Wednesday, September 14, 2011

nyeletuk

Dion : "Sayang, kamu ntar pas ke perth panas lho" *dengan nada sok perhatian tau kalo aku benci panas
Nad: "loh ya nggak mau tau, you need to handle me"
Dion : *dengan nada tak berdosa menjawab " Siram air dingin ae"
Nad : *NGAKAK KENCENG ABIES, NGGAK TAU MAU JAWAB APA*

Ini adalah salah satu keahlian Sayangku, nyeletuk! dan nyeletuknya itu nggak tanggung2, kadang2 lucu banget kadang2 nyakitin hati, tapi kali ini bener2 tega banget nich anak! hahaha

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

what do you think about LDR?

this question was threw up to my best friend by her boyfriend, after a couple of months they have LDR.
It's been 7 months in exact they doing a Long Distance Relationship between Kuala Lumpur and Melbourne. after around 3 years they have been together. many sacrifice has been made, heaps of sweet memories staking together along with their journey, and indeed, It's not easy to let go one to another.
even to get far from each other, it seems impossible.

7 months, it's long enough to feel the loneliness and emptiness in their heart. they used to have each other in every problems, a warm hugs whenever the cold comes, and kisses whenever the desire of love passes by, and make the world just for them.
now, they need to replace it with the text, with the voice from the other side, from the moving picture in skype or just in frame. there are nobody to give a real action of love, as a couple surround them.
My best friend seems really confident that they can go through this. she has everything she can to make this relationship work for them. she looking forward to their future, having a career in Malaysia to get a PR over there with taking over a hard job, and always look after her boyfriend in overseas, while the guy trying to save money for the phone credit to call his girlfriend.
and in that 7 months of battle, the guys came to my best friend, and asked her about LDR.

He said, he found someone over there...

what kind of feeling that you expected from the girl who fighting for her relationship future, having a whole trust for this relationship going well and listen to such an idiot statement.
but this the reality, shitty things happen...
I'm not going to say about the ending, because it's not yet end.

Anyway, Uncle Bob, one of my Australian Uncle always told me, TRUST is the important base on the relationship, LOVE is not enough. and when there is a betrayal between TRUST and LOVE, that is when the massive pain will hit a person, till the bottom of their heart, and the sad news is, it's normal and always happen. what makes you abnormal if you can't go through it.
especially in Long Distance Relationship, when our love ones is not around, it's actually we have pretty much our own time, without share whole day with our partner, we have more option to select then if our partner is around, for example the dress, food, etc. and we have the right to choose whoever we want to close with and how it is going to be; danger your relationship, or just safety. We have a responsibility to take care of our heart not to be enter by anybody accept our love ones, we choose to be in relationship even our partner is not actually around, we take care of our selves as well as keep in mind that someone loves us out there. we need to put our TRUST more, and don't mislead that trust.

Whenever I see those who survive in LDR, I really proud of them, even though they have the right to choose, and they are away from each other, they always keep in mind that they are the best for each other, and when they can survive, they will have a strong relationship in the future.

I used to have an LDR, and it's survive for 2,5 years and for me it's more safety to have a LDR compare to normal relationship, that is why I'm a gree to have another LDR.
I put trust on my partner as well as he does. and what we believe is we will always have each other whenever we are, we need to take care of our heart because it has been taken, and not trying to cheat on each other. most of the time, when we feel lonely, we asked God to taking care of the other, and deliver our Love. I didn't say that we wouldn't end up cheating or take benefit from each other, but when we do that, we TRUST that God will have His own way to solve this problem, what we need to do is forgiving an sacrifice and see the progress of this relationship.

However, don't ever scared of having relationship, whether you need to have LDR or not, if you are SURE it is from God, just walk with faith, and God will make away.

chit chat

telephone berdering

Nadia: "halo siapa ya ini??"
Dion : "pacarnya Nadia.."

*jduenggg,, serrr...
I think I need to use of this word,
hahahah

Sunday, September 11, 2011

mentally tired

Hidup di Aussie yang aku bayangkan dulu adalah hidup dimana aku bisa memiliki life style lebih sehat, sedikit mahal dan elite
logikanya kalo orang yang bisa sekolah si aussie itu economically kecukupan banget donk, so basically temen2ku bisa dari golongan atas yang pinter buang buang duit, ato asli mau maju, ato anak2 beasiswa yang terselaksi otaknya dari beratus2 murid yang lain
at least all is high quality

but the reality that i have face right now is different
I;m surroundung by people who fighting for their live in australia, banting tulang, hidup sangat minim, dan berusaha untuk bertahan hidup di aussie..
sampe2 harus makan seadanya, untung rugi yang penting kerja...
ditimpa sial, namun nggak menyerah, uang tabungan habis namun nggak mengeluh..
dan tetap bertahan dengan hidup yang super minim di negara australia ini...

God must have plan to put me in this extraordinary condition.
to see the reality

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

2 years single

nggak kerasa, udah 2 tahun aku single.
single bukan berarti sesuatu yang miserable kok, single juga bukan berarti sendiri untuk menjalani hidup
justru dalam hari hari single ku ini, aku punya banyak waktu untuk memilih, introspeksi, dan memahami apa yang paling aku dibutuhkan
2 tahun yang lalu, relationship 2,6 tahunku gagal.
tanpa ada rasa ingin mengungkit kisah sedih masa lalu. my past relationship emang nggak membuat rasa nyaman di hatiku, nggak ada bangga, nggak bakal lama, dan tujuannya emang cuman buat pengalaman,
tapi sakitnya mengukir hari hari bersejarah dihidupku.my deepest misery, till I can't get up from the nightmare.
sakitnya udah nggak kerasa, namun traumanya masih ada.
Rasa takut untuk mencintai, rasa takut untuk disakiti, rasa takut dihianati dan rasa takut untuk melangkah for another relationship.
Namun, Tuhan membuat semua itu nggak mustahil.. Aku persilahkan Tuhan untuk campur tangan dalam setiap prosesku, aku mempersilahkan Tuhan untuk memberikan calonNya untukku, aku mempersilahkan Tuhan untuk mengisi hatiku dengan CintaNya, menyembuhkan aku dengan KasihNya, dan mempersiapkan aku untuk prosesNya
sampai di memberikan aku seseorang yang pantas menemaniku.meskipun rasa trauma itu masih ada sampai sekarang, namun aku yakin everything will be alright in Him.

Semua bahagia... kayaknya yang di masa lalu juga udah bahagia sama partner nya yg sekrang,
yang currently mereka udah 2 years anniversary.
dan aku? sedang merangkai satu bahtera baru dan menunggu Tuhan mau dibawa kemana :)

Monday, September 5, 2011

Friday, September 2, 2011

curhat

Setelah sekian lama, hari ini aku sempet chatting sama sahabatku si Kang2
meski kami jauh, but me personally she still has the her wonderful personality, and she still the same, dia sahabatku :)
Dia sedang curhat tentang 2 tahun relationshipnya yang bingung mau dibawa kemana, lantaran dia dan pacarnya akan pisah setelah lulus, Kang2 diminta mamanya buat pulang padanga,jaga toko, sementara cowoknya mau cari kerja di Malaysia..lahhh!
belakngan ini mereka berdua sibuk internship, loncat dari kota ke kota, kerja pagi sampe malam, dan karena kesibukan mereka ini jadi ada kerenggangan. si cowok terkesan sangat berkonsentrasi dengan pekerjaannya dan lupa untuk berpikir tentang masa depan mereka
Sebagai seorang cewek, pasti mikir donk gimana tentang kelanjutan hubungan mereka, meskipun yang cowok bilang no plan, but namanya cewek tetep harus dikasih pengertian. jangan kira kami diam tandanya kami setuju, sebenarnya ada berjta juta pertanyaan dalam benak cewek ketika mereka diam!
si kang bilang kalo diya juga nggak mau nunggu dalam ketidakpastian, nanti jadi perawan tua, LOL, dan yang pasti dia emang merasa kerenggangan antara mereka itu nyata, karena mereka udah jarang banget kontakan, jarang banget komunikasi, sampe ga bisa merasakan kehadiran masing2 dalam hidup mereka, sudah nggak saling memengaruhi dan menoreh kisah indah bersama...
2 tahun itu masa2 kritis, cinta juga bisa pudar,,,jangan kata tidak
dan kang2 juga mengakui kalo setelah jarak yang terjadi saat internship, diya jadi lelah..karena jarak yang mereka tempuh sehabis ini jauh lebih besar daripada pas internship..antara 2 negara.
jadi dia berencana untuk ngobrolin ini sama cowoknya untuk mencari solusi bersama sama

yah aku doain kang2 dari sini dah, semoga yang terbaik yang terjadi untuk kamu. lebih baik pisah sekarang walaupun sakit daripada harus spent time with the wrong person in the whole life :)

anyway, sebenarnya itu juga yang sedang aku pikirkan.... :(