Lost motivatiion

Anyway, Aku lagi lost motivasi yah..
biasa, kalo udah kayak gini males dah ngomong English pengennya ngomong Indonesia, bahasa Jawa Timur, or Malangan sekalian.. haha
Bukan gara2 pre menstruasi ato moody, period is already past, baru habis tepatnya.
Yah anggap aja kalo itu impact dari Menstruasi yang telat, It's still call lost motivation whatever the reasons are.
Bawaannya pengen di rumah mulu, pengen di tempat yang nyaman, aman dan santai..
nggak pengen challange, nggak pengen cari temen, nggak pengen ngerjain tugas
maunya cuman nata diri, nonton movie, dengerin musc, masak, all the house activity will do
Kalo kayak gini kurang lengkap tanpa orang2 yang bisa membuat aku nyaman, because so far, no one in Adelaide could make me feels like I'm home. no body can really be someone to share with, talk to and sombody that really be the next best friend in my life.
Pengen deket mama ( meskipun bakal berantem mulu), atleast ada Alice, Vinny, Christin, Casper, ahk..pokoknya ank2 Dreamers semua lah....
soalnya kalo ada mereka nyaman banget, mereka udah ngerti aku tuh gimana orangnya, in the other words, I don't need to proclaim and explain to them the reason why I'm doing something..
And, It's really difficult to find someone that really accept the way you are, I really aware that It needs a long process, not one or two days, It might takes years...

And now, Even I really lazy to go out from my comfy territory, I still need to step out from it..
because All the assignments are waiting for me. Even some of them made me frustrated
Yeah, namanya juga kuliah... belajar.. kalo nggak mau stres ya nggak usah kuliah ya to... belum lagi ntar kerja ... Alamak...
Masalah assignment nich juga yang bikin aku agak depression... The lecture always said a good stuff at the front, like all the student done a fantastic job, and average mark is C, tapi muncul2 cuman dapet p2, ngasihnya pelit banget... jadi berasa dodol saya :'(

In the first place, aku udah bilang kalo aku tu nggak terlalu pinter, tapi ok lah untuk seukuranku... suka brainstorm, mau belajar, ada usaha, creative... tapi kalo masalah languanges emang tetep jadi hambatan yah.
Atleast, I really want to learn..meskipun aku bisa dibilang cuman "P" person... P1, P2 enough la... kalo masalah design, movie, presentation I expect my self to get C keatas...
Aku suka major ku kok, Communication.. aku nggak merasa ini itu joke or sampah, cause I learn something, and this where my passions are..
tapi kalo udah namanya lost motivation.. mau ngomong ngalor ngidul juga kayaknya bull shit.
Bisa dibilang aku lagi males ngadepin reality yang pasti selalu menantangku..
Usually, If people want to avoid the reality, they usually watch movie or sleep to kill the day..
at least I'm not doing it tho.. watch movie iya lah kemaren..soalnya emang lagi kagak ada kerjaan... kalo hari ini (Lost motivation kan hari ini) aku masih sempet work out, lari2 di park, connect with people in FB.. sms temen.. masih exist lah. walau nich internet yah lemotnya masyaallaaahhh....ngalah2i netnya indo..tetep sabar..
And I still remember that there is someone that waiting for me, while I'm enjoying my lost motivation time. Ooops.. did I just said "enjoying"? berarti nggak bener2 lost motivation donk benernya.haha
I'm a person that easy to be motivated, and I love to motivate others.
Yang nunggu aku itu God ama Holly spirit maksudnya.. If I have God, I will not down that easy.

Oh ya, My "lost motivation's time" following by the melody of mellow korean music that I've just download yesterday night, Gothcha! finnally I can updated! I'm listening to the one of the old boyband, they have amazing voice... 4men, boleh di check :)

Even I love Worship song, but I couldn't put aside my identity, Korean mellow song.
That will always make my life meaningfull, and that is how I enjoy every second in my life.

yeah, shot update~oops.. actually quite long
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