after love

I remember yesterday I was so down, looking for a comfort, secure and love.
I'm not sure whether those needs were fulfill, but the next day I have the most number of friends writing on my wall randomly,15 friends! and some of them really touch my heart.

I'm single now, even it's just 2 weeks relationship and we don't have to do 'things' much, somehow I hope it's longer than that.
It's just right for me to do this since I wanted freedom so much. I have no burden of being friends with him, but I have a lots of things to consider if he is my boyfriend. yea, it's just me.. I might a really good,true,best friend but I'm consider my self as complicated girlfriend. I'm thinking too much.

He is sick, I think it's flu~, for me it's consider bad because yesterday he can't really talk to me (I though he was angry) so after become a friend, I decided to cook him porridge. I like to take care of people, and I don't mind doing this for him.



I was walking from China town,to his place, which is 20 minutes walk, in 26 degrees weather,( even I used to hot weather but this is consider first time after 3 months winter) I don't mind tho, as long as I can deliver the love for him, and make him feel better. and honestly, I don't need anything in return, as long as he feeling better, and thinking that there is someone who care with him (ussually that is what people need when their sick) and the result is he appreciated it. the reaction was came abit late in my Fb wall, I hope it's really true for him.. because if it's consider joke again, I really won't trust him anymore. :)

I understand every people need procrastination, need a feedback from whatever that they have done, need appreciation. maybe yesterday I've just to worried, and thingking about it too much while everyone didn't ready to show it to me.
I know I'm loved, but I like to think that I loved them more, because I really have a plenty of love to share with my friends. why friends? it's easier rather than boyfriend. boyfriend is only one, you can only focused on him, but friends, you can do it randomly.. I'm a random people :)
For me, If I want people love me, I'm doing it with sharing my love with them, and I won't stop to love them. I don't know where I get this phrase, but as simple as - If you want being love, you must loved others first-

I don't need a boyfriend, I just need love. So, it's not necessary to have a boyfriend just to be loved.

"If friends were flowers I would not pick you! I'll let you grow in the garden and cultivate you with love and care so I can keep you as friend 4ever ♥- Quote Steve Jin"

Power of Facebook

Too many drama on facebook..
Life become more exciting and interesting because of facebook

and,..
I have participated in one of a short story,
about one couple that just get together, publish it on facebook, did many things together, adore each other, and make people happy with seeing them together, .. as in they are fully in love.
not much talking,more act, they just let everything goes in a flow.
responding people opinion about their relationship..
some were happy for them, some didn't believe, and the rest were questioning about the truth.
but there is many positive respond mess around their facebook.
The power of facebook is undeniable, the news are spread around the world, mouth to mouth, until there is no more words could give best answer to the friends and family.

The condition become awkward, facebook it's just a facebook..
does facebook never lie? It depends on the person, nobody can determine.. but, If facebook is becoming part of their identity, yes, they are in trouble.
Then the real complicated situation were occure, Is not only the status, but it is affect their relationship in real.

Nowdays, internet or facebook is no more just an entertainment or just a media that help us to escape from boredom, It changes becoming a part of people life, part of their identity,agenda in reality. interaction with their friends and the best medium to find out information about other people.
So, don't play with facebook.

:)

rindu...

Aku merindukan seseorang yang selalu punya senyum memikat.
Senyumnya itu nggak berlebihan, cukup, tapi menyimpan sejuta perasaan.
Kadang dari senyuman itu terungkap perasaan sedih, bahagia, dan cinta.. namun senyum nya nggak pernah berubah, selalu sama.
lewat medium apapun, senyumnya selalu terasa hangat. hangat di telinga, dan hangat dihati.

Sayang sudah seminggu lebih aku nggak melihat senyum itu.
mungkin karena kita sudah jarang ketemu, mungkin juga karena ego yang menghentikan langkahku.
Ego memang selalu menang, bahkan rindupun harus tertahan pilu untuk membenarkan itu

Kata orang, aku punya senyum yang sama.
Senyum tanpa beban yang selalu ceria, entah apakah senyumku sehangat senyumnya karena aku belum pernah merasakannya sendiri.
tapi yang jelas senyum itu adalah anugrah terindah dari Tuhan untuk memberkati sesama.

Aku rindu senyuman kita bertemu, melepas tawa dan memecah keheningan malam.
memberikan orang kehangatan, dan untuk hati kita -yang aku yakin- saling rindu satu sama lain.

*mari sobat kita berbagi senyum itu :)

Confession

If you sucesfully hold my hand, in a way that I like the most.

you had been sucessfully touched my heart.

better than nothing.

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good news!!

I'm not jobless in HOLIDAY!!! earn moneyy earn moneyy :)

today's question

question on my mind:

Who am I lying with?