This is just a thought..
many people are actually believe in God, that is why there are many church are growing
but, most of them are difficult to identify. because they are blend with the world, in attitude and behavior
Like in my case..
Coming at Adelaide and know a lot of new friends with different kind of background.
we get to know each other by asking where they are come from or what course are you studying or where do you stay?
not by asking, what is you religion?
because when we meet, we just want to have a new friend with same background and facing the same problem. by the time we know more about the person, we can ask some sensitive question like about their relationship status, again still not about what their believe or how they way they think about something.because most of the times when we feel comfort, we forgot to asking further. as long as they have the same activity with us and they are in our group, there is no problem.
The reason why is,If we realize there is different things between us, friendship might not going smoothly. because most of the time similarity bring us together
by the time we are blend to each other, we actually doing the same things. bad or good, good or right,
until we can't identify them as a individual, but as a group.
We have spent so much on having fun, drinking, smoking. (but most of it I'm not doing it)
and I just find out, that some of them are a christian,same as me.
They believe in God, they pray.. but they still having fun with those tools for socializing,the things that I done dare to touch and I can say that, even they do it, they always save and getting lots of connection.
I just wondering whether it's a true way or not.
as I know, as believer we must take care of our body (as our body is a "God's house"), of everything that we do, and stay away from ungodly stuff.
there is no excuses for me to touch the thing that will cause sin, because it's makes me feel guilty
I always pray for God guidance, so that I can be on track
and that's what I'm doing.
but some though has been bothering me..
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am I doing this because I'm afraid of societies influence?" or
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because I'm not strong enough to keep my faith?".
I don't like this thought. I don't like to look down at my self, but it's kind of true.
those people are exist in the society, they are everywhere, and doing what ordinary people do, And they can survive, still on the track of norms, even win a soul!
they keep their self save, they might have a strong faith to fight with world, even when they do same as ordinary people in the world, and their still a believer.
am I to scared doing that? or It wasn't my path to do the same thing?
If I can do what world do while I'm serving God.. am I stronger on that way?
I don't know whether I'm too holy, or to careful..
or I'm too scared of loosing what I have now.
I just want to keep this spirit inside, and always stay on track without any trouble.
or is it a new challenges for me?
