serving the elderly

Mudika Adelaide seems a little unproductive these days, actually we have regular meeting for the choir, but not all mudikans are joining choir. so we thought of having an activity such as serving a nursing home and do a voluntarily work for them. the plan wasn't going really well because we need to go through police check which cost us money , another things is join another organisation in order to serve them. so we kind of forget about it, and looking for another opportunity to serve. we always pray to God for only His will happen to us.


and yesterday, after the long process of longing to serve, God answer our prayer through Ibu asanah. She asked me whether we want to sing in uniting church because they will have a presentation about their work in Indonesia, some of them just came back from mission in Indonesia to serve an orphanage which accommodates many children and babies as well as helping mother to give birth. they help them to built a wall from the stone that is very big,It such a wonderfull work what they have done, for me it's a pleasure to appreciate them for their humilliation, even only with singing, even though they are Christian.


we went there and we saw all the people who attended this talk was an elderly, above 65, and I was stunning right there, realise this is it, the answer of our prayer, let it be done in His name.
we singing for them, we serve them afternoon tea, talk to them, clean the table and dish, exactly what we have been planning, this is the miracle from God.


there is one point that I need to highlight, when one of the disciples ask which church we came from and I said " we are from catholic church in the city"
"oh well, do you believe in God?"
"yes I am"
"so we are the same." told the guy. and it was really struck me because it wass the same thing that Dion always told me, there is nothing difference between us, we believe in Jesus and we shared the same value, what is the matters?
I feel the peace in this church, I can feel how people serve God with unconditional love, and humble heart. that brings back my memory when I serve Tiberias church when I was 14, I gained many knowledge about God and experienced many survival at that time, I really need to credited them for what I became. Love can be spread in many ways, and with everybody


Maybe Catholic is the most authentic church from the beginning of Jesus, this is true, but don't let this be a pride that will cast us like what happen before, what we need to do is understanding more and spread the love of God available to everyone. we convinced our faith is the right one, but it doesn't mean everyone need to follow, wherever they can feel the peace and love of God alive, they always can make a changes from that point.Let God touch their heart and put wherever they want to make a changes.


Anyway, after the talk finished, the disciples told me they are happy to welcome us anytime we want to sing for them again, we were so happy can help others with our voice, and hope it's going to be one of the Choir agenda in the future.

remarkable date

when everything is tremendously changes...

when the love of God is truly happening for everyone who faithful in Him..

Before,

I was struggling to survive in Australia with $300 in bank, looking for a job to support and survive, still dedicate my life to spread a God's love to others, even though i experience shortage, but I don't want to think about it, because I have faith God will make everything fine.

Dion fighting with his life, decision with in staying in Australia for PR or going back to Indonesia, with no job in hand, trying to look at every chance to make his day effective, some problem about the incident which makes him worried,but he has faith that God has plan in him for his presence in Australia

Joko finish his uni-life, start his job in Indonesia,which totally different with his previouse life in Adelaide or Canada.

Today,

Mom has sent me money, really enough to survive till the end of my study visa. I can plan my trip to wherever I want, I won't worry about any shortage, but I still need to find a job, life continues in Adelaide

Dion get the job! from no where, suddenly he got the job. after he got his TR planning to his PR,and his incident problem showing a green light. he will no longer jobless and has plan in his life

Joko has officially graduate from Unisa, has his first degree in his life, going back to Indonesia and leaving Adelaide, no turning back wherever he was, and keep looking forward to his future carrier

See, Hoe God works in our life.

"Blessed are those who believe without seeing" John 20:29

gift from heaven

this is more than just a gift,

but CARE, TRUST and LOVE

I will take care of it :) , thanks sayang <3

Singles For Christ Oceania Conference in Sydney

As I've said, last week was the first time I visit Sydney, I had no expectation for the conference, just wanna go there and hope that I can going back to Adelaide with something. even for giving extra 2 days after the conference, it's because of the cheaper flight on Wednesday. However, the price that I have paid was worthed after what I had experienced.

SFC-Singles For Christ Oceania Conference.
I never thought that this community will gave me such a bless in my life, start with intention seeking of God, and really I found Him through this community.

"But seek the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all will be given to you"

Matthew 6:33

This phrase really become a rhyme in my life, whenever you put God in the first place, everything will be full fill in your life. really it's not easy to put God in the first place above our things, and whenever our prayer didn't come true, we ended up with disappointed and questioning about Him. manage our expectation is really important for us be able to do His will, we never know what happen in the next few second, maybe the building that we in might be shouted down because of the terrorist, or someone might die,or Born of the babies, However it is we still need to walk with out faith, faith to Him that everything happens is always for our Good.

Last weekend was a trendemouse time, I learn a lot from the conference, how we find out about our weaknesses, admit that we always fell into that sins, knowing that every person is not perfect, their doing sins, their fall, but the difference is their act after their fall into sins. through many sharing from the brother and sister from SFCs, My eyes were opened, there are so many of them fell into terrible sins, more than mine, but their still standing now, repent, and go back to God's way. I learn how to accept my weaknesses, and how to overcome it. I learn how to make my self armed so that evil won't touch me anymore. with knowing our weaknesses, and aware of it, we won't let evil to attack us from that part. and to fight back against them,

"If God is for us, Who can against us?"

Romans 8:31

Friends, every time we do sins, we are not feeling comfortable, do we? it is totally against our norm, or values that exsist in our society. I understand it might be different to certain people who has different standard, but as a Christian, our standard is in the Bible. everything that out from it, is not God's intention. God created us perfect, as what he wants, but it is us who made our life complicated with our desire, everything is our choice. You choose to do sins, because it does makes you comfortable, pleasure, and feel proud, but how long it last? Hey! in the counted of years, everything will disappears, but God promise is Forever.

If you realise, whenever you do sins, you might have voices surround you which telling you to do certain things, from this conference I learn to identify the voices, which one is the voices of Holy spirit or from the evil. never, Never, NEVER follow what evil said, even though it's good, but it is against God, it will ended miserable.

I'm still a human, whenever I'm in the situation when my flesh is bigger than my spirit, I always pray. Hail Mary, Our Father, and Glory be. and when we put the armor by praying, we need to changes our mind into positive things, and from that we can stop to think about bad stuff, and will never come to the stage of doing it. I'll try to fight for Him, because He is the one who gave me all the Love that I need, who give me all I need, who know me more than anyone, who trust me to take care of His people, and I will serve Him till the end.

and after all that I gain during the weekend, I have 2 days free. time to practicing the theory that I learn, walk with faith.. and really God taking care of me,

I had a wonderful experience in Sydney, and honestly.. I'm falling in Love with it. remains me of Kuala Lumpur where everything is provided. such a beautifully city and I would like to come back one day, sorry Adelaide to betray you, but I still love you as if my hometown

&lt;3 you Lord. my saviour

this some of the picture back then

touching moment

our commitment, what colour r u?

with Father Greg, the youngest priest in Australia, 24 years old!!

jump in look up point

cathedral St.Mary, no photos inside

opera house

SFC's Adelaide!!

getting attached

Does getting attach to someone is something wrong?

this week, this topic become booming and bubbling in my day..
One of my friend is not a type of person who like being attach, call this person Mr.Safe, the thing that make it harder he treating other people equally the same, same amount of love, same amount of care, and the amount is extraordinary that often makes other have wrong intention to him, and tend to getting attach to him. call this person Mr.SweetSmile who has a pure heart to care and love his friends with whole heart, looking for a guy as a best friend, and interested in Mr.Safe.

Unfortunately, Mr Safe doesn't really feel comfortable of what Mr.SweetSmile acts towards him. because he treat other people equally and he didn't feel anything special happened between them. opposite what Mr.SweetSmile felt, and it makes him a lil disappointed. the problem is because there is a lack of element in the way their building the relationship. Mr Safe doesn't want to get attach because he had a bad experience in the previous relationship with anyone, that is why he can't trust people. where by Mr.SweetSmile feels that he can give whatever Mr.Safe need, just there is a missing element which is TRUST.

trust in Chinese

What happen between them it's just a example of many cases in the world.
who says getting attach is a bad idea? there is a positive and negative aspect in this area. getting attach means that you will not living alone, you will need to consider everything not as a individual but as a team, and you can't simply decide something as in what YOU need, but what WE need, in this case will growing a senses of care, love and downgrade you egocentric in your self, because you need care to other people . that is the big different between. and more over, the negative part is you will affect each other in many ways, and of course, it will be difficult to work a part with your partner.

I always have a problem of getting attach, not only you. trust me, I've gone through many painful process of being attach and separate after that, and getting really hard on me to get back on my track ALONE. believe or not, most of us in this world are not born to be alone, like Adam needs Eva to accompany him in the Eden.

in my opinion, it's really hard to get attach with someone, I mean it. I rather attach with Jesus or Holy Spirit than with human that mostly will disappoint us. and having a intimate spiritual relationship with them really gave me a great outcome, not even a single damage, but power in most of the time, and I'm willing to getting attach with them the rest of my life, ops, I still have my own life, I'm not going to ended as a nun? Am I? haha

looking back in the reality and the challenge that God has given, I'm ready to getting attach with someone.. Or I think, might already get attach to him now, even it's not officially =).that is when I took the challange of getting hurt, sacrifice, forgiving, love unconditionally, whatever that it cost me, I will take. but having to say this is really hard for me to thinking that we are actually apart, and have no idea when we can be together, and figure out our real character.

Still thinking about our conversation last night, that we are actually talking about our future. and we can see our path is not yet meet in the same way
really hard to imagine, because as a partner, there is no way to be separate, even there is still a long way to go the future, I have no idea how I can get attach in this situation, but the problem it's already happen.

I told him not to think about us first, but concentrate on his future.
because I believe his future is his. is not always about me, I might not be his future, but I'm here now, will helping him through out this hard time of his life. or maybe only in this period, then we take our own way?,we might never know.
and I still have a dream that I want to build, I still want to learn many stuff that require me to travel. and getting attach might be a liitle hard for me. but I have found someone who worthwile, and it's gonna take us a long process till we get it trhough the real obstacles.

Honestly, I have no right answer to this puzzle, I need more time to get it done.
but I believe, there is nothing wrong to get attach. it's the matter make use of getting hurt and sacrifice,and care. but you also will learn something that you can't pay it with dollars. choose the right person who trust worthy. If you find one in your life, keep them, and build your world, and fill it with love.

if you haven't find one, pray to God that he will find you the right one, someone that you need.

=)

fav activity

Hey Yo!
what are you doing in Saturday night?

normally people spending their saturday night with dating or hang out with friends, that is basically what we do in the different ways.
I, normally have a quality time with Icha and Reggie, drive all the way to om Johnny's House. spending time with him and Tante Lina,having dinner continue with watching our favourite show, Last Choir Standing which really made our night.

What makes this show really ourstanding?

these days, many Tv shows are about competition, makes choir as a one great choice.
since there are many of them and it seems difficult to manage in the studio, not many Television channel brave enough to broadcast it.
but in UK, it's already begin... with Last Choir Standing.
is really fenomenal for me, since I was growing with choir team as i move around, this shows really inspired me, fenomenal
besides, there are many emotional involve behind it, since it is a competition, for sure we wants our fav team win.
Sadly this shows come to the end, In Australia last week was the grand final, and the winner is fantastic, one of my fav choir team. ONLY MEN ALOUD.

Why I love them?
first, maybe because they all are man, middle ages, and most of them really, REALLY good looking! they know how to sing, perform, and steal audience heart! damn!

So let's see, do they will steal your heart as well??

Everything is about Him

Such a long time didn't update my blog with long entries, perhaps now, I will fill this post with long writing.

living in the present, with many things going on, I feel that I am living in the reality. with loads of love which God gives to me everyday, courage me to spread it to everyone, make me become a person who feel responsible to everyone happiness. this feeling always with me since I was young, I like to help others, I become alive when people needs me. but someone remains me how it is not supposed to be a burden, and not everything is my responsibility.This is God's way for me to figure out my character.

today I have chilling time reading a blog of someone who always inspires me, Jaeson Ma

His writing struck me a lot! with all powerful word, he types to describe how God works in him trademously, made me feel Jesus is not far away, He is here, just beside me.
Whenever I read his blog, I always stunning with the words that has been discover through his faith and it is so true, stake inside my heart and rooted, make me more alive.
I realise a lot of people in this world are love God, want to follow Him, and admit him as a saviour, but how many of them are willing to sacrifice their life, to work in Jesus land and do His work? not many.
either me, is far aways from that position. even for doing what Jaeson Ma has done to discover him self and what God wants in his further service, is like impossible. but see the result, God really use him to proclaim His victory in human life.
I admire him, I really do.
every time I read the blog, encourage me to more for God's will

recently I have grumbled with self-discovering issued. everyone has it, and currently someone that really close to me having that problem. really I want to help him to discover him self, to paid off everything that not worthed in the past with letting go the pain, and I just don't know how. when I read Jaeson words, now I understand that each of us actually has the same problem.

"When you are busy, you can suppress your deepest and darkest pains,
but when you are in solitude, you have to come face to face with who you
really are. In solitude, I couldn’t get away from having to face my inner
demons. For me, the two greatest inner demons were the fear of failure and
the fear of success. That is, the fear of failing my own expectations,
failing others and ultimately failing God. The other inner demon was the
fear of succeeding. That is, not knowing whether or not my hopes, dreams and aspirations were for my own glory, or God’s glory. I couldn’t trust myself, for the heart is deceitful above all things. Daily I wrestled, day in and
day out with the fear of failure and the fear of success standing before me,
like two mighty demonic giants, taunting me and telling me to give up on
myself, that there was no hope because I was too messed up."

actually all of us has the same problem on it, when we work with God, he wants us to work with all our heart, with all our soul, all out. and when we are not comfortable with who we are, how we going to serve him? and how all the works is deign for him?
as we serve, we can't really think about our self, because everything that we have is God who has given to us. really all the freedom.liberties, only for his glory. How powerless is that? how hopeless when we can't even trust our self and walking in the path with someone who invisible.
that is when our faith is proven.
but every process has different sacrifice, what we need to do is figure out how we can experience the process and win the game.

"Life is beautiful, really. Even with all the ups and downs, all the
struggles and pain, there is also victory and success. Life is a beautiful
struggle, without pain there would be no compassion, without death there would
not be life, don’t be afraid to embrace the broken for in the broken we find
life, something we can’t find in heaven, something we only have on earth*"

this quote truly opened my eyes widely, we never understand that every problem is there because of reason, and often, we don't want to get hurt and failure, we tend to believe that something unsuccesfull is from evil not from God, have you think about what you have gain through the process? that is God's gift for you!

As a normal person I'm still struggling with my past relationship, It's really hard for me to move on, even hard to figure out what made me scared to step in a new relationship. I'm afarid to be betray again, I'm afarid of the pain of Love, I'm afaraid being hurt. but I read from somewhere, every process that I will going through is something worthwhile, my job is to find someone who worth for it, worth to be trusted. Indeed, Love is pain, but Love is beautifull pain ( *Jaeson Ma form :P)

In my way to the next level in my life, I really want to be someone who can serve others and be bless, serving God is my pleasure, is like an air for me to breath, can go away from it. In the stillness I normally can found His presence. and I'm so gratefull that I have someone who indirect way help me to create that quiteness, and found His presence trough our circumstances.
"Life is not found in the noise, life is found in the stillness. Something to think about. It’s not about how many things we accomplish, it’s about how many moments we cherish. Enjoy the moment :)" Jaeson Ma

Anyway, this is really long, and I hope understanable.
just read the blog and feel how Jaeson Ma will inspires you!

mencari breeds-nya bobby

only random thought,just wondering....
If I have my own house in the future, I really want to have at least one dog at home...
so I'm looking for one similar with bobby,
and I think I find it!

terrier Dandie

wondering- for someone

after someone gave me David Choi- by my side

which is in implicit way, telling me what inside his brain

I really feel that the message inside is truly reflect what he is trying to say.

At the moment, I have song for you in return

and please someone out there,who I refer to

let me know if you listen to this song :)

gagal lagi

trip saya selanjutnya ke Melbourne, tanggal 10-13 July untuk menemui my beloved friend Max Choong, GAGAL!
the reason is because TIGER AIRWAYS *again,will be grounded till 1st of August , because of their license and safety purposes.

Good thing is, I don't have to spend more money since currently I experiences insufficient fund for my living cost, and I need to get a job!!!
Bad thing is, I cannot see Max Choong... tooo bad.

anyway,
God has His own plan, however, I will still flying to Sydney for Oceania Single for Christ Conference the end of this month. WOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!

HOlidaY.. GateAwaYyy

teaser....

kenapa aku bilang teaser??? karena lengkapnya ada di SINI

Hey, I just went back from our wonderfull a week trip
walau banyak alar rintangan yang datang dan menguji... termasuk natural disaster problem, I guess, chille volcano ash distruption doesn't really stop us to meet up!

mulai dari cancelation flight dari Adelaide tanggal 21 june, all the flight, include ours, was cancelled. jadi Joko and me langsung memutuskan untuk pergi lewat jalur darat, 8 hours bus, demi catch our flight to Hobart tomorrow, which is juga belum tentu berangkat. (again karena volcano distruption)


another problem came from Dion's flight from perth to melb, delayed till the next day afternoon, jadi approximately Dion bakal sampe Melbourne jam 11pm, sementara flight kita ke Hobart jam 4pm So, either we pray for flight cancel and replace to the next day or, we cancel the whole trip.



Hard decision emang, di keadaan yang serba nggak menentu ini kami hanya ingin ketemu and sharing apa yang kami dapatkan selama 6 bulan berpisah, deg deg an liat status flight dari airport ke airport yang isinya cuman delay sama cancel, keinginan kami untuk bertemu yang semakin dalam membuat kami mampu melakukan apa aja.



asalkan kami bisa barengan, apa aja boleh.. menangguhkan trip pun kami rela,kan ketemua nggak harus di hobart? toh trip ini awalnya diadakan supaya kami (dion-me-joko) bisa ketemu sebelum masih2 forgood, dan juga untuk alasan ke amanan. takutnya kami kesana tapi nggak bisa balik repot juga. haha akhirnya sore itu. Flight cancel. (amin ato alamk??) dan Dion arrived safely (glad to see him!)

the next day, kita re route trip, cancel trip kami ke Hobart menuju canberra, tetep driving and plan everything from begining.


untungnya Tuhan itu Luar biasa, semua cancelation yang disebabkan oleh volcano ash, hotel dan pesawat, di fully return!! jadi kami nggak terlalu rugi banyak, dan masih below budget.


Yang jelas, kami bener2 dapet liburan yang awesome, mengenal karakter satu sama lain lebih lagi, menghargai dan saling menyanyanyi dan terlebih ketemu orang orang baru yang luarrr biasa, yang ngajak kita jalan jalan selama trip.

dalam trip ini, I learnt how to control my emotion and think logically, the result is real! and with prayer to mother mary

everything become a perfect gatewayyyy

akhirnya balik juga

Yuhuuu, akhirnya si Dion balik juga dari indonesia,

setelah sebulan terpisah oleh ratusan pulau dan ribuan kilometer, even wassap and internet nggak bisa totally connect kita. benar2 sebulan yang menyedihkan (buat saya).

dan welcome juga buat periodku yang ikut2 datang dan pergi kayak Dion *loh! , soalnya bulan lalu aku dapet pas Dion pul indo, ini ditunggu2 dapetnya pas Dion balik sini.. nah period, lu emang ada hubungan apa sama dion? #periodselingkuhyaaa

Anyway, siap siap menyadari apa yang berubah setelah ditinggalkan selama sebulan oleh teman curhatku ini ..

yang aku tau, I hardly to tell him how I feel and what I want. soalnya udah sebulan aku nggak speak up tetang apa yang ada dipikiranku secara mendetail sama orang lain, like what we used to share everyday. soalnya semenjak kepergian dia aku nggak ada temen bicara heart to heart dan lebih cenderung meletakkan semua ke Tuhan. soalnya tlpn indo mahallll, udah gitu Dion ga mau tlpn ak lg..huhuhuhu.. #terlupakandotcom :(

skrg aku harus pelan2 mengumpulkan cerita2 bahagia dia selama di Indo, untuk bisa conncet balik hubungan kita sebelum kita travelling ke Tasmania.

Ups, did I just said that??

Yeeappp..., minggu depan, tepatnya hari selasa,I will going to travel for 9 days, Melbourne and Tasmania. nggak cuman berdua ama Dion donkkkk (nanti kl ama dia berangkat 2 pulang 3org, LOL) , tapi juga sama Joko and Ce Christin.

namun, sebelum membayangkan hal hal indah yang akan terjadi, ato hal hal buruk *choy! , aku harus menyelesaikan advertising assigment 'laknat' ini (TM: cicilia iskandar & eveline indra)

serius mann, pressure abis... masak harus ngerjain 2000 wordS dalam waktu 3 hari se?? nggak penuh lagi soalnya minggu harus choir hari minggu and senen due nya jam 5 sore , dan masalahnya... AKU BELUM NYENTUH SAMA SEKALII (mampoesssssssss)

ini bukan salah saya saudara2 karena hari2 sebelumnya ada assigment juga, yang due hari ini. semuanya worth 50% nd required 2000 words above.. woohoooooooo

yah begitulah derita orang golongan darah A, kalo nggak percaya diri nggak bakal maju maju (loh! apa hubungannya?) hahahha

yang jelas, saya punya keyakinan bahwa ini assignment bakal kelar! apalagi ada si suara tinggi yang udah available di telpon kapan aja unutuk menuangkan uneg2 saia (ya dion ya :P)

Yah doakan rahmat Tuhan mengalir atas saya. AMIEN

My nikkhunn

Come to mamaaa..

*diambil dari someone's Blackberry in Indonesia ♥

"ter-beban"

I don't know whether this is the correct words to express my feeling,
obviously everyone has their favourite activity, for me, rather than thinking about my 2 assignments that due next week, and worth 50%, I rather thinking about something else..
somehow it doesn't make any senses, even pretty much destructing me, however I always end up writing a blog, because I discover something about my self.

"terbeban" , in English means burdened.
I burdened with all the assignments and over thinking of something else, too much emotional involve somehow, and I burdened by all the responsibility that I should done.
but, how about burdened with honour?

That is what I feel everytime I work in Jesus land..
last time I was His sheep, and now He mold me to be a shepherd.
really is not an easy job, but I always hold this verse, which I got from one Senior who inspired me so much

"Kesanggupan kami adalah pekerjaan Allah"
- 2 Kor 3:5

Adelaide, is one of the promising land who God has given to me. with a lot of struggle, I found my real way back to His house, the place where I wanted to be, the place which I can feel His love everyday, work in His land, and be bless to others who in needs.

Really, I don't want to stop here.. and So far, I'm trying to keep up the Choir, be able to serving the mass every month. Gather all the youngsters and keep them update with anything happen in the church.

but there is something missing from Adelaide.., not many youngsters, no MUDIKA.

one of my friend Cicil , somehow remains me to be alert with this.
seriously, I'm not really into MUDIKA, because personally I have problem to communicate liberally with many people, and I am not good in organisation.

but, MUDIKA Adelaide need to be started, and I really want to make them exist and not sinking. Adelaide has a Youth, even we are not really active, but we have community to accommodate all the idea and creativity of youngsters in Adelaide.

YES, not much... not many youngsters are willing to serve God, and I admitted, Adelaide is small city, not many Indonesian who is Catholic stay, and even harder to find someone who wants to serve. fiuh~

Honestly, I understand that I'm not alone, and this is not my work, This is God's work. He is able to everything,

but I just need partner to start, I really have no idea how to do this, I just have a longing to serve Him and do His work. but to start this work need a lot of sacrifice and commitment. I can't handle this by my self.. I need peoples to fight with me, and have a strong desire to work for Jesus.

God, I surrender... I only have heart to serve You

"Terjadilah padaku menurut perkataanMu"

emo song tapi bukan emo day!- flash back SMA

Nah, tiba2 waktu tadi search ttg "ada band", banyak juga lagu2 memorable yang mucul.
salah satu adalah lagu ini " setengah hati" , anjrott..begitu denger melody awalnya udah ke tusuk2, urat2ku tegang semua, bulu kudu merinding semua..
ternyata lagu ini mengiringi hari2ku dimana aku pas down, pas masa SMA, yang jadi satu sejarah dalam hidupku
ada satu lagu lagi sich... lagunya ungu "DEMI WAKTU" anjrotttt!!!!!



ARrrrggghhhhhhhhh...... bener2 cinta SMA busyet buju buneng ngukur berapa liter airmata yang udah keinjek2
hahahahahahaha
duu sich sakit banget yah,,gile. termehek2...
sekarang begitu denger lagunya, kayaknya cuman pengen ketawa aja, begitu canggihnya aku bisa menemukan lagu2 jadul gak karu2an...WAKAKAKAKKAKA, kalo misalnya sekarang aku bisa ketawa ngakak, aku bakal ngakak nich...masalahnya aku di library jadi kumatnya harus di tahan.

anyway, saatnya share kenapa lagu2 ini sangat menohok...
Ceritanya lagu ini pas kelas 2 SMA... (kalo berani research, 2 lagu ini lagi hits saat itu) cuman berawal dari jaman kelas 1 SMA.

3 tahun di SMA, nadia yang masih tomboy dan polos menunggu 1 orang cowok yang tampaknya cuman satu satunya di dunia ini yang bisa mencuri hatinya. (saya berani katakan namanya sekarang Steffen Whezzt Wijaya

Dia adalah ketua kelas yang charming, pendek dan imut. aigooooo ...
menikmati seninya menunggu, dan maju mundur dalam cinta. Nadia memilih untuk mengungkapkan perasaan hatinya kepada jejaka ini, naik2an kelas 2 SMA, Nadia menulis surat kepada cowok ini, bahwa She like Him. not asking him to be her BF soalnya diya cukup tau, nich cowok nggak ngelirik diya sama sekali. hahaha, jadi yah... ini diya balasan dari cowoknya

(original from Frienster)

"thanx km dah baek be aku.
tp jujur ae aku ga terlalu suka lek diperhatino terus
ama siapa ae.
biasa ae ky temen. aku maune kita temenan ky
biasa. sorry aku ngomong ky gini. tp drpd ntik
akhire ga enak. tp mari aku ngomong gini, km ojok
ngerasa aku jahat be km. kita tetep temen. ok?!"

(LOL, ngakak juga kalo aku liat lagi, ntah apa yang Nadia katakan pada jejaka ini sampai balas seperti itu *purapuralupa)

Anyway, Nadia yang sudah merelakan cintanya, dan udah memulai kisah2 yang baru, tetep aja kepikiran ama si Whest, jadi walaupun kelas 2 SMA, nadia tetep aja punya rasa yang sangat dalam ama nich cowok. sampe suatu saat, nadia mendengar kalo nich cowok punya pacar

JJJJJJJDUARRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yah, bila dibayangkan bagaimana rasanya, apalagi cewek ini tuh satu sekolah sama Nadia. melihat mereka gandengan tangan, pangku2an di sekolah.. rasanya golok, pedang, gelati mau keluar semua... Gosshhhhhhh......Nadia yang berusaha kelihatan tegar, tetap berdiri, dan mencari idaman hati yang lain alias pelarian, hingga tiba2 sahabat nadia Regina Lusi dan Caecilian Werdi menyadarkan Nadia untuk berhenti memakai topeng dan menunjukkan kehancurah hatinya, mencoba menerima keadaan.

sore itu hujan lebat, sangat lebat. Saint Albertus Dempo terlihat sangat suram dan gelap.tiada suara lain selain isak tangis Nadia dan tetesan air hujan, Nadia jatuh... terpungkur. nggak cuman keadaan batinnya, tapi fisiknya. Hingga keesokan harinya, Nadia harus di opname karena terjangkit demam berdarah dan trombostinya turun sampe dibawah 100.

Hmmm,,, 10 hari... dan menghabiskan duit 12 juta untuk akhirnya bisa keluar dari rumah sakit..bukan cuman demam berdarah , terlebih karena patah hati... alamakkkkk....
ya lagunya dua itu, Demi waktu dan separuh hati.
akhirnya cowok ini putus pas Nadia keluar rumah sakit, alhamdulilahhh.... Namun ya emang dasarnya NAdia nggak pengen jadian jadi bahagianya diem diem aja,
terus, nggak lama, Nadia mengungkapkan perasaan lagi terhadap nich cowok pake lagunya "Unttitle-Malique d'essensial', dan tidak ditanggapi... kasihannnn....:(

Okay, Aku jadi pengen ketawa kalo falsh back lagi. nich cerita historic abies.. walau nggak happy ending, sebenarnya kalo mau dilanjutin boleh dicoba juga, soalnya cowoknya masih eksis, tinggal disamperin, dideketin, ditanyain lagi...wakakakakakakakakkaka . been 5 years we never see each other...How are you whestt??? masih pendek2 aja?? hahahahah.

udah ah, cukup sekian hidup dalam masa lalunya. ntar disambung yang lebih ironic lagi
hahhahahahaha

Feels so gooooddddd

Hey, My hormone testosterone is increase,... feels so good
the impact is, I'm being so lazy, so cheeky, and ignorance.
what a natural behaviour of taurus! LOL
I'm wearing a total casual with new hoodie from cotton ON, using my sneaker, and sleepy face, going to uni, and doing everything what I want.
It's like a BRAND NEW DAY! Wohooooo
I'm single... I love GUYS, and I love GIRLS tooo... so whoever wants me come take me now before I changes to normal tomorrow!!!!!!
XD

Flash back into my old memories. all the old songs brought me down to deeper memories about all the shitty stuff, painfull, betrayal, but most of them already burried down in the grave yard- just a memories that become part of my life. but there is old love vibration that still alive through all the song which I choose to listen today, those butterflies still in my stomatch and my heartbeat still running even faster when listening to it. GOSH....

I want to living what I want to live! I'm 22, still YOUNG, not going to MARRIED yet! not going to ended my SINGLE soon! so pleaseeeee...entertain me...

gosh! enough.
I'm just bored actually. feels great when I flash back with all that stuff.
but I'm total girl now, and still can enjoy life.
but seriously people... can you please stop assuming that I HAVE BOYFRIEND?
I'M still SINGLE.
but I do have someone... I ALWAYS HAVE (if you knew mw, you know how creepy I am about the love ones)
Hahahahahahahhaha....

anyway, God YOU ARE ROCK!!!!!!
made my day

enjoy!

you know,
whenever I tell my self that I am not going to thingking about LOVE,
I have trapped in my own words.
so, here I am trying to manage and understand. no pressure and let it flow.

"I wanna see the world through your eyes for a day,
maybe catch a glimpse of what its like.
To be so beautiful underneath all the pain,
maybe see the soul that lies inside.
You are, the face that you never show.
You are, it hides all I wanna know,let me see.
All you are, it makes my heart break.
All you are, and Im waiting here.All you are, waiting all my life for.
The moment you might step outside show me whats been hiding under there.
When you unlock the gate,
twilights fall daylights break.
Nothing stop the way I felt for you now.
Cause Ive seen through the nights,through the tainted coloured glass.
Saw inside the log behind the shadow.
You are, the face that you never show.
You are, it hides all I wanna know,let me see.
All you are, it makes my heart break.
All you are, and Im waiting here.
All you are, waiting all my life for.
The moment you might step outside show me whats been hiding underneath the past
I know its gone so fast,sometimes the bad things stay.
While all the good tends to fade out of your heart and mine
but somethings left behind and baby no one can take it away yeah."

Enak,tapi..

First baked macaroni cheese..
Selama process baik2 saja..kecuali,
Keasinan gara2 pas buat kebanyakan mikirin kamu! :@

yang ditunggu tunggu dapet juga

baseball jacket !!!!!!

ready for Korean in aussie style :P

Compelete

Now I feel complete..

I feel that I have everything that I need from now.

friends who surrounding me,

community that support me,

Mom that always pray for me,

Someone to share the good and bad,

and God that makes everything perfect.

there is always some point in our life where we feel so thankful and bless.

even for the bad things that happen..

for me, I place totally to Him.

Pray for humbleness Part 2

Take O Lord and receive all my liberty

My memory, my understanding and all my will.

whatever I have and posses, all this things You have given to me

All this things O Lord,

I now place totally at your service

All are Yours to do with as You wish

Assure me only of your love and your grace,

This will be enough for me.

You know, whenever I pray this..I cried

I feel powerless and hopeless

but God wants us to focus on Him, He is the hope, and He will make everything good for you

Remember: He knows you more than you do.

that is when unexpected moment will happen,

and by the time you realised, everything is perfect.

:)