I wish..

GOD PLEASE LET ME DO SOMETHING IN JANUARY!!

baby cute

Sometimes, I really proud to be his EX,



the cute baby face look that I hoping to see in every morning :)

don't hate me because I post this by, your adorable look!

????????

I'm not complaining..
but I just gonna questioning my life:
What am I suppose to do after Christmas? I'm home alone now, Joko going to korea, Hendry and wirawan in Indonesia, Dion already at perth. Don working, and Alice ahve no connection in Indonesia. there is no more SFC, everybody with their own family.
So, God... could You please give me a surprise? I really don't want to die because of bored! :(

Christmast wish lists

" What Do you want for Christmas?"
that is what I always ask to every kids who comes to SantaLand, place where I'm working now.
Initially, Christmast always indention with gift, surprise or family gathering. All good things happen in Christmas, Family become so alive, and there is no more fight!
That is why a lot of miracle happen on Christmas

but, When the question they throw back to me, I have nothing in my mind.
So, What I want for Christmas?

Stuff that I really wants now is new DSLR camera and Guitar. but seems I have limited resources to make it come true.
Basically, I want to get a lot of money! I want to work so I can cover my expenses on January. I really have no more left in my bank account, besides I need to get Christmas shopping for my friend, have to! I want to share the happiness of Christmas with all people around me. I'm worried that It won't be enough.
but, after december, I will jobless ended with spending money everyday in January, huf~ I don't want to waste, but I really have no plan the whole january, Holiday! Why don't I go for traveling?? I need money for it. If let's say I end up need to have support from mom's money, I really really want to go perth.. on january :)

If God really have a big plan for me, I don't think I need to worry about anything.
All I want in Christmas is Chance for me to maximize the time that I have in australia with networking, traveling and doing something good.

I miss

As usual, maybe this is emo time. Let's looking back the past..

I've been to Brisbane, Gold coast, and all the memories that pattern in my heart can't beat anything. I miss most of the time that we've spent together. I miss the people that I hang out with during that time, I miss the cold weather, drizzle everyday and raining most of the time. I miss wake up in the morning under dark cloud and hoping that today will be a great day, I miss dion asking me to bath! haha. I miss running because we need to que in every ride in gold coast, I miss speaking javanese with them , I miss we pray together before sleep, I miss it now.

Moreover, looking back further down, 6 months ago, back in Malaysia..
I miss the humilite weather that appears in my room, I miss alice,vinny and chin that most of the time greet me in the morning. I miss we hang out till late with chin's car, I miss going to sunway, dress up, and doing crazy stuff there, I miss shopping together and trying all the clothes, by time we ready we show off and giving opinion to one another which one is nice, I miss Gloria jeans, and starbucks! place when we are get bored of assigment!, I miss mamak! I miss the swiming pool, place for me to release my burden.I miss skyiping with edo and doing crazy stuff there. I miss crying in Alice shoulder! I miss telling them how I Love them! I miss the comfort, friendlyness and safety. and I miss the argue, fight and all the problem that appears. I really want to going back to you!!!

really, eventhough I have a lot of friends now,
I don't feel any of them are my close friend. it's really really difficult to find one. it's really really difficult to get one close friend.

wise word from hendry

hendry's wise word: go to sydney to see opera house, symbol of aussie, to melbourne for shopping, to perth to enjoy the view, to brisbane to enjoy the food,to goldcoast to enjoy the rides n drain ur money away n to ADELAIDE to live!!Adelaide is the best ever!!

and I'm totally AGREED!

Friendship goes right...

last November sunset in Glenelg

I think many people have their own desire about friendship. and for me, I'm trying to revise everything that me and my friend have been done. I want to repair all the broken connection, heal the pain, and enjoy the happiness of friendship. because I treasure all my friend and I don't want to lose any of them

So far so good, just that I realize that tittle of "best friends" never changes to other people.
that is why, I decided to go back Malaysia for one month, to meet my love ones, a quarter of my heart :)

What I believe is, even thought we are keep trying to hold our friendship with someone, we still need them to hold the other side. and when we keep trying and have faith on it, time will prove that our afford is a wasted. and God will choose, who deserve to be your close friends, and who aren't

I recon that I have few girl friends here, that Is why Alice, Vinny, and Christin still my bestfriend ever. and even though my guy's friends is a lot, but I still love Joko, Steve (my hubby) , and Don (my bro) as my friends that has special place in my heart. And don't forget Adrian that I always keep in pray for all your happiness that will happen to you :)

web cam in 1st dec

I love December! month that will close all the wonderful thing that happened in 2010, this is where I can show my fully love to them!. I'm going to Brisbane tonight, only for 8 days, and I've already imagine how much I will missing all of you, without laptop, Internet that connecting us!
and bobby, Arnold , Beethoven that won't be able to be my bed mate for a week.
I hope that this will be a wonderful Holiday for me. Gbless....