Monday, January 31, 2011

perumpamaan tentang rumah

Friendship is like build a house...

you have to start with a strong foundation, put the material one by one, arrange it nicely
and when there is a storm, it may broke and left a mark,
but you can slowly repair it, and renovate a little bit
it's still as comfortable as a home

the more it's imperfect, the more you renovate it, the more it's become comfortable

:)
-idea by alice suryadi

Sunday, January 30, 2011

appreciate my self

try to appreciate my self, understanding my weaknesses and bring up my positif part

I just realize that I left half of my self in Malaysia, I mean anything that I have seen in Malaysia seems helping me so much to searching what I want to be, spesifically is about fashion.
many years back, I have no idea how to be pretty and now I know how to persuade my self to be attractive and compelete with the clothes. and I never get enough to be what I want, somehow it tops because I need to think about the money that I need to spend and the social condition that makes me to carefull about the way I dress
not many choice that I found in Adelaide, and Malaysia seems like a heaven to me.

one thing that I realize when I shop is : high self focused. which means I think about my self more rather than others, one side is good, trying to match and appreciate, the other side say.. that is so flesh attitude.

however, I'm a girl. and I want to be as pretty as good looking as me. and yeah...
I'm in M'sia and I'm ready to do that

Friday, January 28, 2011

character yang saya butuhkan (2)

Hari ini Adelaide hot sekali, and aku harus berjalan menelusuri kota demi untuk mencari oleh2 buat GFs ku.. so as usual, ada keluarkan rumusnya:

nadia + hot weather= temper

one of my good friend accompany me, and we had a chat, normal chat
it's became awkward setelah diya menjawab pertanyaanku dengan nada tinggi dan memaksa, alias "nyolot" padahal topiknya seputar yang normal2 aja. aku kaget donk, dan bikin aku males ngajak omong lagi

So, dari situ saya merasa ini sisi sensitive saya..
aku butuh seseorang yang cara ngomongnya nggak ngeyel, tapi kalo emang offensive, diya tetep tenang dengan memberikan argument2 diya. jadi bisa kelihatan bijak bukan memaksa. If I meet people like that, I will be amaze with his character and attitude.

worries...

YES, saya mengalami kepanikan yang tidak beralasan.

I don't really know where to start but I think all happens because I am to sensitive.
I have no idea where the "breaking down" part was begin, but I think it's because a small problem that pile up and smash me right in my face. shoot.
and maybe is not the right excuses for it, I might be too worries about tomorrow, my last day in Adelaide, and I need to travel 7 hours away from Adelaide- my recent home- leaving all the people and my belonging, my room, my bobby,arnold, bethoven!
and the best thing is, after this holiday is over, I need to face the next subject assignment which will make me pretty stress, following by the changes of friendship that always happen every semester.
you know what? I'm kind of sick of it. and I am READY TO LOSE ANYTHING THAT DOESN'T WORTH TO MAINTAIN.

“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”
-Tania

I believe If I need to lose someone that is for a reason, and If the person still with me, there is also a reason. just cross finger dechhhh....

I just scared that I will forget about something important that I need to bring back to msia.

even though I'm in pray, I couldn't concentrate. gosh... am I that worried?

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Monday, January 24, 2011

mengamati character yang saya butuhkan (1)

Kalo banyak orang tau nadia itu kayak gimana, pasti identic ama orang yang cuek, kamarnya nggak rapi, dan yang pasti pengen tampil beda
tapi semenjak di aussie, aku berusaha untuk meluruskan jalan2 itu dengan jadi cewek yang biasa biasa aja. katanya kalo kita jadi orang standart, dengan sifat dan tingkah laku yang normal bisa lebih mudah dicintai. dengan usaha yang cukup berat, aku berhasil mengubah imageku jadi seorang cewek tulen

tapi tetep aja cewek juga ada yang rapi ada yang nggak. bisa dibilang aku orangnya comfort dengan apa yang ada, kotorpun (asal nggak keterlaluan) masih bisa. dan lebih nyaman kalo liat kamar sedikit berantakan jadi kerasa ada "isi" nya.
asalkan ringkes cepet dan nyaman in my own way, itu sudah cukup.
makannya kadang aku agak stunning liat cowok yang rapi banget.
bukannya terganggu sich tapi kadang cenderung jadi nilai plus dalam kamusku.
cowok rapi bisa apa aja, mungkin dari penampilannya rapi, selalu fresh, atau juga bisa diliat dari kamarnya, dan paling hebat cara melipat baju dan njaga barang2nya
kalo udah baju rapi, kamar bersih, pinter lipat baju, udah lah... +++

rapi, kadang cenderung ke perfectionist, kalo udah kek gitu kayaknya agak serem yah
karena kalo orang2 model aku berada di sekita mereka bisa jadi suatu ancaman besar buat mereka lol . karena perfectionist cenderung melakukan sesuatu perfect as they wanted to be. dan kalo semua pasal-pasalnya nggak diturutin, wah bisa berabe.
sedangkan orang rapi, mungkin kadang mereka merasa annoying dengan tingkah laku yang bruk bruk, tapi mereka punya insting buat merapikan dan ngembaliin barang pada tempatnya.. nah demen nich yang kayak gini, jadi nggak usah lipet2 baju, ato ngerapiin kamar ada yang benerin. LOL.
tapi yang jelas orang rapi dan ngopeni barang2nya itu amazing bener menurutku, intinya diya itu peduli akan stuff that belongs to them and like to see the things are arrange nicely.

nah maka... mungkin salah satu character ini yang aku butuhkan untuk melengkapi kekurangan ku.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

perth I'm in love

because of the charm of the city..
and the people that I'am hang out with... :)