Cherish My Heyday.NadiaNicole

leaving Adelaide

2012-01-15T01:12:00.002+10:30

tik tok tik tok tik tok...,

nggak nyangka waktu berjalan cepet banget.. it has been 1,5 years, adelaide and me become a good friends, many things happen which couldn't describe by an essay. It was wonderfull!

dimana ak oleh bertemu teman teman baru, menamah banyk pengalaman, dan yang pasti mencapai satu perubahan dengan prosess yang nggak gampang.

Adelaide been treated me realy well.

and now it's time for me to say Goodbye.

the are a tie that makes me couldn't let go Adelaide, from people who lives here and still hard to let me g (Bu As and Om Bob), but show must go on, I will leave all the memories in Adelaide, with fully gratitude back to Indonesia.

am I sad or happy? couldn't really tell the feeling.

I'm a realistic person, living in the present and future, never look to the past, so what I know is I need to move on and continue my life.

this is not the end of God's promises.. this is the begining.

The things which makes lighten my burden to let go Adelaide is, all my friends in Indonesia

there is nothing to stop me to meet them soon. esspecially Joko... I can't wait to see him!!

and more important thigs, I'm going bcak with my love ones, Dion will meet my mom, and he is the firs boyfriend who i introduced to family... He will going back with me to Indonesia...

really nothing to stop me.

Eventhough future seems so blur, but i belive When you focus on possibilities, you will have more opportunities. thats what I belive will happen to me

I have more than a plan in Indonesia, I have courage that I will gain something more there, the challage is begin soon.

and God made me ready :)

berteman dengan mama

2012-01-12T22:40:00.002+10:30

seperti kebanyakan anak muda, i have a big problem communicate with my parents,

specifically, My mom.

bukan hanya karena kita jarang kumpul, tapi juga karena sikap dan kepribadiannya yang unik.

mama orangnya biasa sendiri, karena dia ank tunggal, nggak merasa butuh orang lain dan sangat perfectsionist, gaya bicaranya yang keras dan kelakuannya yg sekarepe dhewe sering membuat aku snewen, she doesn't look like an ordinary mom who usually people have.

kalo biasanya mama dateng pasti dimasakin, semua mua bersih, dan rapi. tapi kalo mamaku dateng, barang semua ilang pindah nggak tau kemana, alat2 rumah tangga rusak semua, dan alamat aku tiap sore harus masak buat makan malem... cape deee.

namun beliau juga punya talenta, she can speak 10 hours without stop! it's like a radio broadcast, or worst than that.. if you don't stop her, she can go all night long :S

sejak kecil, mama nggak pernah ngurusin anak2nya like ordinary mom, yang dia lakukan adalah menggaji orang untuk ngurusin anaknya dan mencukupi kebutuhan, yah mungkin bisa dimaklumi karena mama single parents dan berjuang demi mencukupi ketiga anaknya yang masih sekolah, namun beliau bukan saja berhasil mencukpi, malah sedikit lebih mewah.

but for me still, somehow I can't really stand if she is around, auranya itu udah ngajak orang berantem, plus ndak membuat orang simpati, tiap kali dia ngomong, pengen aku jawab dengan kenceng dan kasar.

as the time goes by,, i feel tired.

tired to fight, tired to get angry, tired to speak loud, tired to hate her.

so I started to make a peace with her. I'm not trying to love her.. just start to like her, as a friend.

it went well on the first, I'm trying to be nice with her, like i treated my friend. a bit informal, and most is trying not to shout at her which is quite hard.

I;m trying to help her, and somehow if i don't like it, i tell her honestly that don't want to do it. obviously I joke around with her and make fun of her.

spent more time as a family, trveling it's really a good treatment. kata orang jowo "witting tresna, jalaran soko kulino" , kita mencintai karena kita terbiasa... terbiasa bersama, terbiasa dengan kehadiran orang tersebut, jadi kita lebih tau apa yang dia inginkan dan menyesuaikan dengan dirikita. hasilnya? mmm tamapaknya memuaskan.

sampai detik ini aku berusaha jadi teman mama, atleast meskipun kami nggak affectoinate banget, ato sampe ngomong heart to heart, but we get along quite well.

thanks God for that :)

2012? Time for new resolutions

2012-01-02T16:31:00.001+10:30

Christmas has been passed, and I am in the year of 2012.
I'm spending time with my family, many things happen recently, and I believe it's for our own good. plety of funny stories from my mom's whose trying to be "mom" and turned it as a disaster. L.O.L
anyway, this kind of boring new year, i spent in bu Asanah's house beause I was SICK!, high fever, cold, but good thing is I spent the last seconds of 2011 and the first second of 2012 with people that i love the most, and love me more, not strangers, not someone who I choose to be. I was in the phone with my boyfriend which 2,5 hours different
one thing that unbelieveable with this new year is I'm not alone anymore, I have a boyfriend, eventhough just on the phone, but his presence is here :) hope we could spend next new year together sayang :)

it's going to be a tough year for me, ever since I need to going back to Indonesia and find a job, harder because my relationship in uncertainty, as always... if we can go far, really it's because God's grace, and really it's God's plan...untill now I can really feel what happen with us is really God's plan. I will never insist or resist anything, because this is one miracle who happen in my life.. I'm gonna fight for it.

So my 2012 resolution going to be many things; and most of it connecting to my future in Indonesia. trying to get it in details..

driving skills ;I'm not going to go out to work BEFORE I know how to drive a car, till I got lisence! ok that's going to be hard, but I want to be independent
trying harder ; I promise to get jobs exclude my mom's bussiness, and I'm not going to complain about anything, just accept the situation, trying to survive, and figure out how to be master on it, include my service in the place that God will put me, get the balance on it. achieve something, moving around for experience, as well as saving more money.
maintaining; im going to be seriously maintaining my body -in detail - I'm going to regulary work out, go to skin care, and do products to maintain my performance. it's gonna be tough as well because I'm not use to it anymore when I'm in australia
I'm going to hold on my relationship.. go ALL IN, in the way that If I'm going to help Dion, I'm not going to be like you is your problem, not my problem. but I will going like your problem is my problem, something wrong with you, is something wrong with me as well. trying to build trust and faith on each other, plus support in God's faith. even though I need to be long distance with him *again

yeah that's pretty much 4 point that I want to achieve in 2012, and hopefully everything going well

hey christmas

2011-12-26T16:37:00.000+10:30

christmas spent with family and KKIA family, after gathering in Bu asanah house, we went to mass
hot mass, we went 11pm mass, and it was 28 degrees at nigh, HOT!

photo soon

graduation

2011-12-18T23:13:00.000+10:30

tomorrow is my graduation...
I'm not really excited tho.. because imnot graduate with any of my close friends, nothing like last graduation..
maybe just family..and some friends... not even my boyfriend
hmm.. and im not glad because im finish my degree.. something that i need to achieve in the last 16 years
even I have prepares my black dress... my new shoes.. my hair done in 630am, and make up...
just will never be the same..
no expectation. just want this end
and, facing the reality :(

little update before Christmas

2011-12-18T00:54:00.001+10:30

it's been a week my family come in Adelaide, after 2 years I never see them,
special or my brother was 2,5 years, WOW
personally, I still think that we are the same, still talking the same issues, still behave like a family, a litle affection but more interaction. but now some of the serious talk, we handle it more seriously since me and my bro getting older and mom too
my mom behave good, as long as she doing fine, we will have a harmonise life in Adelaide.. wait till my mom have a bad mood, everything will become a disaster :(

I'm too busy for doing something that I don't realise, maybe because most of it is not for me, but for mom and bro. Christmas is around the corner, it's just next week and I have't buy any gift for everybody. gosh!!! I don't think it's enough time since some of it i need to post it over to the other states, or maybe I need to make a one day post, pay extra for saving my time? hufff.... I'm not read for Christams, this is too fasttt

And I think I'm having my last shift as ACC staff this week, I have alreay empty my locker incase I eant to resign,
but the other day I have a call to work on new years eve because it is compulsory for everyone who hired this year, I have no idea what shoul I say to the,

pretty musch enjoying my family time, and will graduate this monday :)
BACHELOR OF ARTS :)
Thanks God

n oooooo LAPPY

2011-11-30T00:57:00.000+10:30

my laptop broken again!!!
I think now it's more seriouse... something crash... last night was ok, I was shutting it down properly
but this morning when I on it, It was frezeed, and no movement...
when I turn it off, and try to o it, doesn't work
alright then, time to send to Manuel,

he said the motherboard is fauly
I choose to take it home.

happy one year Friendship anniv

2011-11-30T00:00:00.000+10:30

and one month relationship anniversary :*
X.O.X.O

nice video

2011-11-29T21:30:00.001+10:30

but personally still against it :)

- lagi lagi puitis-

2011-11-29T20:40:00.001+10:30

"Seandainya aku bisa memahami luasnya sanubarimu, dan menyelami kekedalaman jiwamu,
aku tidak akan berdiri disini dalam pilu...
mempertanyakan apakah engkau sungguh sungguh mencintaiku, apakah hatimu sungguh hanya untukku.."

mimpi tak berujung..

2011-11-29T20:32:00.001+10:30

Sejenak kutertegun diambang kenangan masa kecilku,
terbesit sesirat kenangan tentang seseorang yang membimbingku dalam sejarah imanku.
Dulu dia bermimpi, tentang seorang gadis remaja yang bisa menjadi Song Leader di gereja.
gadis itu tampak tegar,percikan semangatnya meneriakkan kemulianNya,
dan tak enggannya dia mengungkap, bahwa gadis itu adalah aku.
akulah yang berada di dalam mimpi...
kusimpan mimpi itu sebagai rhema di alam alam bawah sadarku

mimpi itupun bertumbuh bersamaku,
kecintaanku terhadap musik, membuatku tak enggan melangkah maju,
berbagai macam jalan kutempuh, demi menumbuhkan rasa cintaku pada mimpi itu.
bersenandung, bergumul, berdendang lagu..
sampai, itu semua bukan sekedar mimpi, hingga tahun lalu aku dipercayakan untuk menggemban tugas besar, menjadi salah satu pejuang di KKIA , memimpin Paduan Suara.

mimpi itu tidaklah pudar,
hanya ujungnya saja belum kelihatan.
dan aku disini... akan terus berlari,
hingga aku bisa melihat mimpi itu sungguh ada

mau dibawa masa depanku?

2011-11-25T15:16:00.001+10:30

Pertanyaan yang selalu ada di saat kita menghadapi persimpangan dengan banyak anak jalan,
yang sering kali membuat kita bingung jalan mana yang harus kita tempuh..

kurang dari sebulan lagi, aku akan graduation.
setelah berjerih payah selama kurang lebih 18 tahun. dari TK, SD, SMP , SMA, sampai kuliah ini dan mendapatkan gelar Bachelor of Art.
namun jujur, semua orang juga bisa dapat gelar ini asalkan mereka mau berusaha dan orang tua mensupport, yang terpenting adalah akan jadi apa kita setelah mendapat gelar ini?
persimpangan itu begitu membingungkan dan sering kali kita stuck dan nggak tau harus ambil jalan dimana.. sementara time goes by, and everyone has passing by us so many time...

dalam kesendirianku, aku berdiam, mempergumulkan apa yang harus aku lakukan 2 tahun ke depan.
aku nggak masalah dengan kerja model apapun di indo, mau di tempatkan di surabaya kek, di jakarta kek, atau bahkan di blitar, aku yakin aku bisa hidup dan bertahan, apalagi ada Tuhan yang selalu besertaku
namun yang lebih aku gumulkan saat ini, apa yang Tuhan ingin aku lakukan selanjutnya?
kapanpun dan dimanapun aku berada, aku yakin Tuhan akan selalu menyertai dan memberkati aku untuk jadi berkat bagi sesama, namun terkadang aku masih merasa butuh beberapa waktu senggang untuk memperdalam apa yang Tuhan mau aku lakukan dalam hidupku, sesuatu yang lebih besar dari cuman sekedar bekerja-mencari uang- dan menikah.
yang ada di otakku saat ini, banyak banget pilihan. Relationshipku dan Dion kadang2 membuat beberapa option baru itu muncul untuk bisa mempertahankan consistensi hubungan kami. namun jujur, aku belum memutuskan satupun... aku hanya merasa aku butuh break, at least selama 3 bulan, untuk kembali beradaptasi dengan kondisi Indonesia setelah 2 tahun aku tinggalkan. aku nggak bisa bayangin bagaimana aku harus adjust my self dengan kondisi yang semrawut dan hawa yang panas, since aku di aussie udah sangat teratur sekali dan dimanjakan oleh udara dingin Adelaide. aku harus bertemu dengan orang2 yang sudah banyak berubah pastinya, dan kondisi2 yang berbeda dengan 2 tahun yang lalu... 3 bulan itu menurutku, waktu untuk aku memahami kondisi dan situasi di indoesia, dan posisi apa yang ingin aku kerjakan disana.

Mama sudah nyusur aku apply2 dari sekarang, she was like asking me to start job once I done my degree, padahal aku butuh waktu untuk tahu apa yang mau aku ambil, di tempat mana aku harus memulai carier ku.
namun belakangan ini aku punya pemikiran berbeda. disaat 3 bulan break ku, aku pengen ikut retreat di Tumpang, semakin aku membayangkan itu, semakin aku tau bahwa ini mungkin yang aku mau. jadi nggak cuman break untuk melihat kondisi, tapi juga bergaul intim dengan Tuhan supaya bisa melihat dengan jelas kehendakNya dalam hidupku.
ini bukan suatu yang mudah sich, since banyak jadwal yang aku harus arrange selepas kepulanganku ke indo. belum lagi aku harus menintesivekan ketemuanku ma Dion mumpung dia lagi di indo, karena setelah itu kemungkinan besar dia akan balik aussie.
bare in mind, aku bukannya ngebet supaya relationship ini akan berhasil,atau pengen cepet2 nikah, namun ada sesuatu dalam diriku yang mengatakan bahwa ini saatnya untuk berkomitmen dengan serius relationship. bukan waktunya main main lagi, in other word, I want to maintain this relationship as well as reach my future that God has planned to me, syukur kalo relationship kami juga menjadi rencana Tuhan yang sempurna. :)

mungkin aku masih nggak jelas apa yang mau aku lakukan di dua tahun mendatang, namun yang aku tau aku sudah punya kemauan untuk mencari uang sendiri, masuk ke dunia kerja dan jadi ansos kayak temen temen yang lain karena hari hari mereka mostly di kerubutin oleh kesibukan. namun aku masih belum tau darimana harus memulai.. untuk kedepannya, aku tau bakal ada satu saat dimana aku benar2 mau membangun keluargaku sendiri, dan saat masa itu datang, I want to well prepared, sehingga nggak kelabakan dari nol lagi.

Tuhan ,sungguh, siapkan aku untuk masuk ke reality ini...

till the end ...

2011-11-23T23:57:00.001+10:30

2011-11-22T02:26:00.001+10:30

	"Sebab itu siapkanlah akal budimu, waspadalah dan letakkanlah pengharapanmu seluruhnya atas kasih karunia yang dianugerahkan kepadamu pada waktu penyataan Yesus Kristus.
	Hiduplah sebagai anak-anak yang taat dan jangan turuti hawa nafsu yang menguasai kamu pada waktu kebodohanmu
	tetapi hendaklah kamu menjadi kudus di dalam seluruh hidupmu sama seperti Dia yang kudus, yang telah memanggil kamu
	sebab ada tertulis: Kuduslah kamu, sebab Aku kudus" ( 1 pet 1:13-16)

Ayat diatas sempet mancep di hatiku hari ini.., jujur emang kalo perkara kekudusan, selalu menjadi hal yang sensitive, karena kekudusan itu artinya benar benar kudus sesuai dengan yang Yesus inginkan. untuk mencapai kekudusan kita harus memerangi kedagingan kita, siapa sich yang berani bilang bahwa mudah untuk memerangi kedagingan kita?
setiap oran punya kelemahan masing masing, ada orang yang nggak bisa berhenti minum, ada orang yang nggak bisa berhenti lihat porn, ada orang yang nggak bisa berhenti mencuri.. semua punya tantangan masih masing.. akupun punya kelemahanku sendiri..

terkadang aku ingin sekali berkompromi dan bernegosiasi dengan kekudusan yang aku pikirkan dengan kekudusan yang Tuhan inginkan, sering kali aku membenarkan diriku dan melewati batas batas itu.. padahal jelas jelas Tuhan bilang bahwa hawa napsu itu adalah suatu kebodohan dan kita tidak boleh hidup dalam kebodohan itu.

Ketika kamu mau dipakai Tuhan sepenuhnya, kamu juga tidak boleh membiarkan dosa sedikitpun mencemari dirimu, bukan berarti kita harus kudus tanpa dosa, tapi sadarilah dosa itu, akuilah, minta ampun dan kembalilah kepada Tuhan. seperti ibarat selang, kalo selang itu tersumbat, akan menyumbat air yang keluar, sama juga denga dosa yang akan menyumbat mengalirnya berkat yang Tuhan berikan kepada kita untuk dibagikan kepada orang lain.

Saat ini, aku menyadari, dan mau menjadi lebih baik..
aku sudah merasakan bagaimana sakitnya jatuh dalam dosa itu, dan bagaimana susahnya aku harus bangkit dan kembali...sungguh, aku nggak mau hidupku end up di lubang yang sama dan harus mengalami kejatuhan yang luar biasa. aku mau berubah and make difference. aku harus berjuang untuk kekudusan itu, sehingga Tuhan bisa terus memakai aku.. saya mau, apakah kalian mau?

last choir performance

2011-11-20T22:19:00.000+10:30

this will be the last choir performance with full team for this season.

thanks for the trust and chance for me to lead this team, with all my gratitude, and proud of this group.
next season will lead by Mbak wika, and hopefully many new comers will join us.

job in Christmas

2011-11-20T22:08:00.001+10:30

Hey yo!
Christmas is coming to town... la la la la..
this is the moment that I've been waiting for.. many job vacancies has been offer for this season.
according to my plan, I will back to the my old job which is Santa Helper in Myer, so happy coz I earned a lot of money last year, and I'm so excited about his job, to back again with the team.. I have done all the procedures and sent all the documents which they needed. I'm so optimistic to back in Santa Photo Factory and can't wait to see all the children faces happily waiting for the Christmast..
Anyway, I have my current job as a Food beverages attendance in Adelaide Convention Centre, and it will be busy on November-December, many upcoming event for Christmas...
and somehow, I worried that both of it will clash, troubles me somehow...

But, the truth tells different
the Santa season suppose to start last week, and they didn't inform me anything about the badges and t shirt that I should wear during working time, they didn't call me and they didn't send any document back to me. but they did say that I got this job, and send me an offer letter, that's it.
I'm so worried, so I decided to call the Manager, and he says he will call me back.. but he didn't actually find me. I call him again.. and he sais he will call me back when there is someone couldn't make the shift.
I need to get those shirt and badges before I start work, so I call the office central and ask them to send me the stuff, but they said they couldn't send me the t shirt and badges I have no shift this season..
.. means I'm not working with them this season..
I was really speachless, I told them that I have accepted, and the manager will call me when the sift is available for me, but the office central said, "no he won't"
goshhh, why they didn;t straight away said that I'm not working, but hang me over there...
they added, that I can find any other job offer... GOOD! I have imagine how many experiences I will get and how many that I can save from this job...but the fact tells different

Right now, I'm just trying to think positive..
maybe God wants me to spent more time with my family, after two years we haven't meet each other..
maybe He wants me to be a lil relax, because in two months I will leave Australia for good, maybe He wants me to have my sweet time, out from trouble clashes roaster and stress.. maybe He just want me to appreciate this time.

Anyway, My Boyfriend get the same job in Santa Land this year... yeay!
maybe I will enjoying the job through him,
honestly, I really happy that he could get the job, so he has no reason to going back Indonesia early, or else he will leave me alone in Aus
I love because he can earn more money, he can learn to interact with kids, and communicate with them, so that he will not get in trouble when he get his own :)

2011-11-15T23:26:00.001+10:30

" God gave us two hands : one to help our self, the other one to help others"

- Godwantsyoutoknow

new look

2011-11-13T23:53:00.001+10:30

inget nggak aku bilang kalo aku lagi labil??

makannya aku ganti tampilan BLOG ku jadi lebih soft... dengan no music and simple type face :)

suka yg mana hayooo??

Perth Update - req by Ivana

2011-11-13T21:48:00.001+10:30

Aloha semunya!
been sometimes I haven't got time to update the blog, alasannya adalah, saya lagi jadi ABABIL! LOL!
banyak pergumulan, banyak yang harus dipikirkan, banyak yang harus dikerjakan, meskipun kerjaan nggak sibuk sibuk banget tapi keknya overload bwanget et et! ditambah semakin ada rasa attachment sama lelaki saya yang berada di ujung satunya dari Australia! arrrrghhhh....,
belum sempet update Perth in detail, terus ada yang udah menagih... jadi sekarang baru ada waktu update.. so, check this out! =)

Day 1

sedikit kagok setelah 4 bln ga ketemu, we need 3 hours to meet after I arrived (karena Dion lg seminar)

tapi my gondrong boyfriend langsung potong rambut, jadi koko korewa ganteng!, lalu malamnya kita ke Danau belakang rumah Aman.

my boyfie still gondrong, anyway this after he gave me flower LOL

see how handsome he is!! jacket credit to me!

our date at the Lake ...romantic but Dion not romantic at all

Day 2

nonton Three musketeer dan pemuda di Gpdi- aku di kenalin sama temen2 gereja

the $8,5 tickets...

Day 3

Kita ziarah ke Bidoon, ketemu anak2 ICYO Perth yang gilaaa banget, pertama kali ketemu ma Kak Adi yang super ramah dan termasuk 7 keajaiban dunia, Eveline yang ca'em bersama sang kekasih, plus teman teman yang lain yang bikin berdebar hati.. malamnya kami kencan di Hogs Breath and It was awkward coz suddenlt Dion said " ini kencan pertama kita lho" oopppss... and Mill point at night.

Bidoon's church

River 1 hour from there

New friendss...with ICYO Perth!

Our First Date!

we catually having 30% discount of the birthday.. thank you ce Asri :)

Mill Point.. how come a guy didn't kiss a girl in this romantic view...LOL

Day 4

Gpdi service, Freo barengan ma Jojo+Ming2 and Aman (makasih ya udah ditemeninnn) accidently ketemu Julius Ko,sunset di City Beach.. sempet berantem ma Dion gara2 dia dapet tlpn dari mantannya di Freo! (woops!!) that made us had fight and happy ending :)

accidently meet julius Ko

BEST RAMEN ever!! in Freo

Europe?

<3 you - first time took a picture so romantic

with Aman - my sinyo and our photographer for the day

King's Park..when the kiss happened ..Awwwwww~

Day 5

Tadi malem nginep rumah Aman, hari ini maen di city seharian, Art Gallery pacaran donk, malemnya makan di little caesar sama sinyo Yonatha Tedjamulia, ditemani si cantik Eveline, habis itu nengok Choir ICYO pas latian sebentar :)

at the bus

Taka/// everyone's fav LOL -Hi Joko, Hendry!

Our Utopia

Meet up with Eveline n Sinyo Yonathan in little caesar, best pizza!

ICYO

Day 6

kencan di botanical garden, have a great qialuty time sama Dion, cerita2 di bench botanic garden, udah capek, gab siang kami pulang nyantai, potong kuku bareng.. ngecat rambut Dion, ketemu tiffany SFC di utop pusat, terus malamnya triple date sama Jojo+Ming2, Yobi+Fen2, nonton in time (sebelumnya kami nonton Pranormal activity 3 yang gak jelas banget jalan ceritanya)

Happy couple

spent time together....

Quality time- gunting kuku and semir rambut

<3 it -utopia

met Tiffani SFC

triple date -in time

with our own couple

Day7

kita pergi ke city buat nyariin Ce Asri Kado, nagih janji Yobi makan Chillz (yang ke dua kalinya selama di perth) barengan ma Fen2 and Yoseph, malemnya kita KTR gabungan terakhir for this season! lumayan hari ini panas banget, dan kita mulai match our clothes :) , btw yobi berkali kali bilang Dion sei kia, dan gak percaya kalo Dion bs punya pacar. LOL

match shirt in a hot day

chilliz

thx for accompany us

Dion grab my hand at the german bla bla bla

aman KTR WL this week

crazy posee

Day 8

Sudah siap meninggalkan Perth, all my bags are packed I'm ready to go, sudah tangis2an... ditemenin Ming2 and Jo2 kita makan Thailand ter enak di Perth, dan akhirnya rushing ke Airport.. bener2 seru waktu itu karena pesawat ku jam 350 dan kami dari city 310, harusnya 20 menit nyampe, dan karena Jam di tikungan graham, 20 menit!! dari situ aku bisa lihat kekompakan ank2 GPDI, mereka kan pada nganterin aku kan, lalu si yobi bilang Dion suruh turun dulu lari nemni aku, lalu dia take over dion's car. unfortunately kami telat!!!! what silly things happened, just closed! sampe cameraku pun ketinggalan di scanning..fiuh~ it's ok.. God has plan... kita pulang rumah lagi, 3 hari extra untukku sama Dion :) , malem kami pergi SFC CLP pertama kali... see, God has plan ...

great thai food- make us late! LOL

happy couple <3

SFC's Perth

Day 9

Kami pergi harbour town, mau belanja dan beli couple T-shirt, Dion wanti wanti nggak bisa pake baju warna merah, ee pas coba cocok juga! akhirnya kami kembaran baju merah itu, itu t shirt co lho.. harusnya kami bisa pake size sama, tp akhirnya Dion pake S and aku pake XS. malemnya bisa ikutan heaven's kitchen, event di GPDI yang merangkum acara pemuda mereka season ini... DION JUARA SATU LHOOO :)

Couple Shirt

My guy cooking and he is no 1!!!

Day 10

Ikut acara gerejanya Dion lagi, kami Canoeing.. seru juga lho, aku se cano sama Dion dan ko keyvin yang emang udah pro...kami saling hantam lah pokoknya seru... terus yang kasihan itu perahusinya si Kiki, Yoseph ama Yobi, mereka kan pake kaca mata semua dan ndayungnya masih cupu...jadi sasaran terus sama anak2..hahah..si Dion staminanya ok lho..saluteeeee!!, lalu malemnya makan malam keluarga, lumayan bisa memecahkan keheningan, nice peron just need more time to spent together :), dan malam terakhir bersama Dion.. kami habiskan di King's Park, dan malam itu bener2 menentukan hubungan kami, mau jalan atau berakhir.. the truth is revealed . but we choose to commit to each other.=)

canoeing with him

Family Dinner

Day 11

Benar Benar Pulang, Benar Benar meninggalkan Perth, Benar Benar akan merindukan Dion, benar benar buat heboh di gereja dengan new couple shirt warna kuning! benar benar buat onar di Airport karena kami berulah kayak pasangan non Asian yang labil,, but I love it.. means that we really have that conncetion :)

nice yellow couple T

akan selalu merindukan bed ini.... :)

my day now

2011-11-08T16:38:00.002+10:30

the truth is always painfull..
pain is irresistible , suffering is an option
listen to my calling, another mission has been started.
another waiting time... 2 years.

PERTH!!!

2011-10-26T23:56:00.002+10:30

I'M GOING TO PERTH TOMORROW... I'M GOING TO PERTH TOMORROW.... I"M GOING TO PERTH TOMORROWWWWWWW....

Asek asek... ayukk pacarannn :)

4 days- not good at all

2011-10-23T23:25:00.000+10:30

one of the worst day in my life
Indeed, I'm wearing a flowery dress and colourful shoes today, but my day not as bright as my appearance

I had fight with one of my friend, really WTF... I'm not going to care about her anymore, atleast i need to slow down.. and not too much involve with others problem, they are a grown up people has their own brain to think, unless their dumb enough to do that.
My macaroon is failed! total failure... I'm not going to waste my time to repeat that anymore, enough is enough
My hair colour is not really good.. there is still gab between two colour and can't get my hair done.
and the last is, that totally ruin my mood, make me down and drawn me to the deepest misery.
My earphone doesn't work, really get annoying esspecially when i need to skype with dion, i hate that

thanks devil. you win today

5 days

2011-10-23T00:59:00.000+10:30

So many things happening today...
you finish your IELTS, you feel relief
I talk to riri about everything, feel relief and worried
having such a great night in DECLARE...
and knowing that Dion has accepatnce in SAnta Helper Myer! wooohoooo!!
I can't wait to see you sayang...seems everything going right for us :)

6 days

2011-10-21T22:26:00.004+10:30

So Ladies and Gentleman... 6 days to go untill I'm going to meet My Mr.Sweetest Smile... normally when I want to see him, I have a 'baking syndrome', means that every time I want to see him, I always want to bake something, first I baked cookies, second times I baked cup cakes, third times I bake orange's cake, and currently this gentleman asking me to bake MACARON with him. I have totally no idea how to make it! I have few expirience of baking and few of them were success, and now he asked me for baking a bloody hard macaroonssss. it's a difficult dessert to make, hard to keep, and so on so on so on.

actually it's not that hard.

Anyway, I have gather my resources and bought the ingredients, I asked one of the cooking expert "Hillaria Juliana" to accompany me during the process, and the good news is, she haven't done any macaroons bake *JDUENGGGG*, However, we are not giving up... in the name of LOVE.. let's cross the ocean, climb the mountain, but be careful so it's not such a waste of time and money :)

so I will share with you guys what I've got from my research that I think work for me:

the Poh's kitchen recipe

10 essential tips of making macaroons

and the making of Macaroons

I hope the result as good as my friend's picture

share coke

2011-10-20T00:52:00.002+10:30

tau kan kalo CocaCola sekarang punya packaging baru di kemasan mereka?

dibelakangnya ada tulisan share with...

ini bukan customise..tp untung2an

harus nyari apakah nama kita ada diapasaran (alias pasaran)

nah kebetulan, temanku BernadetteNixie TM menemukan nama Nicole yang cononnya...

PASARAN BANGET

jadi...jadilah ini..

"share a coke with Nicole...."

Thank you Nixiee...mumuacchhh

kind acool

2011-10-20T00:26:00.000+10:30

in 5 years time

2011-10-17T21:28:00.001+10:30

When we were in high school, there are so many talk about what you want to do in your life, they think that after high school moreover is the important stage where most of the people will choose their own specialities.
and there is another cross roads,is when we are graduating from our universities. And that is the real cross roads for most of us, when the world really begin.
Normally, they tend to ask you about what do you want in your life, or most often, what you are going to be in 5 years..
So, I'm going to answer that question right now, so I can make my mind right.

In 5 years time..
I want to have my own carrier, as in stable carrier, except of the family business, I will have another private company or I will employee by one stabilize company in Indonesia, where by allow me to improve my skill and knowledge in my field.
I will leave in one area in Indonesia, with my own house or room, with my own vehicle, with a stable location.
I have done my certificate of Mandarin.
I have visit Korea, China, Hong Kong, and Europe for business or travelling.
My weight has been reduce as maximum as 60kg (or less), with no pimples and long hair :)
I'm married with a man who I am fell in love with, with a fantastic pre wedding and honeymoon, but simple wedding ceremony, and he has stable job, stable carrier, ready to love me in the rest of his life, in a good or bad, in every condition of me, So do I will love him with my whole hearth, ready to make love and no baby first pleasee,because I'm not going to have before 28, leaving together forever happiness :)

2 weeks

2011-10-14T02:00:00.002+10:30

2 weeks till we can decide to go with this or stop...

1st oct- new hair cut!

2011-10-01T00:02:00.000+09:30

finally I decided to have a short-medium straight hair.
since my curl really messy.. so I want to get it right.
I have decided to cut my hair with house mate because she is quite good hair dresser,
so.. you judge it!

WORKAHOLIC

2011-09-30T00:20:00.000+09:30

Hellow people...
nadia sekarang jadi staff di ACC!! The first Convention Centre in Adelaide
walau cuman jadi F&B tapi gajinya lumayan lho.. $25/hour! and biasa aku seminggu dapet shift minimal 10 jam..
I like the job pretty much, because they are so professional and responsibility to all the customer and staff,
the most exciting things is we have different rules in every event, and we need to figure out in a second,
all friendly buddy surround, ready to help and support every time,
the food is nice, not only because it is free, but also healthy :)
eventhough my time to works seems humiliating, which is sometimes start at 6am till 10 am, or start 530pm till 2 am, but the money money money is goooood!!! :)

I just get my first salary for the training, and it is ALOT!
I really want to show off and spent my money, but I can't
the problem in all the money gone to pay my rent and phone bill, jdueanggggggg, and only left some for food :(
okay maybe the salary is not for this month, maybe next month :)
anyway, I'm happy, even after I got this job, I was called for two interview from 2 different company, which offer me great expirience and salary, but too bad, I have another job waiting in december.
however I really thanks Lord for this Life, I'm happy... and I have a great boyfriend (so far)
LOL

ada benernya nggak sich?

2011-09-23T12:12:00.002+09:30

working place

2011-09-22T02:10:00.003+09:30

Hey, I just accepted as a F&B staff in Adelaide Convention Centre, somehow I really hope the accepted me earlier because the work place soo good!! It took 3 months for them to call me, I think more than that because I have apply on May, wondering if they can called me on July but they didn't, and then I re apply it on July, and i didn't know which form are actually they picked.

They call me last week for the group interview, it's pretty competitive, 20 of us, and 14 were choose to go next stage, and I am one of them *cuiutitt, quite proud of my self coz I don't have much experience in hospitality, I just try to present my self as good as possible, and then here I am doing training.

I need to say they really professionally company, and they trains the worker professional way as well, even though we are just casual worker who can step out whenever we want. from the beginning of the training, they gave us access card, locker key, they showed us around, they explain about everything, our job coped, our environment, the staff, even they have a huge canteen and free food inside there! awesomee... I think they can fit around 100 people at once? we can make our own dinner, there are some free vegi,ham,lamb, egg, cheese for sandwiches, or coffee, tea, bread, milk, all for free. *yippy.
what makes me amaze is they do give us a uniform, special for us, so we need to have a fitting, and they will look after it, they will changes for us if we don't look good, they measure till we found our sizes, they give us name tag *wow*and all the details that we need to know, everything is FRESH EVERYDAY.
they really put effort for taking care of us, look after their employee, and make sure they serve the best for the customer. because they come and paid so much for the best service, so make sure it didn't dissapoint them.
the coolest thing is the work log, is a finger scan! it's not finger prints but finger scan! so every each of us has unique finger, and from it they can identify us. every time we check in and check out we need to put our finger in the scanner, what and high technology! no wonder they are leading the convention centre in Adelaide for the last 24 years :).
They trained us professionally, not only theory but also practically, like live training, seems like we are on the floor buy actually just practising. many things that i didn't understand since I'm not from hospitality field, but they said we can learn by the time.

I have no problem with the people, maybe not yet. but so far, we are in the good mood and I do really have a great group, they all polite and friendly. I realise that we will have a different roaster each, according to our availability, but hopefully those staff can maintain this behaviour, be nice aye! when the first interview, I have 1 person who really connect to me, she is a Malaysian called her Audry, and I started to make friends with local who don't mid, like Teresa, Melissa, and Natalie. they all cool. and I like to work with them so far.

The payment is soo good, maybe that would be my issues is the shift, they do really morning shift and late shift, I'm not sure how I going to go there, what transportation should I used, really have no idea. hopefully there is someone who kind enough to fetch me home :)

Anyway, I really great time, hopefully i can save some money in the future from this job. and I really thanks to God for giving me this great oppotunity, this might not a forever job, but certainly I can gain more expiriences from this job, hopefully.

Thank's God :)

6 kilo dalam waktu 13 hari,

2011-09-19T12:29:00.004+09:30

13 HARI DIET MENU MAYO: Dapat Menurunkan 6 Kilo

Hari ke – 1
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal)
Sore : 2 telur rebus matang + 1 ikat (porsi) bayam + 1 buah tomat
Malam : 100 gr bistik goring + selada yang diberi jeruk nipis

Hari ke – 2
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal)
Sore : 60 gr bistik goring + selada + 1 pc buah segar (jeruk, belimbing, papaya)
Malam : 120 gr ayam kukus + 1 gelas susu non fat tanpa gula

Hari ke – 3
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal) + 1 pc roti tawar
Sore : 2 telur rebus matang + 1 ikat bayam/kangkung + 1 buah tomat + 1 pc buah segar
Malam : 100 gr bistik goring _ selada yang diberi jeruk nipis

Hari ke – 4
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal) + 1 pc roti tawar
Siang : 1 telur rebus matang + wortel (rebus sebentar) + 1 pc keju segitiga
Malam : 1 mangkok penuh papaya ditaburi jeruk nipis + 1 gelas susu non fat

Hari ke – 5
Pagi : 1 wortel besar mentah diparut kasar ditaburi jeruk nipis
Siang : 120 gr ayam kukus dengan sedikit saos mentega yang tidak asin
Malam : 60 gr bistik goreng + selada + bayam rebus

Hari ke – 6
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh tanpa gula + 1 pc roti tawar bakar
Siang : 120 gr ayam kukus + selada yang diberi jeruk nipis
Malam : 2 telur rebus + 2 wortel besar mentah + jeruk nipis

Hari ke – 7
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh tanpa gula
Siang : 60 gr bistik goring + 1 bh segar
Malam : Dilarang Makan

Hari ke – 8
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal)
Sore : 2 telur rebus matang + 1 ikat (porsi) bayam + 1 buah tomat
Malam : 100 gr bistik goring + selada yang diberi jeruk nipis

Hari ke – 9
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal)
Sore : 60 gr bistik goring + selada + 1 pc buah segar (jeruk, belimbing, papaya)
Malam : 120 gr ayam kukus + 1 gelas susu non fat tanpa gula

Hari ke – 10
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal) + 1 pc roti tawar
Sore : 2 telur rebus matang + 1 ikat bayam/kangkung + 1 buah tomat + 1 pc
buah segar
Malam : 100 gr bistik goring _ selada yang diberi jeruk nipis

Hari ke – 11
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh + 1 sendok teh gula pasir (equal) + 1 pc roti tawar
Siang : 1 telur rebus matang + wortel (rebus sebentar) + 1 pc keju segitiga
Malam : 1 mangkok penuh papaya ditaburi jeruk nipis + 1 gelas susu non fat

Hari ke – 12
Pagi : 1 wortel besar mentah diparut kasar ditaburi jeruk nipis
Siang : 120 gr ayam kukus dengan sedikit saos mentega yang tidak asin
Malam : 60 gr bistik goreng + selada + bayam rebus

Hari ke – 13
Pagi : 1 cangkir kopi/teh tanpa gula + 1 pc roti tawar bakar
Siang : 120 gr ayam kukus + selada yang diberi jeruk nipis
Malam : 2 telur rebus + 2wortel besar mentah + jeruk nipis

Catatan :
Pantangan : Garam (asin)
Syarat : 1 hari minimum 8 gelas besar atau 2 liter putih (jangan air es)

Diet ini hanya akan menghilangkan lemak, jangan takut ada efek sampingan.

can I do that?????

guy's cooking :)

2011-09-15T22:58:00.002+09:30

Recently, my boyfriend like to have variation of food for his 'bento',
he cooked sometimes for his lunch, and he started to save money by then.
kind of proud of him thou, imagine how sexy guys at the kitchen *_*
anyway, wong fu has their own version...
I imagine my guy cooked more expert than them. LOL

I loved Phil's version,
esspecially when he kissed the egg
LOL

nyeletuk

2011-09-14T09:11:00.002+09:30

Dion : "Sayang, kamu ntar pas ke perth panas lho" *dengan nada sok perhatian tau kalo aku benci panas
Nad: "loh ya nggak mau tau, you need to handle me"
Dion : *dengan nada tak berdosa menjawab " Siram air dingin ae"
Nad : *NGAKAK KENCENG ABIES, NGGAK TAU MAU JAWAB APA*

Ini adalah salah satu keahlian Sayangku, nyeletuk! dan nyeletuknya itu nggak tanggung2, kadang2 lucu banget kadang2 nyakitin hati, tapi kali ini bener2 tega banget nich anak! hahaha

what do you think about LDR?

2011-09-13T20:20:00.001+09:30

this question was threw up to my best friend by her boyfriend, after a couple of months they have LDR.
It's been 7 months in exact they doing a Long Distance Relationship between Kuala Lumpur and Melbourne. after around 3 years they have been together. many sacrifice has been made, heaps of sweet memories staking together along with their journey, and indeed, It's not easy to let go one to another.
even to get far from each other, it seems impossible.

7 months, it's long enough to feel the loneliness and emptiness in their heart. they used to have each other in every problems, a warm hugs whenever the cold comes, and kisses whenever the desire of love passes by, and make the world just for them.
now, they need to replace it with the text, with the voice from the other side, from the moving picture in skype or just in frame. there are nobody to give a real action of love, as a couple surround them.
My best friend seems really confident that they can go through this. she has everything she can to make this relationship work for them. she looking forward to their future, having a career in Malaysia to get a PR over there with taking over a hard job, and always look after her boyfriend in overseas, while the guy trying to save money for the phone credit to call his girlfriend.
and in that 7 months of battle, the guys came to my best friend, and asked her about LDR.

He said, he found someone over there...

what kind of feeling that you expected from the girl who fighting for her relationship future, having a whole trust for this relationship going well and listen to such an idiot statement.
but this the reality, shitty things happen...
I'm not going to say about the ending, because it's not yet end.

Anyway, Uncle Bob, one of my Australian Uncle always told me, TRUST is the important base on the relationship, LOVE is not enough. and when there is a betrayal between TRUST and LOVE, that is when the massive pain will hit a person, till the bottom of their heart, and the sad news is, it's normal and always happen. what makes you abnormal if you can't go through it.
especially in Long Distance Relationship, when our love ones is not around, it's actually we have pretty much our own time, without share whole day with our partner, we have more option to select then if our partner is around, for example the dress, food, etc. and we have the right to choose whoever we want to close with and how it is going to be; danger your relationship, or just safety. We have a responsibility to take care of our heart not to be enter by anybody accept our love ones, we choose to be in relationship even our partner is not actually around, we take care of our selves as well as keep in mind that someone loves us out there. we need to put our TRUST more, and don't mislead that trust.

Whenever I see those who survive in LDR, I really proud of them, even though they have the right to choose, and they are away from each other, they always keep in mind that they are the best for each other, and when they can survive, they will have a strong relationship in the future.

I used to have an LDR, and it's survive for 2,5 years and for me it's more safety to have a LDR compare to normal relationship, that is why I'm a gree to have another LDR.
I put trust on my partner as well as he does. and what we believe is we will always have each other whenever we are, we need to take care of our heart because it has been taken, and not trying to cheat on each other. most of the time, when we feel lonely, we asked God to taking care of the other, and deliver our Love. I didn't say that we wouldn't end up cheating or take benefit from each other, but when we do that, we TRUST that God will have His own way to solve this problem, what we need to do is forgiving an sacrifice and see the progress of this relationship.

However, don't ever scared of having relationship, whether you need to have LDR or not, if you are SURE it is from God, just walk with faith, and God will make away.

chit chat

2011-09-13T01:02:00.000+09:30

telephone berdering

Nadia: "halo siapa ya ini??"
Dion : "pacarnya Nadia.."

*jduenggg,, serrr...
I think I need to use of this word,
hahahah

mentally tired

2011-09-11T21:28:00.000+09:30

Hidup di Aussie yang aku bayangkan dulu adalah hidup dimana aku bisa memiliki life style lebih sehat, sedikit mahal dan elite
logikanya kalo orang yang bisa sekolah si aussie itu economically kecukupan banget donk, so basically temen2ku bisa dari golongan atas yang pinter buang buang duit, ato asli mau maju, ato anak2 beasiswa yang terselaksi otaknya dari beratus2 murid yang lain
at least all is high quality

but the reality that i have face right now is different
I;m surroundung by people who fighting for their live in australia, banting tulang, hidup sangat minim, dan berusaha untuk bertahan hidup di aussie..
sampe2 harus makan seadanya, untung rugi yang penting kerja...
ditimpa sial, namun nggak menyerah, uang tabungan habis namun nggak mengeluh..
dan tetap bertahan dengan hidup yang super minim di negara australia ini...

God must have plan to put me in this extraordinary condition.
to see the reality

2 years single

2011-09-07T00:04:00.000+09:30

nggak kerasa, udah 2 tahun aku single.
single bukan berarti sesuatu yang miserable kok, single juga bukan berarti sendiri untuk menjalani hidup
justru dalam hari hari single ku ini, aku punya banyak waktu untuk memilih, introspeksi, dan memahami apa yang paling aku dibutuhkan
2 tahun yang lalu, relationship 2,6 tahunku gagal.
tanpa ada rasa ingin mengungkit kisah sedih masa lalu. my past relationship emang nggak membuat rasa nyaman di hatiku, nggak ada bangga, nggak bakal lama, dan tujuannya emang cuman buat pengalaman,
tapi sakitnya mengukir hari hari bersejarah dihidupku.my deepest misery, till I can't get up from the nightmare.
sakitnya udah nggak kerasa, namun traumanya masih ada.
Rasa takut untuk mencintai, rasa takut untuk disakiti, rasa takut dihianati dan rasa takut untuk melangkah for another relationship.
Namun, Tuhan membuat semua itu nggak mustahil.. Aku persilahkan Tuhan untuk campur tangan dalam setiap prosesku, aku mempersilahkan Tuhan untuk memberikan calonNya untukku, aku mempersilahkan Tuhan untuk mengisi hatiku dengan CintaNya, menyembuhkan aku dengan KasihNya, dan mempersiapkan aku untuk prosesNya
sampai di memberikan aku seseorang yang pantas menemaniku.meskipun rasa trauma itu masih ada sampai sekarang, namun aku yakin everything will be alright in Him.

Semua bahagia... kayaknya yang di masa lalu juga udah bahagia sama partner nya yg sekrang,
yang currently mereka udah 2 years anniversary.
dan aku? sedang merangkai satu bahtera baru dan menunggu Tuhan mau dibawa kemana :)

Adelaide royal show

2011-09-05T20:00:00.001+09:30

curhat

2011-09-02T01:37:00.002+09:30

Setelah sekian lama, hari ini aku sempet chatting sama sahabatku si Kang2
meski kami jauh, but me personally she still has the her wonderful personality, and she still the same, dia sahabatku :)
Dia sedang curhat tentang 2 tahun relationshipnya yang bingung mau dibawa kemana, lantaran dia dan pacarnya akan pisah setelah lulus, Kang2 diminta mamanya buat pulang padanga,jaga toko, sementara cowoknya mau cari kerja di Malaysia..lahhh!
belakngan ini mereka berdua sibuk internship, loncat dari kota ke kota, kerja pagi sampe malam, dan karena kesibukan mereka ini jadi ada kerenggangan. si cowok terkesan sangat berkonsentrasi dengan pekerjaannya dan lupa untuk berpikir tentang masa depan mereka
Sebagai seorang cewek, pasti mikir donk gimana tentang kelanjutan hubungan mereka, meskipun yang cowok bilang no plan, but namanya cewek tetep harus dikasih pengertian. jangan kira kami diam tandanya kami setuju, sebenarnya ada berjta juta pertanyaan dalam benak cewek ketika mereka diam!
si kang bilang kalo diya juga nggak mau nunggu dalam ketidakpastian, nanti jadi perawan tua, LOL, dan yang pasti dia emang merasa kerenggangan antara mereka itu nyata, karena mereka udah jarang banget kontakan, jarang banget komunikasi, sampe ga bisa merasakan kehadiran masing2 dalam hidup mereka, sudah nggak saling memengaruhi dan menoreh kisah indah bersama...
2 tahun itu masa2 kritis, cinta juga bisa pudar,,,jangan kata tidak
dan kang2 juga mengakui kalo setelah jarak yang terjadi saat internship, diya jadi lelah..karena jarak yang mereka tempuh sehabis ini jauh lebih besar daripada pas internship..antara 2 negara.
jadi dia berencana untuk ngobrolin ini sama cowoknya untuk mencari solusi bersama sama

yah aku doain kang2 dari sini dah, semoga yang terbaik yang terjadi untuk kamu. lebih baik pisah sekarang walaupun sakit daripada harus spent time with the wrong person in the whole life :)

anyway, sebenarnya itu juga yang sedang aku pikirkan.... :(

my best friend in australia

2011-08-29T10:26:00.000+09:30

serving the elderly

2011-08-28T15:10:00.005+09:30

Mudika Adelaide seems a little unproductive these days, actually we have regular meeting for the choir, but not all mudikans are joining choir. so we thought of having an activity such as serving a nursing home and do a voluntarily work for them. the plan wasn't going really well because we need to go through police check which cost us money , another things is join another organisation in order to serve them. so we kind of forget about it, and looking for another opportunity to serve. we always pray to God for only His will happen to us.

and yesterday, after the long process of longing to serve, God answer our prayer through Ibu asanah. She asked me whether we want to sing in uniting church because they will have a presentation about their work in Indonesia, some of them just came back from mission in Indonesia to serve an orphanage which accommodates many children and babies as well as helping mother to give birth. they help them to built a wall from the stone that is very big,It such a wonderfull work what they have done, for me it's a pleasure to appreciate them for their humilliation, even only with singing, even though they are Christian.

we went there and we saw all the people who attended this talk was an elderly, above 65, and I was stunning right there, realise this is it, the answer of our prayer, let it be done in His name.
we singing for them, we serve them afternoon tea, talk to them, clean the table and dish, exactly what we have been planning, this is the miracle from God.

there is one point that I need to highlight, when one of the disciples ask which church we came from and I said " we are from catholic church in the city"
"oh well, do you believe in God?"
"yes I am"
"so we are the same." told the guy. and it was really struck me because it wass the same thing that Dion always told me, there is nothing difference between us, we believe in Jesus and we shared the same value, what is the matters?
I feel the peace in this church, I can feel how people serve God with unconditional love, and humble heart. that brings back my memory when I serve Tiberias church when I was 14, I gained many knowledge about God and experienced many survival at that time, I really need to credited them for what I became. Love can be spread in many ways, and with everybody

Maybe Catholic is the most authentic church from the beginning of Jesus, this is true, but don't let this be a pride that will cast us like what happen before, what we need to do is understanding more and spread the love of God available to everyone. we convinced our faith is the right one, but it doesn't mean everyone need to follow, wherever they can feel the peace and love of God alive, they always can make a changes from that point.Let God touch their heart and put wherever they want to make a changes.

Anyway, after the talk finished, the disciples told me they are happy to welcome us anytime we want to sing for them again, we were so happy can help others with our voice, and hope it's going to be one of the Choir agenda in the future.

Me and my relationship.

2011-08-28T14:21:00.006+09:30

everytime he said "sayang" to me, my hearth stop beating for awhile.

I can't believe that he is real, I'm not alone walking in the road.

and now, he brave enough to put it in facebook..

I have no idea when we start this relationship, whether it's just happen recently or it's begin when he confessed to me,Even now, I'm not sure whether I'm ready for it.

what I know is, I walk with my faith, and let God do the rest.

I let God to heal all the pain from the past relationship, I let God to guide me to His path, I let God to throw the feeling of guilty inside my heart, worried about relationship, and make me ready for the new one, the person who He prepared for me...

from the beginning, I was unsure whether he is from Him, or just my feeling dragged from my loneliness and wanted someone to loved. but what my parents always tell me, someone who came from God will always bring you close to Him,and that is how I identify whether Dion is from Him or not.. because when the time goes by, I just feel this is the right way that I am going through, and he is exactly what my parents said, bring me close to Him. I feel complete.

and day by day, we become closer and it's just happened.

for everyone out there who have question "why she didn't tell me?" or "what a friend never update me" I'm so sorry because I don't even have the answer for that question, certainly now I'm not alone, In relationship with someone, and I just want to walk slowly but sure, don't wait something come up in facebook, because it might take an ages to show up. :)

Honestly this is what I am waiting for, and from 2 years that I promised God to commit in His presence, now he wants me end it early ,maybe because I have pass the tests and be ready for next step. Relationship is another trial for me, is not easy, it require me more energy and heart breaking,excatly will hurts more. both of us is not ready for this but God make us ready - Quote from Dion.

There were nothing called physical appearance attraction, browsing for a great partner, or criticize whether we suits to each other. we just let everything flow, and more to accept each other the way we are. sometimes, I feels not good enough for him because of my physical appearance, my fat tummy and pimples that always make me uncomfortable, but he always remain me what I am afraid of it's not important for him, what important is my heart. that is what I do to him, I love him the way he is, no bodies perfect what we can do is built each other to maximize what we have for the good.

While I'm still questioning my self how this relationship going to be since I couldn't see our path merge together, I pray everything that happen in this relationship is only His will. I believe we can learn many things together, grow in love, and learn to forgive and sacrifice. be dare to commit to each other and walk with faith , God will make the way for us.

Always put God in the first priority, and between your relationship..

and don't lose your faith in Him.

birthday present for sang kekasih

2011-08-27T23:18:00.003+09:30

And I have sent one package from heaven which apparently didn't come on time, even though I have sent it on Monday :(

Happy birthday sayang,

Hope you can feel all the love for you today :)

percakapan dengan kekasih

2011-08-26T20:18:00.002+09:30

percakapan random dengan sang kekasih pagi ini

kekasih : (dengan nada tinggi karena br diomeli cecenya) makane muales lak anak wedok paling gede, mesti ngebossy

nadia: lha, aku pengen punya anak pertama cewek.

kekasih : ojokk, nanti lak punya anak pertama cewek sakno cowoke, ntar ditekan!

nadia: tp ntar lak punya anak cowok paling gede, karepe dewe

kekasih: lho jarno ae, ben dee berkembang timbang ntar diteken ambek cecene

nadia: kalo cewek paling gede itu manut, isa ngopeni adike to..

kekasih: pokoke aku pengen anak pertama cowok (dengan nada keyakinan yang tinggi)

nadia: yahh, yo wes kamu ae seng manak, aku moh.. wkwkwkwkw

wwkwkwkwkwk....nggak tau kenapa kok tiba2 ngomongin gitu,

jauh banget rasanya XD

remarkable date

2011-08-25T19:26:00.003+09:30

when everything is tremendously changes...

when the love of God is truly happening for everyone who faithful in Him..

Before,

I was struggling to survive in Australia with $300 in bank, looking for a job to support and survive, still dedicate my life to spread a God's love to others, even though i experience shortage, but I don't want to think about it, because I have faith God will make everything fine.

Dion fighting with his life, decision with in staying in Australia for PR or going back to Indonesia, with no job in hand, trying to look at every chance to make his day effective, some problem about the incident which makes him worried,but he has faith that God has plan in him for his presence in Australia

Joko finish his uni-life, start his job in Indonesia,which totally different with his previouse life in Adelaide or Canada.

Today,

Mom has sent me money, really enough to survive till the end of my study visa. I can plan my trip to wherever I want, I won't worry about any shortage, but I still need to find a job, life continues in Adelaide

Dion get the job! from no where, suddenly he got the job. after he got his TR planning to his PR,and his incident problem showing a green light. he will no longer jobless and has plan in his life

Joko has officially graduate from Unisa, has his first degree in his life, going back to Indonesia and leaving Adelaide, no turning back wherever he was, and keep looking forward to his future carrier

See, Hoe God works in our life.

"Blessed are those who believe without seeing" John 20:29

a sweet friendship refresh the soul

2011-08-25T00:26:00.003+09:30

Finally, the time had come...

after 16 years searching for education, it comes to the end

and you get your first degree..

I can't imagine how it feels to be graduated, i think you pretty much relief, and ready to build your future..

Congratulations.

*joko graduation

After 1,5 months separation with you, I can feel the difference..

there is no body to talk to directly, to share and built our faith..dull.

that was only the trial,

now the time is come...you going to leave Adelaide for good.
somehow, deep inside my heart, I feel so distress

one and half month without you was bad enough to call it as a misery,

I feel half.. and another quarter gone with you,and now it's going to permanently gone..

I need to come back with my own life, the normal life that I used to have before, even I forgot how it was without you..

You are a great friend of mine, one of the best friend in my life,

you had been sparkled my life in Adelaide

I feel so sorry for my self being to dependent with you, so I should feel this pain of separation,

after this point, we might not going to be the same. we might forgot whatever relation that we have before,

but I believe we always can come back.. in the same path.. called.. memories.

I'll going to miss you Joko...

and always keep you in my prayer.

2011-08-23T21:19:00.001+09:30

Plan-update

2011-08-23T00:28:00.003+09:30

This week is a BIG week,

one f my best friend, Joko Susilo, will come back to Adelaide, after our two months separation, for his big day...graduation!!!

and after this he will leave Adelaide permanently, sad :(

I have prepared him something that i never done it before, something that I hate the most, closely tp craft and those stuff

and second, this week is my beloved birthdayy!! ohh nooo kamu tambah tua sayanggg..wkwkwk

honestly I have prepared something for him *hopefully he doesn't read this post, or if he does, please pretend like you didn't ok? :)

For him, I always do something that I never done in my life..somewthing new..something tat i need to learn.

this two person is an important friend of mine at the moment.. so I really need to gift my best for both of them, and that takes my breath away,

What I hope is, they can feel loved, and for sure, the loved of God will flow to their heart so they will more thankful for life which God has been given to him.

and Bu asanah is not feeling well,

well this will be a hetic week aye? luckily I haven't start work, so I can do what I want first.

thought

2011-08-20T13:49:00.000+09:30

saya mau pacaran selama 3-5 tahun boleh nggak?

syaratnya harus dengan orang yang sama :)

i want t-shirt

2011-08-16T23:17:00.002+09:30

Everything that came from God,

is the best for me,...

including him... :)

* God will give you the right person in your life

a person that you NEED.-

regrets

2011-08-13T12:11:00.002+09:30

I couldn't express my feeling right now, everything seems bounded up and hit me.

Maybe it's just because of me, my period came and I couldn't resist my temperament which getting worst. I hate people blame me because of their fault, and I hate people who interrupt me,and didn't understand my condition. worst, those people are my close friends. they totally ruined up my day. plus, My beloved still in camp, and I couldn't contact him at all, even there are some friends who willing to listen to me, but somehow it affects my mood.

I always want to think, maybe it's not because of me, somehow I need to fight against those small problems that wasn't suppose to be my responsibility, sometimes I should let them know what I have done to them, so that they will have more understanding,

but in the end, it doesn't work. it end up fight and it's pain.

I can feel the burn inside my heart, and my head exploded and feels like shout to them. I feel like hurt them back 100 times deeper! luckily it didn't happened.

this is my bad character. I didn't like people to take over my power, they don't have right to limit my movements, especially control for whatever I want to do. that's me, even how hard I tried to hide, it's still inside me. I just need to control it.

and Luckily, Father never leave me, every time I see His picture, my heart start to melt, and tears dropping. I feel so shame about what I have proud of, because my dignity, my pride which makes me so powerful,because it's nothing for Him. it's not what He wants from me...

oh God, even good people should feel the pain from those who their loved.

God, forgive me.. I'm just a human.. please forgive me,

and heal this pain.

apa artinya 1,5 hari?

2011-08-12T21:14:00.003+09:30

Sang kekasih berangkat camp, semoga bisa dapet banyak ilmu yang bisa diceritain tiap malam..

Sang kekasih nggak lupa bawa selimut, bagus lah nggak kedinginan kalo malam...

Sang kekasih bilang, "handphone akan disita sampe camp berakhir", I was like " seriusss??? "

yah ternyata bukan hanya ujian buat yang disono, tapi juga cobaan buat disini :(

yah akhirnya...hidup tanpa sang kekasih selama 1,5 hari..

kayaknya ini bakal jadi period terlama kita nggak kontekan selama 8 bulan terakhir...

Hmmm....

Give all heart to God... I will be alright sayang.

Cute

2011-08-11T14:23:00.001+09:30

matthew 6:25-34

2011-08-09T02:01:00.000+09:30

²⁵ “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? ²⁶ Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life^[e]?

²⁸ “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹ Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰ If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? ³¹ So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ ³² For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³ But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

gift from heaven

2011-08-07T23:07:00.003+09:30

this is more than just a gift,

but CARE, TRUST and LOVE

I will take care of it :) , thanks sayang <3

love life

2011-08-04T20:20:00.004+09:30

after longg process of discernment
Thanks God for trusting me to taking care of him,
will never disappoint you :)
and please let him know to love me with with all his heart,
and taking care of me, as You do.

I know that we can going through this,
there is nothing call distance in Love.

can't wait to hold your hands sayang~ x.o.x.o

Singles For Christ Oceania Conference in Sydney

2011-08-03T23:06:00.005+09:30

As I've said, last week was the first time I visit Sydney, I had no expectation for the conference, just wanna go there and hope that I can going back to Adelaide with something. even for giving extra 2 days after the conference, it's because of the cheaper flight on Wednesday. However, the price that I have paid was worthed after what I had experienced.

SFC-Singles For Christ Oceania Conference.
I never thought that this community will gave me such a bless in my life, start with intention seeking of God, and really I found Him through this community.

"But seek the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all will be given to you"

Matthew 6:33

This phrase really become a rhyme in my life, whenever you put God in the first place, everything will be full fill in your life. really it's not easy to put God in the first place above our things, and whenever our prayer didn't come true, we ended up with disappointed and questioning about Him. manage our expectation is really important for us be able to do His will, we never know what happen in the next few second, maybe the building that we in might be shouted down because of the terrorist, or someone might die,or Born of the babies, However it is we still need to walk with out faith, faith to Him that everything happens is always for our Good.

Last weekend was a trendemouse time, I learn a lot from the conference, how we find out about our weaknesses, admit that we always fell into that sins, knowing that every person is not perfect, their doing sins, their fall, but the difference is their act after their fall into sins. through many sharing from the brother and sister from SFCs, My eyes were opened, there are so many of them fell into terrible sins, more than mine, but their still standing now, repent, and go back to God's way. I learn how to accept my weaknesses, and how to overcome it. I learn how to make my self armed so that evil won't touch me anymore. with knowing our weaknesses, and aware of it, we won't let evil to attack us from that part. and to fight back against them,

"If God is for us, Who can against us?"

Romans 8:31

Friends, every time we do sins, we are not feeling comfortable, do we? it is totally against our norm, or values that exsist in our society. I understand it might be different to certain people who has different standard, but as a Christian, our standard is in the Bible. everything that out from it, is not God's intention. God created us perfect, as what he wants, but it is us who made our life complicated with our desire, everything is our choice. You choose to do sins, because it does makes you comfortable, pleasure, and feel proud, but how long it last? Hey! in the counted of years, everything will disappears, but God promise is Forever.

If you realise, whenever you do sins, you might have voices surround you which telling you to do certain things, from this conference I learn to identify the voices, which one is the voices of Holy spirit or from the evil. never, Never, NEVER follow what evil said, even though it's good, but it is against God, it will ended miserable.

I'm still a human, whenever I'm in the situation when my flesh is bigger than my spirit, I always pray. Hail Mary, Our Father, and Glory be. and when we put the armor by praying, we need to changes our mind into positive things, and from that we can stop to think about bad stuff, and will never come to the stage of doing it. I'll try to fight for Him, because He is the one who gave me all the Love that I need, who give me all I need, who know me more than anyone, who trust me to take care of His people, and I will serve Him till the end.

and after all that I gain during the weekend, I have 2 days free. time to practicing the theory that I learn, walk with faith.. and really God taking care of me,

I had a wonderful experience in Sydney, and honestly.. I'm falling in Love with it. remains me of Kuala Lumpur where everything is provided. such a beautifully city and I would like to come back one day, sorry Adelaide to betray you, but I still love you as if my hometown

<3 you Lord. my saviour

this some of the picture back then

touching moment

our commitment, what colour r u?

with Father Greg, the youngest priest in Australia, 24 years old!!

jump in look up point

cathedral St.Mary, no photos inside

opera house

SFC's Adelaide!!

old song

2011-08-03T23:00:00.001+09:30

sedikit lebay, tapi...

pretty much a great song to listen

SYDNEY COMINGGG

2011-07-28T13:39:00.001+09:30

I'M COMING FOR SFC OCEANIA CONFERENCE IN SYDNEYY!!!!!

getting attached

2011-07-26T12:29:00.008+09:30

Does getting attach to someone is something wrong?

this week, this topic become booming and bubbling in my day..
One of my friend is not a type of person who like being attach, call this person Mr.Safe, the thing that make it harder he treating other people equally the same, same amount of love, same amount of care, and the amount is extraordinary that often makes other have wrong intention to him, and tend to getting attach to him. call this person Mr.SweetSmile who has a pure heart to care and love his friends with whole heart, looking for a guy as a best friend, and interested in Mr.Safe.

Unfortunately, Mr Safe doesn't really feel comfortable of what Mr.SweetSmile acts towards him. because he treat other people equally and he didn't feel anything special happened between them. opposite what Mr.SweetSmile felt, and it makes him a lil disappointed. the problem is because there is a lack of element in the way their building the relationship. Mr Safe doesn't want to get attach because he had a bad experience in the previous relationship with anyone, that is why he can't trust people. where by Mr.SweetSmile feels that he can give whatever Mr.Safe need, just there is a missing element which is TRUST.

trust in Chinese

What happen between them it's just a example of many cases in the world.
who says getting attach is a bad idea? there is a positive and negative aspect in this area. getting attach means that you will not living alone, you will need to consider everything not as a individual but as a team, and you can't simply decide something as in what YOU need, but what WE need, in this case will growing a senses of care, love and downgrade you egocentric in your self, because you need care to other people . that is the big different between. and more over, the negative part is you will affect each other in many ways, and of course, it will be difficult to work a part with your partner.

I always have a problem of getting attach, not only you. trust me, I've gone through many painful process of being attach and separate after that, and getting really hard on me to get back on my track ALONE. believe or not, most of us in this world are not born to be alone, like Adam needs Eva to accompany him in the Eden.

in my opinion, it's really hard to get attach with someone, I mean it. I rather attach with Jesus or Holy Spirit than with human that mostly will disappoint us. and having a intimate spiritual relationship with them really gave me a great outcome, not even a single damage, but power in most of the time, and I'm willing to getting attach with them the rest of my life, ops, I still have my own life, I'm not going to ended as a nun? Am I? haha

looking back in the reality and the challenge that God has given, I'm ready to getting attach with someone.. Or I think, might already get attach to him now, even it's not officially =).that is when I took the challange of getting hurt, sacrifice, forgiving, love unconditionally, whatever that it cost me, I will take. but having to say this is really hard for me to thinking that we are actually apart, and have no idea when we can be together, and figure out our real character.

Still thinking about our conversation last night, that we are actually talking about our future. and we can see our path is not yet meet in the same way
really hard to imagine, because as a partner, there is no way to be separate, even there is still a long way to go the future, I have no idea how I can get attach in this situation, but the problem it's already happen.

I told him not to think about us first, but concentrate on his future.
because I believe his future is his. is not always about me, I might not be his future, but I'm here now, will helping him through out this hard time of his life. or maybe only in this period, then we take our own way?,we might never know.
and I still have a dream that I want to build, I still want to learn many stuff that require me to travel. and getting attach might be a liitle hard for me. but I have found someone who worthwile, and it's gonna take us a long process till we get it trhough the real obstacles.

Honestly, I have no right answer to this puzzle, I need more time to get it done.
but I believe, there is nothing wrong to get attach. it's the matter make use of getting hurt and sacrifice,and care. but you also will learn something that you can't pay it with dollars. choose the right person who trust worthy. If you find one in your life, keep them, and build your world, and fill it with love.

if you haven't find one, pray to God that he will find you the right one, someone that you need.

=)

fav activity

2011-07-25T19:57:00.002+09:30

Hey Yo!
what are you doing in Saturday night?

normally people spending their saturday night with dating or hang out with friends, that is basically what we do in the different ways.
I, normally have a quality time with Icha and Reggie, drive all the way to om Johnny's House. spending time with him and Tante Lina,having dinner continue with watching our favourite show, Last Choir Standing which really made our night.

What makes this show really ourstanding?

these days, many Tv shows are about competition, makes choir as a one great choice.
since there are many of them and it seems difficult to manage in the studio, not many Television channel brave enough to broadcast it.
but in UK, it's already begin... with Last Choir Standing.
is really fenomenal for me, since I was growing with choir team as i move around, this shows really inspired me, fenomenal
besides, there are many emotional involve behind it, since it is a competition, for sure we wants our fav team win.
Sadly this shows come to the end, In Australia last week was the grand final, and the winner is fantastic, one of my fav choir team. ONLY MEN ALOUD.

Why I love them?
first, maybe because they all are man, middle ages, and most of them really, REALLY good looking! they know how to sing, perform, and steal audience heart! damn!

So let's see, do they will steal your heart as well??

Everything is about Him

2011-07-21T19:48:00.004+09:30

Such a long time didn't update my blog with long entries, perhaps now, I will fill this post with long writing.

living in the present, with many things going on, I feel that I am living in the reality. with loads of love which God gives to me everyday, courage me to spread it to everyone, make me become a person who feel responsible to everyone happiness. this feeling always with me since I was young, I like to help others, I become alive when people needs me. but someone remains me how it is not supposed to be a burden, and not everything is my responsibility.This is God's way for me to figure out my character.

today I have chilling time reading a blog of someone who always inspires me, Jaeson Ma

His writing struck me a lot! with all powerful word, he types to describe how God works in him trademously, made me feel Jesus is not far away, He is here, just beside me.
Whenever I read his blog, I always stunning with the words that has been discover through his faith and it is so true, stake inside my heart and rooted, make me more alive.
I realise a lot of people in this world are love God, want to follow Him, and admit him as a saviour, but how many of them are willing to sacrifice their life, to work in Jesus land and do His work? not many.
either me, is far aways from that position. even for doing what Jaeson Ma has done to discover him self and what God wants in his further service, is like impossible. but see the result, God really use him to proclaim His victory in human life.
I admire him, I really do.
every time I read the blog, encourage me to more for God's will

recently I have grumbled with self-discovering issued. everyone has it, and currently someone that really close to me having that problem. really I want to help him to discover him self, to paid off everything that not worthed in the past with letting go the pain, and I just don't know how. when I read Jaeson words, now I understand that each of us actually has the same problem.

"When you are busy, you can suppress your deepest and darkest pains,
but when you are in solitude, you have to come face to face with who you
really are. In solitude, I couldn’t get away from having to face my inner
demons. For me, the two greatest inner demons were the fear of failure and
the fear of success. That is, the fear of failing my own expectations,
failing others and ultimately failing God. The other inner demon was the
fear of succeeding. That is, not knowing whether or not my hopes, dreams and aspirations were for my own glory, or God’s glory. I couldn’t trust myself, for the heart is deceitful above all things. Daily I wrestled, day in and
day out with the fear of failure and the fear of success standing before me,
like two mighty demonic giants, taunting me and telling me to give up on
myself, that there was no hope because I was too messed up."

actually all of us has the same problem on it, when we work with God, he wants us to work with all our heart, with all our soul, all out. and when we are not comfortable with who we are, how we going to serve him? and how all the works is deign for him?
as we serve, we can't really think about our self, because everything that we have is God who has given to us. really all the freedom.liberties, only for his glory. How powerless is that? how hopeless when we can't even trust our self and walking in the path with someone who invisible.
that is when our faith is proven.
but every process has different sacrifice, what we need to do is figure out how we can experience the process and win the game.

"Life is beautiful, really. Even with all the ups and downs, all the
struggles and pain, there is also victory and success. Life is a beautiful
struggle, without pain there would be no compassion, without death there would
not be life, don’t be afraid to embrace the broken for in the broken we find
life, something we can’t find in heaven, something we only have on earth*"

this quote truly opened my eyes widely, we never understand that every problem is there because of reason, and often, we don't want to get hurt and failure, we tend to believe that something unsuccesfull is from evil not from God, have you think about what you have gain through the process? that is God's gift for you!

As a normal person I'm still struggling with my past relationship, It's really hard for me to move on, even hard to figure out what made me scared to step in a new relationship. I'm afarid to be betray again, I'm afarid of the pain of Love, I'm afaraid being hurt. but I read from somewhere, every process that I will going through is something worthwhile, my job is to find someone who worth for it, worth to be trusted. Indeed, Love is pain, but Love is beautifull pain ( *Jaeson Ma form :P)

In my way to the next level in my life, I really want to be someone who can serve others and be bless, serving God is my pleasure, is like an air for me to breath, can go away from it. In the stillness I normally can found His presence. and I'm so gratefull that I have someone who indirect way help me to create that quiteness, and found His presence trough our circumstances.
"Life is not found in the noise, life is found in the stillness. Something to think about. It’s not about how many things we accomplish, it’s about how many moments we cherish. Enjoy the moment :)" Jaeson Ma

Anyway, this is really long, and I hope understanable.
just read the blog and feel how Jaeson Ma will inspires you!

my condition

2011-07-21T16:06:00.001+09:30

"I'm single, but my heart is taken :)"

happy birthday edo

2011-07-18T03:05:00.000+09:30

mencari breeds-nya bobby

2011-07-18T01:17:00.002+09:30

only random thought,just wondering....
If I have my own house in the future, I really want to have at least one dog at home...
so I'm looking for one similar with bobby,
and I think I find it!

terrier Dandie

wondering- for someone

2011-07-15T00:17:00.003+09:30

after someone gave me David Choi- by my side

which is in implicit way, telling me what inside his brain

I really feel that the message inside is truly reflect what he is trying to say.

At the moment, I have song for you in return

and please someone out there,who I refer to

let me know if you listen to this song :)

love quote

2011-07-14T02:55:00.000+09:30

Do not afraid to love,

if it doesn't bite means it is not reaL

-Alice Suryadi

iva....

2011-07-13T02:32:00.001+09:30

the label is taken out, the folder is reused
but the person is irreplaceable, the memories are unforgettable

-Reginald Jahja

why love is always hurt?

2011-07-11T02:47:00.005+09:30

*please let me know that I'm going to be alright with you

the truth is

2011-07-10T02:28:00.000+09:30

hurt...

aku belum siap relationship Lord, pleaseee....

sakit sakittt sakitttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!!!

:'''(

gagal lagi

2011-07-07T22:58:00.003+09:30

trip saya selanjutnya ke Melbourne, tanggal 10-13 July untuk menemui my beloved friend Max Choong, GAGAL!
the reason is because TIGER AIRWAYS *again,will be grounded till 1st of August , because of their license and safety purposes.

Good thing is, I don't have to spend more money since currently I experiences insufficient fund for my living cost, and I need to get a job!!!
Bad thing is, I cannot see Max Choong... tooo bad.

anyway,
God has His own plan, however, I will still flying to Sydney for Oceania Single for Christ Conference the end of this month. WOOOOHOOOOOO!!!!!!!

bukan mantan pacar saya....

2011-07-05T19:36:00.005+09:30

tapi the most preciouse guys in my life....

for now =='

crafers and snow~

2011-07-04T13:43:00.002+09:30

HOlidaY.. GateAwaYyy

2011-06-30T16:58:00.003+09:30

teaser....

kenapa aku bilang teaser??? karena lengkapnya ada di SINI

Hey, I just went back from our wonderfull a week trip
walau banyak alar rintangan yang datang dan menguji... termasuk natural disaster problem, I guess, chille volcano ash distruption doesn't really stop us to meet up!

mulai dari cancelation flight dari Adelaide tanggal 21 june, all the flight, include ours, was cancelled. jadi Joko and me langsung memutuskan untuk pergi lewat jalur darat, 8 hours bus, demi catch our flight to Hobart tomorrow, which is juga belum tentu berangkat. (again karena volcano distruption)

another problem came from Dion's flight from perth to melb, delayed till the next day afternoon, jadi approximately Dion bakal sampe Melbourne jam 11pm, sementara flight kita ke Hobart jam 4pm So, either we pray for flight cancel and replace to the next day or, we cancel the whole trip.

Hard decision emang, di keadaan yang serba nggak menentu ini kami hanya ingin ketemu and sharing apa yang kami dapatkan selama 6 bulan berpisah, deg deg an liat status flight dari airport ke airport yang isinya cuman delay sama cancel, keinginan kami untuk bertemu yang semakin dalam membuat kami mampu melakukan apa aja.

asalkan kami bisa barengan, apa aja boleh.. menangguhkan trip pun kami rela,kan ketemua nggak harus di hobart? toh trip ini awalnya diadakan supaya kami (dion-me-joko) bisa ketemu sebelum masih2 forgood, dan juga untuk alasan ke amanan. takutnya kami kesana tapi nggak bisa balik repot juga. haha akhirnya sore itu. Flight cancel. (amin ato alamk??) dan Dion arrived safely (glad to see him!)

the next day, kita re route trip, cancel trip kami ke Hobart menuju canberra, tetep driving and plan everything from begining.

untungnya Tuhan itu Luar biasa, semua cancelation yang disebabkan oleh volcano ash, hotel dan pesawat, di fully return!! jadi kami nggak terlalu rugi banyak, dan masih below budget.

Yang jelas, kami bener2 dapet liburan yang awesome, mengenal karakter satu sama lain lebih lagi, menghargai dan saling menyanyanyi dan terlebih ketemu orang orang baru yang luarrr biasa, yang ngajak kita jalan jalan selama trip.

dalam trip ini, I learnt how to control my emotion and think logically, the result is real! and with prayer to mother mary

everything become a perfect gatewayyyy

wish for the trip

2011-06-20T02:11:00.004+09:30

pengen ngomong, tapi nggak tau ama siapa...

pengen cerita, tapi nggak tau mulai dari mana..

pengen curhat, tapi nggak tau mau ngomong apa...

pokoknyaaa.....

for the seek of our trip, not many emotional involve please...

*I know how to behave

character that I need (7)

2011-06-19T16:32:00.001+09:30

I need a guy who don't smoke!!!
so he will not danger me, or any of our childern in the future.

character that I need (6)

2011-06-18T03:54:00.003+09:30

I need a guy who knows that He loves me,

not because I care about him, or because what I have done to him

but because everything he need is in me, and He trust that I can make him happy.

akhirnya balik juga

2011-06-17T03:21:00.000+09:30

Yuhuuu, akhirnya si Dion balik juga dari indonesia,

setelah sebulan terpisah oleh ratusan pulau dan ribuan kilometer, even wassap and internet nggak bisa totally connect kita. benar2 sebulan yang menyedihkan (buat saya).

dan welcome juga buat periodku yang ikut2 datang dan pergi kayak Dion *loh! , soalnya bulan lalu aku dapet pas Dion pul indo, ini ditunggu2 dapetnya pas Dion balik sini.. nah period, lu emang ada hubungan apa sama dion? #periodselingkuhyaaa

Anyway, siap siap menyadari apa yang berubah setelah ditinggalkan selama sebulan oleh teman curhatku ini ..

yang aku tau, I hardly to tell him how I feel and what I want. soalnya udah sebulan aku nggak speak up tetang apa yang ada dipikiranku secara mendetail sama orang lain, like what we used to share everyday. soalnya semenjak kepergian dia aku nggak ada temen bicara heart to heart dan lebih cenderung meletakkan semua ke Tuhan. soalnya tlpn indo mahallll, udah gitu Dion ga mau tlpn ak lg..huhuhuhu.. #terlupakandotcom :(

skrg aku harus pelan2 mengumpulkan cerita2 bahagia dia selama di Indo, untuk bisa conncet balik hubungan kita sebelum kita travelling ke Tasmania.

Ups, did I just said that??

Yeeappp..., minggu depan, tepatnya hari selasa,I will going to travel for 9 days, Melbourne and Tasmania. nggak cuman berdua ama Dion donkkkk (nanti kl ama dia berangkat 2 pulang 3org, LOL) , tapi juga sama Joko and Ce Christin.

namun, sebelum membayangkan hal hal indah yang akan terjadi, ato hal hal buruk *choy! , aku harus menyelesaikan advertising assigment 'laknat' ini (TM: cicilia iskandar & eveline indra)

serius mann, pressure abis... masak harus ngerjain 2000 wordS dalam waktu 3 hari se?? nggak penuh lagi soalnya minggu harus choir hari minggu and senen due nya jam 5 sore , dan masalahnya... AKU BELUM NYENTUH SAMA SEKALII (mampoesssssssss)

ini bukan salah saya saudara2 karena hari2 sebelumnya ada assigment juga, yang due hari ini. semuanya worth 50% nd required 2000 words above.. woohoooooooo

yah begitulah derita orang golongan darah A, kalo nggak percaya diri nggak bakal maju maju (loh! apa hubungannya?) hahahha

yang jelas, saya punya keyakinan bahwa ini assignment bakal kelar! apalagi ada si suara tinggi yang udah available di telpon kapan aja unutuk menuangkan uneg2 saia (ya dion ya :P)

Yah doakan rahmat Tuhan mengalir atas saya. AMIEN

My nikkhunn

2011-06-16T13:18:00.003+09:30

Come to mamaaa..

*diambil dari someone's Blackberry in Indonesia ♥

Ragu..

2011-06-16T01:25:00.001+09:30

ragu banget apakah kita bisa satu...
ragu banget apakah kamu bener untuk aku...

karena sangat nyaman kalo hubungannya nggak kayak yang kita mau,
lebih nyaman kayak gini dari pada lebih lagi...

hah... biar Tuhan yang atur enaknya gimana..
Hidup tetep milikku kok.

Ivana's quote

2011-06-16T01:08:00.001+09:30

SFC trailer!

2011-06-14T17:09:00.000+09:30

stress

2011-06-14T17:02:00.002+09:30

yes, I'm stress out.
biasa... masalah assigment.
parahnya ini dibarengin ama nggak enak badan mau flu, plus period. badalaaaa...triple musketersss...
kalo udah kayak gini bawaannya focus ama diri sendiri. malah I addmitted, kadang terlalu egois.
masih terus mendoakan, masih terus melayani, masih terus ngurusin kegiatan gereja
tapi untuk hal perasaan, aku nggak mau diusik, apalgi if you didn't enough effort to compromising me, that you are worth to by my side and helping me.. gile gengsi gede banget
emang sungguh, jangan usik Nadia pada saat ini, either kamu dapat sentakan, ato tangisan...
emosional banget ya.

Tapi yang jelas, hari ini aku sangat mendapat siraman rohani dari Bu As

Bu As itu, ibuku di Adelaide..
awalnya cuman seorang ibu Indonesia yang pinter masak, terus ce ninies titipin ibu itu ke kami yang di Adelaide, karena di mau pulang for good.
aku sich seneng seneng aja, tapi nggak nyangka kalo "njagain" nya sampe kayak gini.
yah jadinya tak anggap ibu sendiri dee..

Bu As itu orangnya tuluss, baik banget,
walaupun semua orang tua terkesan baik, namun bu As ini beda... dia bener2 kuat luar dalam
mungkin Dia nggak terlalu aktif di gereja karena njagain Om Bob (suaminya org aussie) yang udah tua banget dan sakit sakitan,
yang bikin aku tambah salut itu, meskipun dia jarang ikut kegiatan keagamaan, dia selalu berdoa tiap hari.
nggak pernah show off, nggak pernah muluk2
bener bener bisa lihat bahwa Tuhan itu dekat dengan dia. dan itu juga yang membuat aku tenang setiap kali aku ke rumahnya.

Nah, hari ini.. aku masih banyak assgmnt ceritanya, tapi tetep haru ke rumah Bu As karena udah janji mau belanjain...
rumahnya nggak di Adelaide, di gunung, Crafers namanya... kira setengah jam dari Adelaide naik bus.
sebentar aku bersinggah kesana, terus mau langsung ke library... ternyat bu As sharing sama aku

Dia mimpi Tuhan Yesus...
aku langsung kaget donk! biasa kalo orang mimpi tentang Tuhan Yesus kan ada tanda tanda?
tapi mimpinya beda, dia bilang Tuhan Yesus dateng ke dia untuk memberitahu bahwa dia harus lebih bersungguh2 dalam doanya, dengan cara melakukan puasa
Bu As bingung karena diya belum jelas tentang bagaimana puasa yang benar, lalu dia tanya sama Tuhan : " Dimana aku harus bertanya, dan kepada siapa"
tiba tiba Yesus mata Yesus mengarah ke arah seseorang yang sedang duduk...
Bu As bilang itu aku...

Pas denger itu aku tercengang...
kenapa Nadia Tuhan? tanya Bu as
lalu bu As bilang kataNya, karena aku bisa membantu bu As dalam hal ini..

sama seperti bu As, aku juga bertanya... kenapa kok aku?
soalnya pagi ini aku lagi down banget, aku bilang sama Tuhan aku lagi hancur lebur
aku nggak tau apakah dalam kondisiku seperti ini aku masih layak melayani, untuk terus bersyukur kadang susah,
adanya malah kadang2 ngomel, dan complain ama Tuhan kenapa aku dibiarin sendirian,
Really, God's work in amazing way,
dengan sharingnya Bu As, aku totally dikuatkan
mungkin tampaknya aku lagi sangat capek dan kesal, dalam kondisi yang nggak siap ketemu banyak orang untuk melayani. tapi dibalik ke lemahanku an aku, Tuhan masih terus mampukan aku, supaya aku terus hidup di dalam hati orang orang,
banyak pekerjaan menunggu setelah ini... aku nggak mau menyerah kalo bekerja di ladang Tuhan.

God, please work your miracle on me,
I want this task done, and I will serve you without burden.

Gbless

tentang CINTA

2011-06-11T14:48:00.005+09:30

Aku mau belajar untuk mencintai lagi...

Tapi dalam arti berbeda,
mungkin aku memang selalu pengen mencintai semua ciptaan Tuhan dan menghargai segala isinya, namun cinta yang aku maksud kali ini adalah mencintai kaum adam.

Sudah 2 tahun, aku masih belum berani untuk in relationship with any cowok. masih belum siap komitmen, masih belum siap sakit lagi, dan masih belum siap kalo kalo gagal lagi. Namun nggak bisa dipungkiri, semua orang harus mengalami tahap ini, dan harus lulus di ujiannya.
Mencintai juga suatu proses belajar...
Belajar untuk berbagi, belajar untuk mengerti, belajar untuk memahami orang lain, belajar untuk berkorban, dan rela memaafkan dalam segala hal.
Sungguh, bukan suatu yang mudah karena kita bener2 harus membuka seluruh karakter dan semua yang ada dalam diri kita untuk bisa mncapai hasil yang maksimal.

Dalam dunia yang dewasa ini, aku merasa bahwa kita bisa memilih untuk mencintai ato tidak.mungkin kita nggak bisa memilih untuk jatuh cinta sama siapa, karena chemistry dan faktor faktor yang lain juga menentukan, tapi kita bisa mengontrol, seberapa besar perasaan kita terhadap dia, dan seberapa banyak yang mau kita korbankan untuk itu.

kemaren baru baca blog seseorang di Perth, dan aku setuju banget dengan kutipan dia.

"Mencintailah karena kamu mau mencintai,

bukan karena ingin mendapatkan balasan dicintai."
"mencintai itu adalah proses dan terus belajar"
-Eveline Indra

Kadang susah juga mikirnya, karena ketika kita ngomong soal relationship, berarti harus ada dari kedua belah pihak, intinya.. masing masing harus belajar

mungkin kita bisa memilih untuk mencintai dan berkorban, untuk terus belajar karakter dia dan memahami kondisi, namun ketika itu cuman dialami sepihak saja, bukan relationship namanya.

kedua dua nya harus mau di proses dan belajar, dan harus sama sama memahami bahwa relationship itu harus saling memberi, berkorban, dan memaafkan...

Goshhh..., buat bayangin aja aku susah, apalagi ngejalaninnya

pasti dengan air mata, air keringat dan air ludah semua keluar...

namun, aku tetep menjalani apa yang sudah ada, dan nggak mau berpikir tentang hasilnya.

kalopun nanti nggak harus jadi serius, yah yang jelas aku bisa mendapatkan banyak pelajaran dari proses ini, dan aku harap dia juga mengalami hal yang sama.

Yah... mencintai...bukan karena pengen dicintai ya Nadia :)

one week

2011-06-10T17:19:00.000+09:30

ONE WEEK TO GOOO!!!!
and I will hear you voice whenever I want!

"ter-beban"

2011-06-10T16:19:00.005+09:30

I don't know whether this is the correct words to express my feeling,
obviously everyone has their favourite activity, for me, rather than thinking about my 2 assignments that due next week, and worth 50%, I rather thinking about something else..
somehow it doesn't make any senses, even pretty much destructing me, however I always end up writing a blog, because I discover something about my self.

"terbeban" , in English means burdened.
I burdened with all the assignments and over thinking of something else, too much emotional involve somehow, and I burdened by all the responsibility that I should done.
but, how about burdened with honour?

That is what I feel everytime I work in Jesus land..
last time I was His sheep, and now He mold me to be a shepherd.
really is not an easy job, but I always hold this verse, which I got from one Senior who inspired me so much

"Kesanggupan kami adalah pekerjaan Allah"
- 2 Kor 3:5

Adelaide, is one of the promising land who God has given to me. with a lot of struggle, I found my real way back to His house, the place where I wanted to be, the place which I can feel His love everyday, work in His land, and be bless to others who in needs.

Really, I don't want to stop here.. and So far, I'm trying to keep up the Choir, be able to serving the mass every month. Gather all the youngsters and keep them update with anything happen in the church.

but there is something missing from Adelaide.., not many youngsters, no MUDIKA.

one of my friend Cicil , somehow remains me to be alert with this.
seriously, I'm not really into MUDIKA, because personally I have problem to communicate liberally with many people, and I am not good in organisation.

but, MUDIKA Adelaide need to be started, and I really want to make them exist and not sinking. Adelaide has a Youth, even we are not really active, but we have community to accommodate all the idea and creativity of youngsters in Adelaide.

YES, not much... not many youngsters are willing to serve God, and I admitted, Adelaide is small city, not many Indonesian who is Catholic stay, and even harder to find someone who wants to serve. fiuh~

Honestly, I understand that I'm not alone, and this is not my work, This is God's work. He is able to everything,

but I just need partner to start, I really have no idea how to do this, I just have a longing to serve Him and do His work. but to start this work need a lot of sacrifice and commitment. I can't handle this by my self.. I need peoples to fight with me, and have a strong desire to work for Jesus.

God, I surrender... I only have heart to serve You

"Terjadilah padaku menurut perkataanMu"

Pizza crafers

2011-06-07T18:34:00.001+09:30

Scraft

2011-06-05T21:48:00.001+09:30

not good

2011-06-04T14:34:00.002+09:30

Hope this storm will not break down my wall,
too painfull to look the past, and every single fact in the present make me down.
God help.
T_______T

emo song tapi bukan emo day!- flash back SMA

2011-05-30T19:08:00.007+09:30

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Nah, tiba2 waktu tadi search ttg "ada band", banyak juga lagu2 memorable yang mucul.
salah satu adalah lagu ini " setengah hati" , anjrott..begitu denger melody awalnya udah ke tusuk2, urat2ku tegang semua, bulu kudu merinding semua..
ternyata lagu ini mengiringi hari2ku dimana aku pas down, pas masa SMA, yang jadi satu sejarah dalam hidupku
ada satu lagu lagi sich... lagunya ungu "DEMI WAKTU" anjrotttt!!!!!

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ARrrrggghhhhhhhhh...... bener2 cinta SMA busyet buju buneng ngukur berapa liter airmata yang udah keinjek2
hahahahahahaha
duu sich sakit banget yah,,gile. termehek2...
sekarang begitu denger lagunya, kayaknya cuman pengen ketawa aja, begitu canggihnya aku bisa menemukan lagu2 jadul gak karu2an...WAKAKAKAKKAKA, kalo misalnya sekarang aku bisa ketawa ngakak, aku bakal ngakak nich...masalahnya aku di library jadi kumatnya harus di tahan.

anyway, saatnya share kenapa lagu2 ini sangat menohok...
Ceritanya lagu ini pas kelas 2 SMA... (kalo berani research, 2 lagu ini lagi hits saat itu) cuman berawal dari jaman kelas 1 SMA.

3 tahun di SMA, nadia yang masih tomboy dan polos menunggu 1 orang cowok yang tampaknya cuman satu satunya di dunia ini yang bisa mencuri hatinya. (saya berani katakan namanya sekarang Steffen Whezzt Wijaya

Dia adalah ketua kelas yang charming, pendek dan imut. aigooooo ...
menikmati seninya menunggu, dan maju mundur dalam cinta. Nadia memilih untuk mengungkapkan perasaan hatinya kepada jejaka ini, naik2an kelas 2 SMA, Nadia menulis surat kepada cowok ini, bahwa She like Him. not asking him to be her BF soalnya diya cukup tau, nich cowok nggak ngelirik diya sama sekali. hahaha, jadi yah... ini diya balasan dari cowoknya

(original from Frienster)

"thanx km dah baek be aku.
tp jujur ae aku ga terlalu suka lek diperhatino terus
ama siapa ae.
biasa ae ky temen. aku maune kita temenan ky
biasa. sorry aku ngomong ky gini. tp drpd ntik
akhire ga enak. tp mari aku ngomong gini, km ojok
ngerasa aku jahat be km. kita tetep temen. ok?!"

(LOL, ngakak juga kalo aku liat lagi, ntah apa yang Nadia katakan pada jejaka ini sampai balas seperti itu *purapuralupa)

Anyway, Nadia yang sudah merelakan cintanya, dan udah memulai kisah2 yang baru, tetep aja kepikiran ama si Whest, jadi walaupun kelas 2 SMA, nadia tetep aja punya rasa yang sangat dalam ama nich cowok. sampe suatu saat, nadia mendengar kalo nich cowok punya pacar

JJJJJJJDUARRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yah, bila dibayangkan bagaimana rasanya, apalagi cewek ini tuh satu sekolah sama Nadia. melihat mereka gandengan tangan, pangku2an di sekolah.. rasanya golok, pedang, gelati mau keluar semua... Gosshhhhhhh......Nadia yang berusaha kelihatan tegar, tetap berdiri, dan mencari idaman hati yang lain alias pelarian, hingga tiba2 sahabat nadia Regina Lusi dan Caecilian Werdi menyadarkan Nadia untuk berhenti memakai topeng dan menunjukkan kehancurah hatinya, mencoba menerima keadaan.

sore itu hujan lebat, sangat lebat. Saint Albertus Dempo terlihat sangat suram dan gelap.tiada suara lain selain isak tangis Nadia dan tetesan air hujan, Nadia jatuh... terpungkur. nggak cuman keadaan batinnya, tapi fisiknya. Hingga keesokan harinya, Nadia harus di opname karena terjangkit demam berdarah dan trombostinya turun sampe dibawah 100.

Hmmm,,, 10 hari... dan menghabiskan duit 12 juta untuk akhirnya bisa keluar dari rumah sakit..bukan cuman demam berdarah , terlebih karena patah hati... alamakkkkk....
ya lagunya dua itu, Demi waktu dan separuh hati.
akhirnya cowok ini putus pas Nadia keluar rumah sakit, alhamdulilahhh.... Namun ya emang dasarnya NAdia nggak pengen jadian jadi bahagianya diem diem aja,
terus, nggak lama, Nadia mengungkapkan perasaan lagi terhadap nich cowok pake lagunya "Unttitle-Malique d'essensial', dan tidak ditanggapi... kasihannnn....:(

Okay, Aku jadi pengen ketawa kalo falsh back lagi. nich cerita historic abies.. walau nggak happy ending, sebenarnya kalo mau dilanjutin boleh dicoba juga, soalnya cowoknya masih eksis, tinggal disamperin, dideketin, ditanyain lagi...wakakakakakakakakkaka . been 5 years we never see each other...How are you whestt??? masih pendek2 aja?? hahahahah.

udah ah, cukup sekian hidup dalam masa lalunya. ntar disambung yang lebih ironic lagi
hahhahahahaha

Feels so gooooddddd

2011-05-30T18:03:00.003+09:30

Hey, My hormone testosterone is increase,... feels so good
the impact is, I'm being so lazy, so cheeky, and ignorance.
what a natural behaviour of taurus! LOL
I'm wearing a total casual with new hoodie from cotton ON, using my sneaker, and sleepy face, going to uni, and doing everything what I want.
It's like a BRAND NEW DAY! Wohooooo
I'm single... I love GUYS, and I love GIRLS tooo... so whoever wants me come take me now before I changes to normal tomorrow!!!!!!
XD

Flash back into my old memories. all the old songs brought me down to deeper memories about all the shitty stuff, painfull, betrayal, but most of them already burried down in the grave yard- just a memories that become part of my life. but there is old love vibration that still alive through all the song which I choose to listen today, those butterflies still in my stomatch and my heartbeat still running even faster when listening to it. GOSH....

I want to living what I want to live! I'm 22, still YOUNG, not going to MARRIED yet! not going to ended my SINGLE soon! so pleaseeeee...entertain me...

gosh! enough.
I'm just bored actually. feels great when I flash back with all that stuff.
but I'm total girl now, and still can enjoy life.
but seriously people... can you please stop assuming that I HAVE BOYFRIEND?
I'M still SINGLE.
but I do have someone... I ALWAYS HAVE (if you knew mw, you know how creepy I am about the love ones)
Hahahahahahahhaha....

anyway, God YOU ARE ROCK!!!!!!
made my day

LX 3 n LX 5 "THE SIBLINGS"

2011-05-29T22:15:00.002+09:30

Quote of the day

2011-05-25T17:29:00.002+09:30

" We like each other, and start the love night by night"

- Tom Hanks

* YOu know what I meant???? XD

enjoy!

2011-05-24T15:01:00.003+09:30

you know,
whenever I tell my self that I am not going to thingking about LOVE,
I have trapped in my own words.
so, here I am trying to manage and understand. no pressure and let it flow.

"I wanna see the world through your eyes for a day,
maybe catch a glimpse of what its like.
To be so beautiful underneath all the pain,
maybe see the soul that lies inside.
You are, the face that you never show.
You are, it hides all I wanna know,let me see.
All you are, it makes my heart break.
All you are, and Im waiting here.All you are, waiting all my life for.
The moment you might step outside show me whats been hiding under there.
When you unlock the gate,
twilights fall daylights break.
Nothing stop the way I felt for you now.
Cause Ive seen through the nights,through the tainted coloured glass.
Saw inside the log behind the shadow.
You are, the face that you never show.
You are, it hides all I wanna know,let me see.
All you are, it makes my heart break.
All you are, and Im waiting here.
All you are, waiting all my life for.
The moment you might step outside show me whats been hiding underneath the past
I know its gone so fast,sometimes the bad things stay.
While all the good tends to fade out of your heart and mine
but somethings left behind and baby no one can take it away yeah."

Me and my first knitting :)

2011-05-22T23:48:00.002+09:30

I hate

2011-05-20T01:47:00.001+09:30

I hate waiting for you, and worried about you.

especially when I am exhausted, and you don't even know how I miss you!

sigh* T.T

for jeung eun last time

2011-05-19T09:07:00.001+09:30

this is the msg that I wrote in korean , for one of my korean friend when she went back.

How cute she still keep it, :)

Enak,tapi..

2011-05-17T15:05:00.004+09:30

First baked macaroni cheese..
Selama process baik2 saja..kecuali,
Keasinan gara2 pas buat kebanyakan mikirin kamu! :@