everything is provided. such a beautifully city and I would like to come back one day, sorry Adelaide to betray you, but I still love you as if my hometown

&lt;3 you Lord. my saviour

this some of the picture back then

touching moment

our commitment, what colour r u?

with Father Greg, the youngest priest in Australia, 24 years old!!

jump in look up point

cathedral St.Mary, no photos inside

opera house

SFC's Adelaide!!

old song

sedikit lebay, tapi...
pretty much a great song to listen