now and future

Easter semakin dekat, godaan semakin berat. aku semakin diuji dan dihadapkan dengan cobaan cobaan yang sama sekali nggak mudah buatku. peperangan batin. Hidup untuk berbagi, berbagi dengan semua orang, termasuk orang orang yang sudah menyakiti kita, namun seperti lagu, kuberjuang sampai akhirnya, Kau dapati aku tetap setia Tuhan.

Pray for me please~

Despite all obstacles that been pondered me,My life has been really good as always. Today, I really had a great chat with mum.and I just found out, she is really good listener when I called her in unpredictable time.

Today she asked me, whether I want to continue my education in Australia...

Recently, I really got into my sentimental mood. when I passed by Victoria square and look all the tall building, I was wondering all the moments that sparked my life in Adelaide, every single memories is really wonderful, the best in life! and I came across a thought of "when everything will over?" I'm not ready to face this reality.

I love Adelaide so much, there are too many reasons to explain it. the city, the people and the atmosphere, oh God.. but I realized, I can't stay here forever. I need to going back and participate to bring forward Indonesia.to fight in the real field.

Thinking of my mom's offer, really makes me happy.. I am so grateful to be the youngest among three, and I have wonderful brothers that can take care of their life. Even though it's as easy as mom's offer, but I am aware there are a lot of things which I need to be considered. mom's condition is not as simple as her offer, and I need to look more realistic.

but overall, I don't think will affect much into my future. I still need to leave Adelaide by the end of this year, and start my real life. Honestly, I didn't close any opportunities that will come up later, I just hope for the best, like everybody does for their life.

I don't want to worried about tomorrow, coz God will take care of it. :)