anniversary will be?

12 April 2009 it's easter 2009,

we celebrate our 1st year anniversary 4 april 2010

this year is 24 April 2011

we have different anniversary every year :)

TemanS

aku bahagia karena aku nggak sendiri

ketika aku berteriak minta pertolongan,

Tuhan berikan aku seorang teman,

Tuhan berikan kamu.

meskipun kamu hanya seorang teman,

kolaborasi kita telah membuat banyak kemenangan,

hingga menjadi satu titik balik dalam hidupku, untuk terus bertahan.

bertahan di Adelaide, karena aku punya secerca harapan.

Teman,

Aku nggak tau lagi kalo tiba2 kamu menghilang,

siapa yang akan mengisi kekosongan hati?

*thx buat orang yang sudah membuat banyak improvement dalam hidupku

:)

It's me, now

Jujur aja belakangan ini aku jadi agak susah ngomong english lagi,

kalo semester lalu cas cis cus sambil ada logat aussie, sekarang untuk njawab orang aja aku mikirnya lama.

ini dikarenakan aku lebih sering ngomng indonesia, sama jowoan tiap hari. humph...

sekarang aku udah nyaman di adelaide karena banyak banget orang indo disekitarku, kadang kenyamanan emang butuh sesuatu yang berindikasi home town, nahh akibatnya yah gini..nggak bisa ngomong english... mantaphhhh

gain something..loss something.

masalah gain something loss something, aku sedang mengambil sebuah keputusan yang tampaknya bisa merubah jalan hidupku.

tentang aku yang mau extend another semester in Adelaide, dengan drop one subject yang pasalnya udah d plan dengan sangat cantik, lulus bulan july, tapi karena drop satu , jadi molor ke bulan december.again, for the seek of staying another semester in Adelaide.

what I concern is .. I don't want to leave Adelaide. this is my last chance to learn a lot of stuff in Australia, I might not be able to come back again in the future.

and there is something that bond me, the peoples. I have more than good friends and family, which I'm not ready to leave them.

the consequences is, I might loosing some chance that comes up after july- chances about my future, who knows? then if there is, I need to let it go. I love to stay another semester in Adelaide although cause me loosing some chances.

dan... dari semua ujuk2an ku diatas.. aku juga pengen bahwa any decision that I will make, it's really what God's want to happen in my life. nah ini yang bikin suatu perdebatan olehku n dion.

Dion bilang dalam kondisiku sekarang, apapun yang aku putuskan, kalaupun itu salah, Tuhan akan membenarkan. means, asalkan nanti tujuannya sama, walaupun jalannya berbeda Tuhan bakal selalu menyertai.

Ibarat banyak jalan menuju Roma, kalo Tuhan maunya jalan A, terus aku ini skrg lagi di jalan B, asalkan sampainya juga ke Roma, Tuhan akan selalu menyertai.

tapi karepku kalo Tuhan mau jalan A, ya aku maunya cuman jalan A..., kalo jalan B takut ntar ada apa2 meski sampainya sama2 ke Roma

lha kok aku jadi merasa egois sekali yah...??

Kalo misalnya Tuhan ngabulin kemauanku buat stay di Adelaide, bukannya bagus walaupun itu bukan jalan A, kan berarti God grant my wish and gv me a chance to explore more and enjoy my life. it's good. and everything that will going to happen when I'm passing jalan B, God will always there for me.

I think I shouldn't let those thought occupy my mind.

Anyway, 80% towards the decision of dropping subject. I have already drop my subject actually, just waiting to arrange another study plan.

God bless me.

What a lovely day

What a lovely day!!

with news that came from both of my good friends. which is THEY GOT THE JOB!

I'm really happy for them since they are always in my top of the list,

totally happy for their new life! and hope Lord contin

ue to bless them through out their life.

and now, It's my turn to keep my self in quietness, doing what I want to do for them

and keep them in prayer.

I have a matter that I need to figure out as soon as possible,

I'm not afraid, but It's really important decision that need me to concentrate and take a risk, something that can scratch a history in my life.

whatever it's going to be, I want it to be God's will in my life. I don't want to be reckless and simply take a risk for nothing. I want to be something meaningful.

Pray for me,

:)

Changing image

Identity change,that is the topic of my iccs this week but it also something that i am facing right now

Sometimes when I try to remember what I was doing last semster, it's kind of hard work for me. push my limit, being the best charachter for everyone. How I am getting so many friends, trying to get to know everyone, become one of the influencial person,attending all the events and ask everybody to join, exploring australian culture with all the pub n club thingy, end up with hangover and mini dramas . huff, now I've kind of tired to repeat again.
when i flash back all that happenned,although I learned a lot of stuff, I think I get enough.

I've kind of tired to look for a new friend, asking the same question again and again, trying so hard go get to know them meanwhile the next day they are gone. tired for maintaining everybody to get in touch whereby they don't do anything to catch up, I had enough of listening to backstabbing dramas and those complicated problem that break us up into smaller group, untill we hardly seeing each other. I am totally had enough ofthis.

now it's time for me to maintain what I have.
more into deeper relationship, arrange my life, and do what I want to do
treasure those people who eligable and eliminate those who don't
coming into deeper meaning of friendship and maintaining all the true friend.
no more club,no more drinks. and don't negotiate with something that not good, say no straight.

that is how I changes my identity this semster,
I might not becoming the influencial person and,
I might lose what I gain last semesterbut there is no regret on it
because this the life that I wanted to be.

BONUS!

my highschool picture... handsome gila!!

prove that my identity change!

God takes my eyes.

remember my sharing about something that distract me in the previous post, one of it is because of a guys.
Now I cannot see properly, all i see is double line. so i need to wear spect.
Still praise Lord for this gift. must explain something why I need to wear spect more often now.

Something to share

Last Tuesday, at the night after I touched down in Adelaide I went to a SFC's meeting

they discuss something about prayer, what things that usually distract us from getting closer to God.

I'm thingking a lil harder for that,

I'm close to him and I contacting with Him everyday, but is there sometimes that I've got distracted?

Yes, MANY TIMES.

First, I've got distracted whenever I'm shopping, I always wanted to buy a lot of stuff to be able perform better. our performance is absolutely judge the way people think about us, that is why whenever I go shopping, I'm too concern about my self so that I am forgetting about God's charm that life in me, I forgot that appearance is not the important things to attract others, but the inner charm is more powerful to attract people.

Second, because I'm a girl I really concern about relationship. when I close with God, means I'm falling in love with him, but sometime I've got really distracted by one of his creation, which is man.

yeah, those guys are somehow make me confuse and shake my feeling so many times. even though I realize that they don't really matter to me, or affect my life, but still when I'am thinking of them too much, adore them too deep, I become far from God. because my attention has been divided by two. even though It's not perfectly cheated on him, but quite often it is distract my relationship with him.

and I hope I can still be a servant whatever the condition is.

anyway, I'm quite happy today because I met a bunch of people in rundle.

I met Cindy chow, andrea, adrian leong, Joko, bernice, steve,chris, Sin-ae, Ko Sumo, Jhonny, Cliff, Jerry, and Warren

really happy to see them around, knowing that I'm not alone, I feel like I'm back home.

:)

Gbless